Song: What Was I Made For? - Billie Eilish

I used to float, now I just fall down

Falling off the mountain where his boyfriend lay, he wanted nothing more than to see him in the afterlife.

I used to know but I'm not sure now

He used to know what his purpose was, why not anymore?

What I was made for

He was just a puppet in their silly little games.

What was I made for?

He was a Watcher. Nothing more than that.

Takin' a drive, I was an ideal

In the valley, stood two girls and a boy, the beginning of a new alliance.

Looked so alive, turns out I'm not real

He was so happy with his alliance, until everything went down.

Just something you paid for

They liked to use him for power, like he was something they paid to get.

What was I made for?

He was the second winner, of these silly little games

'Cause I, I

She looked out of her tower, her soulmate had broken up with her.

I don't know how to feel

Her body coursed through many different emotions, not knowing what to exactly feel.

But I wanna try

She wanted to be happy, she did.

I don't know how to feel

But the game took that away from her.

But someday, I might

Hopefully, one day, she could feel her emotions again.

Someday, I might

Hopefully, unless the game took that away again.

When did it end? All the enjoyment

He sat on the hill, a bloody blade next to him.

I'm sad again, don't tell my boyfriend

Two other bodies lay close to the ground by him, another player and his ally.

It's not what he's made for

He didn't want to be a winner, fate had made him one.

What was I made for?

He was not even human anymore, just a puppet in their silly games.

'Cause I, 'cause I

He sat in the now deserted server, trying to leave over and over again.

I don't know how to feel

He couldn't feel anything anymore, his sense of self long gone.

But I wanna try

He just wanted to get back home, and recover again.

I don't know how to feel

He didn't know if people still remember that he's still here, no one has came to get him yet.

But someday I might

Hopefully, someday, he'll get out of here.

Someday I might

Unless the Watchers beat him to his dream and destroy it.

Think I forgot how to be happy

He was only the Watcher who became the first winner. They didn't know that Grian never wanted that title.

Something I'm not, but something I can be

He was the 'Watcher's favourite'. They never called him Scott.

Something I wait for

She was only known as the 'Crazy lady". Not Pearl.

Something I'm made for

He was just the main puppet in their games, Martyn was nothing more than that.

Something I'm made for

He wasn't made for these games, Scar couldn't be a winner.

None of them wanted to continue remembering these horrid games anymore. Why were they winners?

Written on April 11