"Pst hey you alive Mr?" I felt a tap on my cheeks and a small quiet voice talking and I groaned. My body felt like it was numb and I couldn't find the strength to open my eyes much less get this annoying tapping on my cheeks to stop.

"Zane where are you?" I heard another voice, this one a lot deeper and it sent chills down my spine, the same chills I get every time I hear that voice.

This Zane character giggles and moves off of me to go somewhere else as the other voice is getting closer to where I am and I want to open my eyes to see if it is him and if it is, why is he at Keith's and who is this Zane kid?

"Zane come on you have to go, let Ashton sleep. He's sick and needs his rest." It is him.

"But I just wanted to play with the Lu…" Zane stopped talking and I felt groggy and his words were the last I heard as I drifted off to sleep.

The next time I wake up, I'm more aware and can open my eyes this time. I see things haven't changed and I'm in my room. Was that kid and that voice all a dream? I look at the clock on my nightstand and my eyes widen. Shit I'm gonna be late for work! I quickly get out of bed, grab some clothes to go shower quickly but when I open my bedroom door, I almost run into Matthias.

"Oh, you're awake." He said looking at my panicked state.

"And I'm late!" I tried to get past him but he wouldn't let me go.

"Calm down Ashton, you're not late. You have been sick for almost a week."

"What?! A week?! Are you sure?!" I asked, freaking out that I don't remember a freaking week!

"Yes, Keith came home and found you in bed with a high fever so we took you to my personal doctor and he ran tests, gave you meds and had you on IV's to get you better. Do you not remember?"

"No, I remember going to bed one night and waking up now, nothing in between. I must have been really sick to be out for a week and not even remember anything. What was wrong with me?" I asked and walked back to my bed and sat down, not having to go anywhere now I guess.

"You had pneumonia, you were dehydrated and you are underweight. You also had a sinus infection but you're better now. You were out because of the meds, I didn't want you awake and in pain or losing liquids again. Everything came back normal from the final tests the doctor did." He explained and I bit my lip and thought of all he told me.

"So you took me to a doctor and he did stuff to me, ran tests and all that without my consent? What gave you the right to do that? What kind of doctor does that when someone just randomly takes someone to see them? Who told you that you could do that? You also kept me asleep in a place that I didn't know?! What is wrong with you?! I appreciate you getting me better but how you went about it is not right!" I felt violated and like my personal space was invaded.

I appreciate him for helping me but I don't know him well enough for him to take me to his doctor who I never met, and to keep me asleep! I hate doctors for reasons and I didn't even know I was at one, don't know if I was seen naked, what he did to me, nothing.

"I couldn't let you be sick Ashton, not after meeting you and you being my boyfriend's roommate. He was worried sick about you, he called me after he went and got you meds and stuff to help, you threw up, blew up the toilet, threw up again and I was here and I tried to give you some herbs that you ate in the soup I made but you got sick and well I didn't want to see you so sick so I did what I thought was best for you." He said with what sounded like a little hurt and a lot of frustration in his voice.

"Well still, you could have had the doctor come here instead of taking me to a place I have never been with someone I don't know! Were you in the room or Keith at least?

"No, he did his exam and whatever else he needed to and we weren't in there."

"So you have no idea what he actually did to me? I don't trust people but I did trust Keith when he offered to help because one I was aware of the situation and knew I could leave on my own which I plan on doing. I can't live with him forever and two, he was in a similar situation as me and knew what it was like to be homeless. Just don't do that again, make sure you ask me first alright?"

"You got it. I'm sorry for how I got you help but I'm not sorry I got you help. I didn't know you didn't like doctors, we don't know much about you to have known that."

"And I want to keep it that way. Did you or him see me like you know losing it at both ends?" I asked, feeling really small right now.

"Yes, he did and I saw you throwing up. You don't need to be ashamed Ashton, people get sick, there is nothing wrong with that."

"And this doctor, you trust them?"

"With my life."

"Swear?"

