“What the hell was that about?” Keith asked me as he watched Ashton walk out of the ball room and I sighed. What the hell was that about? Why did I say that? Why do I always say shit like that to him?

“Me being an ass is what that was about. I basically said he's buying my love if he did all of this for us just to propose or whatever he was planning. I just can't seem to say the right thing when it comes to him. I have no idea why. I'd do something like this for him so I have no idea why I said what I said. I didn't mean it, it just came out that way. I don't think he's buying my love, I'd never think that.” I felt horrible for what I said and I hurt Ashton yet again with words that I didn't mean. I have to remember he's not just a pack member who I can tell off, he's the Alpha King, the King of this kingdom and most importantly, he's my mate.

“So did you guys like the surprise? Ashton has been working round the clock and hard on it to make it perfect for you guys. He would call at all hours of the night forgetting about the time difference. If my mates didn't trust me they'd think I was having an affair.” Ajax chuckled and I would have to but I couldn't even smile.

“It's wonderful, he did an amazing job.” Keith said but Ajax kept looking at me and I know how he feels about Ashton, those two have become like best friends so once he hears what I said, he's going to be so disappointed in me.

“Matthias, are you alright?” I shook my head no and I told him what I said and I could tell he was mad and upset about his friend.

“He would never do that! After all you two have done to him, do you seriously believe he's buying your love? If anything it should be you two doing whatever it took to keep showing him every single second of every day that you love him! What else does he need to do to prove to you he loves you Matthias?” Ajax walked out of the ballroom and I sat down at a table that was for us and took a drink a waiter had offered and drank it in one go.

I didn't really feel like socializing so I kept to myself until I saw Ashton walking back inside so I got up and went over to him, took him into my arms and hugged him. He hugged me back after a few seconds and I sighed, hoping he forgives me.

“I'm so sorry, I didn't mean it. I don't know why I say the things I say when it comes to you. I don't think you're buying my love, I know better than that Ashton, I'm so sorry, can you forgive me?” I held my breath and he just kept looking into my eyes. He was kind of scaring me by not saying anything.

“I have loved you from the moment I saw you. We have been through a lot so when you said what you said, it really hurt. I have put up with a lot, I have forgiven you for screwing someone else when he's not your mate knowing it hurt me. I have taken a potion so you could continue to screw him and I am not in pain. You haven't even marked me as your mate yet so maybe, I should be wondering if you do love me. Everything you say and do is the opposite of love towards me. Hell Keith gets better treatment from you than I do and I'm your mate and the freaking Alpha King. Do you think you can be an ass just because you are older than me and have been with Keith for a long time? Do you not see me as your mate? Do you not love me?” Ok I didn't expect him to say all that but in a way, I knew one day he would.

“I do love you, I'm just a complete idiot it seems. I have been waiting a very long time for my mate and I should know better than anyone how to treat you with all I've witnessed with my own parents and my friends. I have no excuse as to why I haven't marked you yet. I think I'm just scared to lose you. I love you so much it hurts. I promise to be a better mate Ashton, I'll do whatever it takes to prove to you that I do love you, that I'm so completely and utterly in love with you. I want to have a life with you, the calm and the chaos that life brings, I want it all with you. I'm truly sorry for hurting you so many times. If I could I would go back in time to the night we met and just tell you at that moment we are mates. If I did then maybe none of the bad would have happened and we'd be in a much better place than where we are now. I will prove to you that I can be better, just give me one more chance.” I was begging, I didn’t care if anyone heard me but my beautiful mate is more important than my Alpha pride.

“I need some time Mathias, like I said what you said hurt me and I need some time.” He looked like he was going to cry and Hati hated seeing our mate like that, sad and upset, hurt and mad. I hated it. I’m the cause of it and I can’t do this anymore, I can’t keep hurting him like I have.

I was about to leave the ballroom when Gregory came up to me and he could tell something was wrong so he pulled me into the hall and I told him everything that happened this evening.

“No relationship is perfect, no mate is perfect. Things happen to all of us, every single person and some are a lot worse than others. Travis and I included but now look at us, we’re happy. Things will work out for you, just give him the time he asked for and also, do something to show him you love him, to prove you don’t think he’s buying your love which is honestly insane for you to even have thought that about Ashton. His life went from one way to another overnight. He was homeless, meets Keith and has a better time and meets you, then he finds out his parents are alive and gets cancer. A lot of other stuff in between all of that and look where he's at now. He's so young and has been through a lot, just like Ajax so you should understand how Ashton feels Matthias. Fix it before it gets out of hand and it can't be fixed.” These young bucks are annoying at times but he's right, I know he's right.

“I'm such an idiot.” I said and he chuckled.

“Yup but you're our idiot and we love you. I just want you to be happy and have the life you deserve with your mate. You need to be more careful with what you say or rather how you word what you say. And for the love of the moon Goddess, claim your mate in the right way, mark him Matthias.”

“You seriously think he's gonna want to have sex after what I just said? He won't so that isn't going to happen anytime soon.”

“I don't know, when you two were talking earlier and were close, I could tell he was turned on so maybe take him off somewhere and set the mood and let things go from there.”

“Right now I'm going to give him the time he asked for. I only pray he does give me another chance.”