Aishah

I WENT INSIDE  the bathroom scrubbing myself hard to wash away the smell of Ibrahim from me if only I could also wash what we had away but it's not possible

I sat on the jacuzzi and started crying,I cried so hard and yelled at while he was so hell bent on marrying that lady,you might call me childish but I don't care

I stood up from the bathroom and wore my cloth phoning Fareedah

"What's up this early morning?"she said yawning

"You're still asleep by this time?"I asked her

"For Allah's sake it's 4am in the morning so do you expect me to be awake by now"she said and yawn once more,I checked the time and discovered she was right

"I'm so sorry I didn't mean to disturb your call"

"It's fine it's fine so tell me what makes you to call me by this time?"

"I need to talk to you can you come over later in the day?"I asked

"Sure I will try"she said and ended the call

I lay on the bed looking at the spot Ibrahim was laying down on before and everything we shared,I shook my head and turn the other way round before finally settling on watching the ceiling

My mind was void and couldn't think about anything,I continue watching the ceiling before sleep finally took me

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I woke up to my shining room caused by the rays of sun penetrating through my room due to forgetting about falling the curtains

I stood up and yawn going ahead to brush my teeth before stepping down the stairs feeling incredibly hungry

I went straight to the kitchen and decided to prepare tea and toasted bread, I prepared me alone food

Ibrahim suddenly entered the kitchen and I ignored him,he came closer to access what I did and I rolled my eyes internally

"Where's mine?"he asked

"Why don't you tell the love of your life to prepare your food"I said rolling my eyes

"Hey babe will get me something to eat?"he asked looking at me and I couldn't help but look around to check if we are having a third party

"Are you talking to me?"

"You of course,you said I should tell the love of my life to prepare me food"

"Do I look like your fat wife"I said turning around with my breakfast

I went ahead to eat alone in the dining table while I started hearing sounds of kitchen utensils and I guess he was preparing something for himself

I started smelling the aroma of boiled rice and I got irritated immediately,I stood up and ran up stairs heading straight to my bathroom and started vomiting

Soon enough he was right by my side patting my back while I vomited all my stomach out and finally feeling weak,he took me to his car and rush down to the hospital

The doctor tested me and said I was fine that it's just the starting of my pregnancy sickness that I will be observing more early morning sickness,we went back home and went to lay down still completely ignoring him

He left the house not long enough before Fareedah came and I was so happy to see her

"This one you're happy like this?"Fareedah teased and I laughed

"I miss you"I said hugging her while she snickered

"Like it's been a year we see eachother"she said and sit down on the sofa taking the remote to change the channel

I went to the kitchen and started preparing pancakes Fareedah joined me awhile later

"You shouldn't have mind"I said smiling

"Of course I don't mind,I didn't see anything interesting to watch"she said sitting on the kitchen stool

"I went to the hospital today"I say

"Why?"

"I got sick in the morning and started vomiting,the doctor said it's morning sickness due to the pregnancy"

"You're lucky we are almost rounding up in school"Fareedah said while helping me with the vegetable oil

"And Ibrahim is still hell bent on marrying that lady,I can't live with her I won't feel comfortable at all"I saw shaking my head in dismay

"You are still going to divorce him?"Fareedah said in not so approving voice

"I already went to the court and gave him the summon,he said he doesn't have problem in divorcing me that I'm not taking his child away from him"I say shrugging

"No responsible man will want his child been taken away from him"Fareedah say

"Abubakar told me about Ibrahim being a dad before,though he lost the child and it kind of angered him when I told him about leaving with the pregnancy"

"Ibrahim was once a father?!"Fareedah asked looking shocked to the core

"So I heard and that's not stopping me from ending this"I said as I place the pancake in individual plates

"You know you are being selfish right?"Fareedah asked and I look up at her "you should think about your child's future,think about how this baby will want to be in the midst of its parent,think about how it feels lacking a father's love and think about how you can't do this alone"

"Stop making it hard for me"I said as I left the kitchen with my plate of pancakes and she followed too,I took two glasses of yoghurt and gave one to her before settling down

