/ Februrary 19th 2018 /

Dear Diary,

Oh my god. The first club meeting is tomorrow, this is insane.

Alfie told me that 3 people have joined so far, and that means no big group of people which is good. I'm somewhat exited to get to know them and see who they are. That's so new for me because I usually don't like to be social.

I feel weird when around Alfie, I dunno why. It's odd. I feel so secure but at the same time nervous. It's very confusing. Maybe this is how a crush feels? Maybe the weird feeling in my stomach means something more? I've never loved someone like that so I wouldn't know. I wonder if Alfie ever loved someone like that, they probably have. It wouldn't be surprising if they've been in a relationship before, maybe they still are in one? I never really asked.

I haven't told mom or dad about the club, they probably wouldn't let me go. They say that they're not homophobic but they are. If they wouldn't be homophobic they wouldn't be telling me that I'm just going through a phase. Just because they watch some people that's LGBTQ+ doesn't mean shit if they don't support their own daughter.

I'm really glad Alfie started going to this school, they're the only friend I have and I really appreciate that. I'm no longer alone and it actually feels kinda nice. I don't know what my point is but whatever.

I have to sleep now, there's a long day ahead of me. Good night diary.

Bye bye.