"Swear. I'd never put you in harm's way Ashton, neither would Keith." He said and I sighed.

"Thank you, sorry I flipped out. I just don't like doctors especially when I'm not even aware I went to one. Where is Keith?"

"You're welcome and he's at work. I've been here since he left to take care of you."

"Well I'm fine as you can see, I'm sure you have to go to work if you have been taking care of me this whole time."

"I do but you are more important." His words caused my heart to speed up and I tried to hide my smile. He's a taken man, I can't fall for him even if he is my dream guy.

The night I met him, I swear I fell in love just with him looking at me with his beautiful piercing blue eyes and his gorgeous smile. I had a hard time not checking him out especially with Keith right there, clearly turned on by what they were doing that I didn't mean to interrupt, I was just surprised to see Keith back.

"Seriously Matthias, go to work. I’m fine so go, you have a business to run." I said and he seemed to hesitate to go for some reason.

"I'll call Keith and let him know you're awake and if you need anything, don't hesitate to call ok?" He said and looked at me with such intensity I felt myself shrink back, feeling like I was about to get yelled at if I disagreed.

"Yes sir." I said and his look seemed to soften at how soft my voice was.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make it seem like I was demanding you. It's just how I am at times."

"Just go to work." I sassed and he chuckled.

"Alright, see you later." He left my room and I finally went to go shower and get ready. I missed a week's time of work, I gotta go talk to Avery and find out who all covered for me so I can take their shifts to make it up to them.

"Where do you think you're going?" I heard Keith as soon as I opened the front door, not even noticing he was in the kitchen.

"To talk to Avery." I said and proceeded to continue on my way when he came into the living room to the door in like two seconds.

"You are not leaving this house. You just got over being sick."

"I am and I will, you are not my boss Keith. I can come and go as I please." I am getting so annoyed at being treated like a fucking child.

"You will stay in this house, end of discussion."

"Yea? Who is gonna make me?" I challenged him, getting close to him and our noses almost touching. He shifted a little and looked into my eyes and tried to speak but he was like a fish out of water.

"That's what I thought, now move out of my way. You are not my father, you can't tell me what to do so move."

I hope to God I still have a job. I can't believe it's been a week, did they even notify Avery? I'm so screwed.

Getting to the gas station, I knocked on the door to his office and prayed he wasn't too pissed. I mean I was sick.

"Ah, Ashton. Glad to see you up and around. You look better than what Keith described you as. I was beginning to wonder if you found a new job or something." He chuckled and I paled.

"Oh no, this is the closest place to Keith's house so you're not getting rid of me so easily. I'm sorry I didn't tell you when the symptoms first started. Who's been covering my shifts?" I asked, shifting from one foot to the other.

"We're the only two that work here. so, of course." He teased and I groaned.

"You've been doing the cash register and gas pumps?" I asked with wide eyes.

"No, we're a twenty-four-hour gas station. You know that by now we have other workers." He chuckled and I blushed. Oh my god, I'm so gullible.

"Oops, so I guess you guys had everything covered?" I asked.

"Yes Ashton now go home and relax, it's your day off anyway. See you tomorrow." He said and waved me off and pushed me away.

Well, what the hell am I going to do now? I guess I could look for apartments or something so I can get out of Keith’s hair. Then again this town is too small and everyone will know your business. Franklin is sadly the only place I can afford at the moment so grin and bear it, it is.

Apartment hunting was a lot harder than I thought. I spent at least three and a half hours looking for apartments, most of which weren’t furnished and being under budgeted, I needed something furnished. I couldn’t and can’t afford anything too extravagant right now. Luckily enough I found what I was looking for. Then I spend some time emailing and calling the realtor, he wants eleven hundred, utilities included so it wasn’t harsh. It was also closer to work, like fifteen minutes walking which was amazing. That should lessen the chances of me getting sick in the cold and rain.

