My day with Matthias and Hati was incredible. After having a delightful lunch and conversation, we spent the whole day together, with no worries of my duties as the next Kings, just Matthias, Hati, and myself. I was surprised when my sweet Alpha wolf started weeping because he was hurt and lonely for so long. We talked without Matthias hearing and Hati told me he had given Matthias hell for what he had done to me, for the hurt he caused me.

He said he went as far as threatening to go see the Moon Goddess in his sleep to ask her to give him to another human, he was that hurt and angry at Matthias. I didn't know a wolf could do that so that information was interesting to learn. He thankfully gave Matthias one more chance after having a conversation with the Moon Goddess and she told him to be patient, that all will work out so he gave Matthias more time and he is now happy he did because he has me, his one and only true mate.

He told me he won't sleep with Keith until after he and I mate and mark one another. Now I wanted to ask if he or I will be the dominant one since I'm the next Alpha King but I didn't want to make him uncomfortable so I'll ask my father, he would know I'm sure. I can't really see myself making Matthias or Hati submit to me like that but maybe they will once I gain my powers as Alpha King.

That will happen tomorrow evening when the full blood moon is at its peak. Since it's a blood moon, it won't be painful for me so no use for magic or potions, it will be all natural which I'm happy about. Magic isn't really something I want to get into, I see no point in it so when I heard I won't need it, I was relieved.

Everyone has been helping me with my wolf, helping me connect with him in order to call him forth to shift and become one with him. It has definitely been an experience that I have enjoyed a lot, one I will never take for granted. Glenn has been gentle and kind, Keith has been patient, and Matthias has been understanding and explained things to me that I didn't even think were important but they are.

For example, I need to have nothing but meat in my system, the more raw the better, a small amount of wolfsbane so I don't wolf out and go crazy when I shift, and chains. I need to be chained up with my mates around me to help comfort me, especially since the moon is a blood moon. They will be human until they feel my wolf and Glenn and Keith will shift, leaving just Matthias to help me. Gregory explained what he did with Travis so Matthias and I are going to try that and hopefully that will work.

Keith and I spent a day together, as him as a human and as his wolf and we went out together, he had me sit on his back and we went for a run, swam, and talked. I am so thankful for him, for saving my life basically when I was homeless. I will never forget what he and Matthias did but I can't live in the past and they are proving they are sorry every day and I can see they feel regret and guilt. I don't add any salt to the wounds because there is no point. We are mate's for a reason and I love them so much. All three are perfect for me in their own ways.

I may be an idiot for forgiving them but with my past, you learn to forgive and move on, no point in dwelling on the past and the what could of's. My papa understands how I feel and mama well she still isn't happy with them but she respects my choices and told me she'd support me so hopefully she comes around with them eventually. I know she's just wanting the best for me and loves me so I can understand where she's coming from. She's my mama.

"Hey." I heard Glenn and looked up from my desk to see Glenn, Keith, and Matthias standing at the doorway, looking hot as hell.

"Hello." I said and waved them in.

"What's going on? Am I needed for something?" I asked and they shook their heads no.

"Just wanted to see if you needed anything, how you were feeling about tomorrow, and to talk about mating." Matthias said and I sat back in my chair to give him my attention.

"It would be best if we were mated before you turned. It will help if we are connected on that level, to be as one. Your father told us that when he turned, he wasn't mated to your mother and even with all the precautions they took, he still got free and killed some of the town's people. He was told to mate before he turned but they wanted to wait and well what he did was a result of waiting. We don't want to pressure you into mating with us, you already are mated to Glenn so maybe being mated to him will be enough. We just want you to be safe and I know you would feel so guilty if anyone got hurt. It's your choice Ashton, we will support you no matter what you choose." Matthias explained and I was at a loss.

Yes I love them, yes I want to be complete with all of my mate's but am I ready to take that step when we are working on us? I don't want people to get hurt, I don't want anyone to die. I sighed and closed my eyes for a moment to clear my head.

"We can't mate, not yet. Have that witch on standby in case I do lose control so she can put a sleep spell on me so I won't get out of control. When I feel we are at the point of mating is when we will. We have a way to help me if I lose control so we will do that. Mating now will feel like I'm doing it just because of something that may or may not happen and that isn't right for us, it should be something natural and special, not forced."

"I had a feeling you were going to say that. We feel the same way Ashton so ok, we will have your father contact the witch and everything will work out, you just focus on turning." Glenn said and held my hand and rubbed his finger on my knuckles.

"May I have a moment alone with Glenn?" I asked Matthias and Keith.

"Of course. I'll go talk to your father for you." Matthias said and they both kissed my cheeks and walked out, shutting the door behind them.

"Are you ok love?" He asked and I got up from my chair and got on my knees in front of him and placed my hands on his growing belly.

"Not really no, I have so much to live for and if anything happens during my transition darling, I want you to do whatever is necessary to put me down. If I hurt anyone, I won't be able to live with myself. I love you so much Glenn, I can't live without you and I know you love me, I know you will protest me with my request but I beg you, please take me out with whatever means possible if I hurt anyone. You are the only one I trust to do this for me Glenn so promise me, promise me you will do this if it needs to be done." I hated asking him to do this, I hated seeing the tears in his eyes and the pain but I don't think anyone else understands this more than Glenn does.

"I promise if you lose control, I will kill you." He sobbed and I held him as he cried.

This is the only way to stop me if I do lose control, they all will be fine in time. I just pray things go well.