Aishah

I WOKE UP yawning,I turn around and met myself in my room I remembered vividly felling asleep in Ibrahim's room,I was surprised seeing myself in my room because normally we sleep together either in my room or his

I yawned once more checking the time and it was 6:24am I stood up abruptly matching into my bathroom,I brushed my teeth and perform my ablution before going ahead to pray Subh prayer

I left the room and headed to the kitchen trying to prepare breakfast as early as I can so that Ibrahim wouldn't go to work late,I was in the kitchen preparing egg sauce when I heard footsteps

I stopped what I was doing and went out of the kitchen only to meet Ibrahim dressed in his office dress

"Good morning"I greeted smiling at him trying to hug him as usual while he stepped back

"Don't"he said giving me a stink eye

"Just wanted to greet you good morning"I said almost crying,it hurts though

"With your messed up cloth or what,do you want to stain my dress"

"What's happening?"I asked surprised by the way he was treating me "I thought we were pass this"

"Then you're easy to be deceived"he said trying to walk out while I stopped him

"Your breakfast is almost ready"I said while he rolled his eyes giving me a stink eye before walking out of the house

I fell down on the floor crying badly

What have I done?

I thought we were okay and he said he loves me why go back to the way we were before,I wiped away the tears and decided maybe it's better to give him time he might be going through some bad time

I went back to the kitchen and rounded up what I was doing,I tried eating but I couldn't because I wasn't having the appetite to eat

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Things got worst by the day,Ibrahim getting angry at everything I do no matter how I try being perfect,I started weighing down loosing focus on my classes when my final exams were fast approaching,i look sick and got lean

What got me wondering most is that we didn't have a problem before everything started it felt like the good time was just a dream and it never happened,I felt so stupid for falling in love with him and the worst part is I fell deeply than I should than an average man will ever do

I drove my car to Fareedah's department because she asked me to pick her up,I met her standing with some of her course mates she smiled when she saw me and discharge them quickly entering the car

She look at me warily and smiled sadly she knows what I have been going through and had been my knight in shining armour

"You don't look good Aishah"

"I'm trying"I said sniffing

"Don't cry please,it's all about time"she said holding my hand her face mirroring mine

"It happened again Fareedah it did,me falling stupidly for someone and getting hurt at the end, Abubakar warned me he told me he knew him better but I never listened and gave him all of me"I said and bursted into tears

"I gave him more than he deserves Fareedah and now it bounced back hurting me deeply,I should have pursued the divorce"

"How sure are you he isn't going through some stuffs?"Fareedah asked clearly trying to lighten the mood

"I gave him time,I tried understanding that maybe he wasn't feeling too good,it's been three weeks at least that's enough time"I said

"Be patient Aishah, marital life is not all about sweet times you're bound to experience time like this"she said and I started gagging and step down from the car immediately

I vomited all my stomach out and started feeling dizzy,Fareedah came to my side and help me back inside the car,I sat down breathing heavily while Fareedah look worried

"When have you been sick?"she asked

"For three days now,I have been vomiting but I didn't take it serious"

"How can you not?,you have to see the doctor"she says

"Yeah I have to but I am feeling dizzy I want to sleep"

"You know I can't drive so what are we going to do now?"she asked

"Call anybody I'm just tired"I said and close my eyes

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I woke up in an unfamiliar room and I squinted my eyes,I felt sick and irritated by the smell I'm perceiving,I gagged and Fareedah quickly rush to my side with a bowl I vomited inside the bowl and lay down breathing heavily,I felt very weak that I couldn't move a muscle

"Where are we?"I asked with my hoarse voice

"We are in the hospital,you fainted and I called Rauf he drove us here and I also called your sister she's on her way here"she said and I nodded too tired to speak

Not long enough my sister came,she sat by my side looking visibly worried

"How are you feeling?"she asked

"Better"I replied hoarsely

The doctor came soon enough smiling at us which I found irritating

"How are you feeling?"he asked

"Better"I replied and he nodded

"Do you mind I talk to you alone?"he asked

"Don't worry you can talk to me with them here,they are my family"I said and he nodded