After I did the important stuff, I bought a few necessities at a local thrift store like a raincoat, some long sleeves, and an umbrella. I don’t need Matthias and Keith worrying about me when they both have jobs that require all their attention.

When I walked into the house it was roughly five or so and I’m tired so with that in mind I took a nap, face planting straight into my bed.

I thankfully woke up just in time to hear the TV in the living room and checked the time. It was after seven, Matthias and Keith.

“Hey, Ashton.” Keith said, laying on Matthias’ lap.

“Hey Matthias, Hey Keith,” I said, taking stuff out to make meatloaf and potatoes with a side of peppered green beans.

“How was your day? Are you ok?” Matthias asked, getting up and leaning against the counter.

“It was eventful, stressful, and tiring. I came back about two hours ago and passed out.” I said seasoning the meat for my meatloaf.

“Are you feeling any better?” He asked looking at me.

“Better yes but after all the walking I did I’m a bit sore, I should really join a gym and hire a trainer when I can afford it.” I chuckled and began working on my potatoes after washing my hands from touching that raw meat.

“What did you do that has you so sore?” His eyebrows raised.

“Apartment hunting, I appreciate all you and Keith have done for me this long but I’m not a helpless kid anymore. I have to get out there and start my career, get my life together. How can I hope to accomplish my dreams if I stay here and have to depend on you guys when you guys have full-time jobs that require your full attention. After I get my license I’m moving out. At least I hope to. I’m on a waiting list for the apartment I want  so I have time.” I said putting both the potatoes and meatloaf in the oven.

“Seems you really aren’t a helpless kid anymore. You sure as hell don’t act like one.” Keith said walking into the kitchen and joining in on the conversation.

“Well what do you want me to say? I love being here but it’s obvious I’ve overstayed my welcome. I’ve been working at the gas station a while now and I’ve saved enough money to pay the first month’s rent of the apartment especially after I got a call from my parents’ lawyer who’s been searching for me since I turned eighteen.  He told me I have a few thousand in finances my parents had put away for me in a trust fund.” They both looked at me wide-eyed. I was just as shocked as they were when I got the call.  

“So you really are set.” Keith said, looking nervous and sad.

“Just because I know about the accounts doesn’t mean I’m going to go straight to the bank. I got this far, I’m not quitting now. I’ll use the money for a rainy day or use it for my future kids to go to school or something.” I smiled.

“Who are you sometimes?” Keith snickered.

“Ashton Cooke, nice to meet ya stranger.” I said and we all laughed.

When dinner was finished I excused myself and took my food to my room so they could have their alone time. I can’t believe after so long things are looking up finally.

A few days later I heard back from the realtor and I got the apartment. Out of the three people I was up against, one bailed on the apartment, one decided the area wasn’t for them and I outbid the other.  After I got the news I called the lawyer back to schedule a time to meet.

“My you look like your mother.” The lawyer said as I walked in, I had no idea what he’d look like so it’s a good thing he knew.

“Um, thank you.” I said as we went to get this over with. For some reason, I was sweating. I’ve never done anything like this.

“I’m Asher Linclon, it’s nice to meet you Ashton.” He said and I shook his hand. I can’t help but think he kinda looked familiar in a way.

“I assume you have a valid ID?” He asked and we came to a door and he knocked.

“I do.” I said and the person behind the door said to enter.

As we entered we sat in front of the person and we began what would be hours of paperwork, ending with me having a couple of accounts with a good amount of money to last me for a while.

I know Keith told me I didn’t have to pay him back but I withdrew some cash to leave for him if he’s not there when I get back. I don’t want to feel like I owe him or anyone for that matter.

“Looks like you’re all set, Mr. Cooke.” The lawyer said as we were outside of the bank.

“Thank you for everything and helping me in there.” I said as I shook his hand.

“My pleasure, see you around Ashton.” He said and we parted ways and I took the bus back to the bus stop closest to Keith’s, with a mission in mind to go get boxes.

