Aishah

I TRIED OPENING my eyes but it wasn't ready to open,I can't believe I have been sedated three times just because I demanded for my babies,the sedation was so energy draining that I decided not to fight anymore,I need to be on my feet so that I can ask for my babies

"Water!"I called out as my eyes refuse to open

"I'm coming"I heard my best friend's voice and not long enough she came with the water with my mom helping me to sit-down,I tried opening my eyes once more and I succeeded looking around the hospital

I drank the water like my life depends on it and I placed my head on my pillow panting trying to draw energy as I can

"How do you feel?"my mom asked

"Weak"I replied and adjusted trying to sit comfortable,my voice sound hoarse probably from the screaming "when have I been here?"

"A week five days Aishah"my mom said and my eyes shot open immediately

"Almost two weeks?!"I exclaimed I can't believe I have been here for almost two weeks

"Yes Aishah,you spent a week unconscious and wake up shouting and you have been on sedation for five days just to keep you calm"Fareedah said and my eyes welled up

"My babies?"I asked more calmly this time around,my mom stood up holding my hands and rubbing it soothingly then I know something is wrong, something is definitely wrong "mom just tell me already!"

"The baby girl is in the incubator,due to everything that happened you were forced into early labour"my mom said and I sighed then I remembered they were supposed to be two

"And the boy?"I asked carefully with my chest rising and falling,I was praying earnestly nothing should happen to him,a tear escaped my mom's eyes and she look away standing up like she can't break the news to me

"Fareedah please?!"I plead and she took my mom's seat massaging my hands like she was trying to calm me down before the storm

"When you were rushed into the hospital,you already loose a lot of blood and we all think you were going to die,the doctor have to perform operation on you immediately in order to save the babies,the girl was saved luckily and was put into an incubator but we lost the boy,his head was damaged the doctor said the hits and fall you experience affected the baby's head"Fareedah said and my heart squeezed,it squeezed so much that I felt like my heart will burst into pieces

"No! No! No! Fareedah oh my dearest baby,where is he?"I asked as new form of tears formed in my eyes,I started crying uncontrollably and I heard my mom's crying voice too, Fareedah's eyes look sour maybe from too much crying it felt like my world is coming to an end

"He was buried!"Fareedah said bursting into tears

"Oh no! I wasn't able to meet my son,Ya Allah I always fantasize how I'm going to meet him,how I'm going to show him love but look at what happened"I cried and cried,Fareedah came over to hug me

"I took his picture"Fareedah said

"Show me!"I demanded and she fumbles with her phone,she gave me the phone when she saw exactly what she's looking for

I look at the picture of the baby,you wouldn't believe he is dead it's much like he was sleeping,he looked like me with fine and pink lips,hairy and a very beautiful face,my son would have been a ladies man if he was let to live

I started crying again giving Fareedah her phone,I cursed Halimat again and again I can't believe she deprived my baby of life and I swore to Almighty Allah I'm going to make her pay

I lay back on my bed looking at the ceiling,Ibrahim came with the doctor and was surprised to see me awake

"She's awake and not shouting"he said and Fareedah nodded

The doctor came over to my side testing my vitals,he nodded in agreement

"She's okay now but she will be here in another one week so that I can be sure nothing else is wrong"the doctor said and Ibrahim hold my hand

I pull my hand away from him glaring at him,he was the cause of everything that happened he was the one who married Halimat killing the family we just start building,he look at me eyes pained but I turn away swallowing and a lone tear escaped

"We need to perform x-ray on her to be sure no other damages was caused"the doctor said and I turn looking at him

"Damages?"I asked and I look at my mom who look away crying again before she walk out of the room,Fareedah took my hand rubbing soothingly while she cried too,I gave her weird look thinking about what other damages is worse than loosing my son

Ibrahim went stiff and I got tired,it's high time this people start talking and stop giving me that weird pity sympathetic look

"I'm sorry Mrs Ibrahim,when you were brought to the hospital a lot of damages was already caused and you loosed your womb,so you're not able to make babies any longer I'm so sorry"the doctor said and my head started spinning

