I think she did love me the least, because I had always given her pain through out her life and she might be correct in doing so too. She had all the rights to do so, didn't she, she had the right to throw me away from her life too but she didn't, because she might have not counted my mistakes she might have judged me from my good deeds. 

How did all this matter now? we all were going to heaven and stay there happily ever after till our next birth as Govind had told me. I will have all the time there to please my favourite wife and my first love. She will not be upset with me there. I will look after her all the time. I'll win her heart all over again and the right way this time.

The way was a tough one but as we all walked through it even Panchali. I will never underestimate her now that I have seen her capabilities all through life. She proved to best our best wife and I am very happy that I have had the pleasure to be her husband in this life and wish that it remains the same for now and forever. Just one big wish that I want here is that the next time I want to be her only husband and she my only wife.

There stood the Himalayas in front of us, mighty and huge never bowing down to anyone. We started the climb uphill, the snow over there felt cold in my bare feet and I was wondering that did everyone else felt the same.

"Bhrata we all are going to reach heaven right?" asked Nakul to Bhrata Yudhisthir.

"I am not sure if we can do so".

"Not Sure?" Sahadev asked.

"Yes one can reach heaven only if one has done no wrong deed in life and always been true to oneself".

"But all of us did that, didn't we?" I asked glancing over at Panchali.

"Yes Arjun, but there are many small things that matter too" Yudhisthir replied.

"Yeah, but all of us always followed Dharma, so all of us deserve to be in heaven" Bheem said.

"Of course we all will go to heaven Bheem, but then the thing is that is not what I am talking about, I am telling that if we all will go or not to heaven in this human form" Yudhisthir said.

"Oh".

Suddenly out of nowhere a dog joined us, it looked like that he too wanted to go with us on our journey to heaven, we smiled and let him join us peacefully.

I noticed that Panchali had started feeling cold now. She was almost shivering with cold. I went to her and gave her my upper garment.

"No Arya, its fine I am not feeling cold, you need it more, I am fine" she said.

"You are shivering so much just look at yourself" I said.

"No Arya, I don't need anything and that means that I don't need anything" she said her voice stern. She was the only woman whom I both respected and was afraid of too. She was so different from everyone around. 

"As you say" I said and continued the journey.

By now we had almost crossed half the journey and Panchali was lagging far behind, Bhrata Bheem had asked us to wait for her but Bhrata Yudhisthir refused to do so. 

Then we heard a voice, not just a voice and it was almost a scream, and the voice, it was of my dear Krishnaa. I wanted to run back and had almost started to do so but Bhrata Yudhisthir gripped my arm and held me back.

"Why Bhrata? Let me go to her! She needs help, Please" I pleaded.

"But you can't help her Anuj if you do so you will not be able to move forward in your journey, if she wants to continue the journey she had to do it herself".

I wanted to shout that I wanted to continue my journey no more, I would remain by her side forever. Somehow I restrained myself and dig my nails so hard into my palm that I could feel blood oozing out of the cuts.