I went to the local store to buy some boxes and called the realtor to meet up with him to get the keys so I can move into my own place. I want to get it done so I don’t feel like I’m getting in the way of Keith and Matthias any longer.

“Are you moving out already?” Keith asked from my doorway as I was packing up my clothes.

“Well I’m packing. I got the apartment so I thought I would move in soon. I paid for a month so don’t want to stay any longer and the place sits empty. It’s not far and it’s not like we won’t see one another again. You are a good friend Keith, my only friend so I could never not see you.” I said and he gave me a beautiful smile but I could see hurt in his light brown eyes as he looked at me.

“I’m really proud of you, you know that? You have grown since you have been here. It’s going to be strange not having you here and not having delicious dinners waiting on me when I get home anymore.”

“Is that all you're going to miss, my cooking for you?” I teased and he shook his head.

“No, I’m going to miss the life you brought into this house. Before it was just me and it was quiet which I didn’t mind it but I didn’t realize how lonely it felt before you came into my life Ashton.”

“If you felt that way, why not just have Matthias move in here or you move in with him?”

“We may have been together for a year but it didn’t turn really serious until recently. I may just do that and move in with him or him move in here since I got used to the noise and the company.”

“You deserve to be happy Keith. You are a good man with a beautiful heart, do what makes you happy and don’t worry about me. I survived on the streets this long on my own, I can do living in an apartment with ease. Do you want to help me move my stuff, the bus isn’t a very good way to move and plus you can see my place and know where it’s at so you can stop by and visit if you want. I have to meet the guy in a couple of hours to get the keys, we can at least do that today and get a feel of it to get ideas where I can put things and you can help with that if you want.” I said, offering to spend some time with him since he has done so much, I want to take him out for dinner for now to at least show him my appreciation for helping me.

“I would love that, it’s just…”

“You have plans.” I finished for him and he nodded slightly and sighed.

“I can cancel them, this is important.”

“No, I said do what makes you happy and if you have plans, don’t cancel them on account of me. I’ll just go get the keys and we can check the place out together some other time.”

“Spending time with you makes me happy also Ashton, you should know that.”

“Thanks, that’s really nice to hear Keith. Now go on, I’ll be fine, I’m a big boy.” I said and he left me to finish packing some stuff and I sighed. It would have been nice to take him out to dinner but I can’t let him know that I felt disappointed that I couldn’t but it’s ok, he shouldn't have to put his life on hold for me.

“Good news, they canceled on me so I didn’t have to.” He said and I could tell he was lying. Why? Was the real question. We never kept any secrets from each other this far that I know of.

“Did you space out?” Keith asked with an amused look on his face.

“Yeah sorry.” I chuckled and got back to packing.

As we packed up the last few boxes, we left to get the keys for my soon to be home and I couldn’t be more excited. This was a new chapter in my life, who wouldn’t be excited.

When I got inside I flopped on the living room couch and screamed into it. I can’t believe I’m a first-time homeowner. I really hope that’s all the adulting I have to do today though because boy I’m tired but first…

“Keith are you ready to go?” I called out to him.

“Go where?” He asked and I laughed.

“I’m taking you out as a thank you.” I said in a duh tone.

“That’s not necessary Ashton, really.” He tried reasoning with me.

“Get changed, I won’t take no for an answer. If I can’t afford a gold ring yet, dinner will have to do.” I said and ushered him back to his room.

“Fine fine, I’ll be out soon pushy.” He grumbled and went to take a shower.

Oh. My. God! I told him I wanted to buy him a gold ring. That was meant to be a private thought. What is he going to think? I hope he doesn’t take it the wrong way. I just overheard he liked being spoiled once in a while and that was the first gift I could think of.

As Keith came out of his room he looked so hot wearing a navy blue sweater with gray slacks with white and light gray designs, his hair braided and he had on black dress shoes and a diamond in his ear, he is a beautiful looking man. Matthias is a lucky guy.

“Ok let’s go.” He smiled and we walked out of the house.