"What do you just say?!"I asked more like whispering,I wanted to be sure of what I heard

"I'm sorry ma you lost your womb!"the doctor said

Lost my womb

Lost my womb

Lost my womb

I can't make babies any longer

I'm now a barren woman

I shouted and shouted

"No! Ya Allah don't turn your back on me,don't do this to me oh Almighty Allah I seek refuge from you don't make me a barren woman because I love babies a lot"I started kicking pushing

I got irritated by Fareedah's soothing and pushed her away,I wanted to run from the hospital but they hold me down they didn't let me go,I want to go and die no! They should let me be,I turn and look at my mom who was crying uncontrollable and my heart ache the more

I made my mom cry

I cried and cried and pushed but they were stronger than me

"Bring the sedative!"the doctor yelled

"Not again! Not again don't you dare put that thing on me!"I shouted but no one listened

They didn't listen! They didn't listen and the syringe was pumped into me,I got weak and light like a feather

I turned to look at everyone for the last time as my eyes get blurry and there's only one thing in my mind this time around

I will surely make Halimat pay

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My ears were the first organ in my body to work, everywhere was fuzzy and noisy and I have to strain my ears not long enough I started making out what they were saying

I heard my sister's voice and a baby cry then my eyes shot open, everywhere was yellowish and it seems the world turn upside down,I closed my eyes once more and open it the world came out normal and I tried talking but my voice failed me

I tried raising up my hand but I couldn't,my hands look dead and I know the sedative is taking a toll on me,I tried talking again but my voice failed me

Ya Allah help me

I breath inwardly and tried by all means to talk,I really want to talk and I want to let my loved ones know I'm awake

"Mom!"my voice cracked and they all turn to look at me,my mom look older than her normal self Fareedah and Qadirah had these tired eyes and my heart squeezed when I discovered I was the cause of their restlessness

"My baby is awake, please calm down I don't want them using that thing on you"my mom said and I nodded as free tears escaped my eyes

"I can't move"I told her,Fareedah was already out of the room and came with a doctor

"You're paralyzed temporary Mrs Ibrahim,don't worry in a week or two you will be able to walk and move your body parts"the doctor said and checked my body

"I want to leave this room,I want to see my baby"I said and the doctor nodded in understanding

"The nurse will be back with a wheelchair,calm down Mrs because it's dangerous to use sedatives on you right now, you're paralyzed and it was due to the sedation more sedative can lead you to permanent paralyzing of the body"the doctor said and I nodded in understanding

He left the room and the nurse came in few minutes later with the wheelchair,Fareedah and Qadirah help me sit on it before I was wheeled out of the ward,they took me to the incubation section

"This is your baby girl and she's growing healthy"The nurse said and wheeled further to look into the glass,my angel was sleeping with her pink lips pouting,I smiled and chuckled trying to touch her but my hands were paralyzed and I can't move any part of my body

"She will be here in the next two weeks and be ready to take home,but the doctor examine her organs and discovered her olfactory organs are not functioning well and she has lung problems so her breathing will be hard and definitely will be put to drugs, likelihood she will get better when she grows up"the nurse said and my heart aches for my baby

She just came into the world and now she has a problem to face too,I look at her face one more time and my love for her multiplied by million,she's the only one I have and I promise to take care of her with all my body and soul

I was wheeled back from the incubation section and back to the hospital,Ibrahim came with fresh clothes and I decided not to talk with him,my family excused us so that we can have our privacy and he took my hands

"Aishah what's wrong?"he asked in a small voice and he was lucky my hands are not functioning if not I would have slapped him and he is so damn lucky that I lost my voice if not I would have definitely give him my piece of mind

"You caused all this Ibrahim,we just start building our family and you think it's the right time to marry another woman,not just another woman but a psychopath"I said trying all my best to talk out loud

"I'm sorry Aishah I never knew it will get to this"he said rubbing my hands and I wish I could pull my hands away from his grip

"Keep your sorry to yourself and do the right thing,she killed my son,make me barren and sent men to rape me,you can only earn my forgiveness if you do the right thing not just for anybody but for our dead son who was deprived of life"