"I'm not making it hard for you Aishah I just want you to reason,reason very hard the reason you have to drop this case,give Ibrahim time don't rush things and wait and see"

"Wait and see what?,when he eventually get married to that lady and shower her with love while I cry myself to sleep"I shook my head dismissively

"As a friend and not just a friend,a best friend of yours I will always tell you the truth,you need to sacrifice and when I say sacrifice I mean you sacrificing for that baby growing inside you,it should be your first priority like you're your mom's first priority,she will sacrifice her happiness for you,you should be able to do that too" Fareedah said and I remain quiet

She actually hit a nerve and I started eating slowly watching the television I'm not paying attention to,I sip my yoghurt as I think again what she told me

Sacrifice

Priority

What's a definition of a mother?

Thinking about this things I decided it was best I talk with someone with experience which is no any other person but my mom,she's quite experienced in the area

I took an excuse from Fareedah going inside my room though she wasn't paying attention to me,she's so engrossed in the movie she is watching

I went inside my room with my phone and called my mom,she picked the call in the third ring

"Salam Aleikum"I heard my mom's voice and I realized I miss her

"Waleikum salam mummy,how are you feeling now?"I asked

"I'm better who am I to question Allah's will,I believe it's qadr and that have been helping me"my mom said and I felt sad all over again,she's trying to be strong for us

"Allah shall ease your pain"

"Ameen"she replied and sighed "so why did you call me"

"I wanted to ask you something mom,what makes one a mother?"I asked and she chuckled

"One thing you need to know first is that the love a mother has for a child is unbreakable,is incomparable and a real mother is ready to sacrifice anything for their children even her life"my mom said and I remain quiet

"What if dad is alive and he wants to marry another wife but you also want your child to experience a father's love?"I asked

"First of all,a Muslim husband has the right to marry up to four wives,he can marry them when he wills and all you have to do as a wife is to accept his wish,you shouldn't because your husband wants to marry another woman divorce your husband it doesn't makes you look like a proper woman"

"Really?"I said

"Of course"my mom chuckled "and also don't deprive your children from having their dad,some might be understanding but most won't forgive you,so Aishah whatever you are up to forget about it,I raise you well and so shall you act"my mom said and every words of hers sink in

I should really forget about this divorce

"Thank you so much mom,what will I ever do without you"I said feeling light like a weight had been lifted off my shoulder

"I'm always one call away,don't ever do something without letting me know"

"I promise"

"Good girl and take care of yourself"

"Thank you mom"

"I love you"

"I love you too"I said and the call came to an end

Fareedah left awhile later and I felt so light,so calm and I'm happy I had people like Fareedah and my mom in my life

It was 5:00pm and I decided to prepare dinner for us,I went to the kitchen and prepared Melon soup with semolina,not long enough Ibrahim was back looking tensed and not happy

I decided to make him comfortable,he sat on the sofa placing his head on it while sighing,I went close to him and started massaging his shoulders he closed his eyes for awhile before opening it to see me

I smiled at him and he took that advantage to draw me closer sitting me down on his lap,he placed his head on my chest sniffing me and sighing once more

"This is much more better"he muttered and I chuckled massaging his head

We stayed in that position for awhile

"Your dinner is ready"I told him

"You cook dinner for me?"he asked surprised

"As a wife I did"I said and he look into my eyes with love,I lean in and kiss him and he returned the kiss immediately

"You need to eat"I saw breaking the kiss

"I don't mind eating you"he said and I laughed

"I don't mind too but you have to eat before eating"I said and he chuckled

We both stood up and went to the dining table,I set his food for him and he draws me closer sitting me on his lap

"Let me feed you"he said and I smiled,he started feeding me while eating and I couldn't deny the pure love visible in his eyes,he loves me no doubt

"Please trust me"he muttered and I found myself nodding at him

I know he will never hurt me so why can't I trust him and believe what he is doing is for the best

"I trust you"I replied giving him a peck in the lips and he smiled

"Thank you"he said quietly

"For what?"I asked with same low tone

"For everything"he said and I smiled hugging him feeling at home

With you there's no place I rather be