I just woke up like everyday. I am usually better than this, or at least that is what's my mom says. Part of me wants to believe i was once happy and sociable but im not. All i wanted was for this to stop, i hate waking up to the same problems and having new ones added to it as the days go by. Most of my friends say i shouldn't hate myself and there telling me im a great person and that there is nothing to hate. In my eyes that isnt true. There plenty to hate and nothing to like. I hate the fact i cant remember anything, you would too if you had to study for a really important test and couldn't remeber what you studied, then i forget my homework which adds to my grades going down. I hate it so much then im told that if i dont get better ill be taken away, i honestly want to die right now. I just want this to end...i just cant do this...im breaking slowly and im crying out for help. But there is only 1 person who is there. I wont let that person down i cant not now and not ever, i have let too many people down to fail on this one. I just see no reason for me to be here all i do i cause stress and anxiety to those i love and i make them scared, so much so that they force me to do things i dont want to do. They say it will help me get better but that is a lie, all its been doing is breaking me, i think im broken now. Im too broke to be fixed but i guess it wont hurt to try. I know some people have it worse then me but what makes it worse is i cant save myself no matter how hard i try i just end up breaking myself even more. Im just a lost cause who refuses to die so in a way im a nuisance. Well the world is going to have to wait because i guess ill be here for a bit longer then expected. How will i make it? I dont know yet but i will try to find a way. I know in the end up broken and alone.