“Where are we going?” He asked getting in the driver’s seat.

“You’ll see, just let’s go left.” I said as I chuckled and just gave him directions until we got to our destination.

“A steakhouse? Are you sure about this Ashton?” He asked and I sighed.

“Yes, Keith now come on. I wouldn’t have suggested it if I knew I couldn’t pay myself.” I chuckled and dragged him inside.

“Can you stop maturing? I miss taking care of you dammit.” He said and I laughed.

“You’ll have plenty of chances now quit whining, you’re too…” I bit my tongue from saying anything stupid or straightforward.

“These meals look good.” I said opening my menu.

“They do, of course, you know what I’m getting.” He chuckled.

“I do so it’ll be an easy order.” I smiled and we waited for our waiter to get back with our drinks.

“So, when are you gonna ask your boyfriend to marry you?” I asked and he nearly choked on nothing and I couldn’t help but laugh at his face, his eyes huge and his mouth open wide, trying to form words, like earlier. He’s a weird one.

“Um ahem well I don’t know really. Do you think I should?” He asked and I shrugged one shoulder.

“I dunno, he’s your boyfriend. Don’t you want to have a life with him? You seem like you love him and he loves you so why not take that step and at least get engaged.”

“I think I’ll leave that up to him to decide when he wants to ask when he is ready. I’ll say yes so I know what I want, it’s up to him to ask. I don’t want to ask and he says no because I’ll feel like an idiot even though he wouldn’t make me feel that way, I just will.”

“Aw Keith, you should ask him. He makes you happy and I can see he loves you just as much as you love him. He won’t say no. I know he’s older and like the Alpha male out of you two but who cares? Hell women ask their boyfriends to marry them so don’t think you have to wait just because he is older and bigger than you are. You gotta go for what you want, I learned that living with you.” I said and he smiled at me and I couldn’t help but smile back. He has a pretty smile.

“Have you met anyone that you like, that you want to be with?” He asked and I couldn’t tell him that I found him and his boyfriend to be attractive guys that I have dreamed about, fantasized in the shower about, thought about all the time. They aren’t single and I have to not let them get to me like they do but it’s hard.

“Not really, I just go to work and your house. I haven’t had time to go out and meet anyone. I only know you personally in town and Matthias. If you have a single gay friend, you could introduce us.” I winked and his smile seemed forced.

“I don’t, there isn’t many gay people in this small town. The ones who are, are seeing either each other or someone else.”

“That’s ok, they have dating apps.” I said and his hold on his drink tightened and his eyes held some anger but he didn’t say anything. I wonder why he’s so upset about me wanting to talk to someone.

The waiter came and we gave our orders and as we waited, we sat in silence. I didn’t want to say anything else to piss him off which I don’t understand why he’s even mad in the first place. He has someone to love, a solid relationship with goals. I want the same thing with someone, even if it takes time I still want to be happy.

We got our food and ate with light topics of conversation because I didn’t want to get him worked up again and wanted him to enjoy his dinner so I kept my thoughts to myself about him getting mad at me for wanting to talk to someone until later on.

“Keith I know dinner isn’t enough to thank you for everything you have done for me or a simple thank you but I truly do appreciate everything you have done for me. You have given me a second chance and you will always hold a special place in my heart for being who you are. You took a chance on a kid that you didn’t know from Adam, helped me get a job and gave me money, left me in your house and went to work that same day. I thought you were nuts when you did all of that but as we spent time together, I realized it’s just who you are as a person and anyone would be lucky to have you in their life.” I said to him as I stood outside of my bedroom door, looking up at him through my lashes and he cupped my cheek and leaned down a little and kissed it gently.

“I’d do anything for you.” He whispered his promise and walked down the hallway and went into his room and shut his door. I sighed and calmed my racing heart as I leaned against my door.

He is taken, you can’t have him is what I thought as I stripped out of my clothes to go shower and go to bed, hoping to get a good night's sleep for my long day tomorrow.