"After conducting series of test we found out that you were having high fever due to you're five weeks pregnant"he said smiling contentedly

"Five weeks what?"I tried yelling but it came out more like a squirm

"Yes my dear and you are going to be discharged soon with your prescribed drugs of course and please make sure you take care of yourself,you need to stay healthy and dehydrated all the time"he said giving me the test results and walk away

I look at my sister and best friend with tears filling my eyes while they look at me with adoration

"I'm so happy for you Aishah,you're going to be a mother soon I know mummy will be very happy to hear this"Qadirah said

"I can't believe I'm going to have a godchild soon"Fareedah squeal hugging me tightly while I bursted into tears

"I can't do this"I say in between sobs

"You can't do what?"Fareedah asked holding my hand

"Ibrahim and I are not in good terms and now telling him I'm pregnant might worsen the issue,I don't know what I'm going to do"I said

"Don't kill yourself over this who knows this pregnancy might be the reason you guys settle again"my sister said

"I want to see mummy!"I said bursting into tears

I cried and cried while they tried calming me down,thirty minutes later I was discharged and headed to see my mom

I met her sitting beside my dad in his bed,my dad was in an oxygen mask which kills me the more,I got saddened seeing him this way but I can't do anything to help

"My dear"my mom said hugging me her voice hoarse definitely from too much crying

"How is he?"I asked

"He is still the same,not responding to treatments"my mom said shaking her head and I hug her

I sat down with her in total silence before she breaks the silence

"What's wrong?"she asked

"What do you mean?"

"I know something is off,tell me what's bothering you Aishah I'm your mom"my mom said and my eyes glisten

"I'm pregnant mom and I'm not happy about it"I replied while a tear escaped my eyes

"Why?"

"For three weeks now Ibrahim have been acting differently around me and now I'm pregnant"

"Don't say something like that,I promise you he will be happy about the pregnancy and things will go back to normal,I'm happy for you Aishah I'm expecting two grandchildren now"she said smiling contagiously

I smiled back "you give me hopes"

"I'm just telling you the truth my dear,no man won't be happy when their wife is pregnant and since this is going to be his first child he will surely be grateful,oh my I can't believe my baby of yesterday is going to become a mother soon"my mom said and I laughed

"I'm twenty mom,I'm not a baby anymore"

"Even if you're fifty you're still my baby"she said and I placed my head on her chest reviving the days I was younger,how I felt safe in her arms,how I run to her when I get into any trouble,how she gives me hope and the light I look up to

I suddenly felt strange act of possessiveness in me and I covered my stomach with my hand

I'm going to protect you my love,I will do anything to make sure you're safe

I felt love overwhelmed me as I touched my belly,I fell in love with the unborn baby already and swore to protect it against all odds

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I went back home in the evening thinking about how I'm going to disclose this to Ibrahim,what if he isn't happy or worst ask me to abort it

I shook my head trying to push away every negative thoughts,I prepared dinner and waited for him to come back home

Not long enough he was back again with his ever present frowned face,I gulped visibly afraid as I set his dinner for him,he decided not to speak with me as he eats silently

I cleared my throat and decided it is either now or never but he beats me to it

"I have something to tell you"

"I have something to tell you too"I replied

"You go first"he said and I nodded in disagreement

"You should"I say

"Okay I want to let you know I'm getting married soon and she's moving into this house with us,don't say I didn't let you know first hand"he said and adrenaline rushed through my veins,I got angry and sad at the same time he was so good at rendering me speechless that I have to control my tears from giving me in

How could I act so stupid

I regretted everything that happened between us right from the time I trusted him with my heart and body and it pains me so much that he was the first person to ever touch me

"You wanted to say something"he said bringing me back from my self loathing

"I wanted to let you know I'm tired of the way things have been going on between us and decided it's best we go on our separate ways,I'm bringing the divorce paper soon"I said and stand up

He look visibly shock like he couldn't say anything but I was too angry to care,I went straight into my room and went to bed thinking about what I was going to do next

I'm not going to stay here while he gets married to someone else and starts acting lovey dovey with her while I cry alone,I am going to raise my child single handedly without his help