March'21

Grass seems greener in the opposite side of the fence, a usual proverb everyone tends to believe, while everyone witness the lusture, no one is ready to bear the grind. After three attempt when I got the seat which I am aiming for, I got many wishes, and applauds, funnily from the same set of people who often used to mock me is hushed tone.. But the is the course of life, most wears the mask of friend who would not spare a chance to backstab you.

Though the last week was hectic to shift to my new hostel, the profound feeling of achieving  the desired ca somehow dissolve all the fatigue, even the first day hustle. Though the campus is free from any violence projected in juniors by their seniors or teachers, but frequent leg-pulling is necessary to build the bond. Though my first day task was just to sing an item song which confidently enough sang infront of them, the famous "baby doll", which often get used as my stress buster when I decide to show my out of the world dance level to my non-existent spectators.

Coming out of the lecture hall, where the campus is drenched by the first rain wash of the year, at the month of march, it was sight for the eyes, the greenery suddenly deems so alluring , wandering the campus as if I am a solivagant, my sight caught her.

Decked in a dark green kurti with a pair of white trouser, she was struggling to hold the pile of books in a single hand whereas her other hand was occupied by mobile which was pressed against her ear, engaged into conversation over the call. I never believed in love at first sight, but the overwhelming number of movies  I had watched while growing up somewhere made a place for this fantasy, which I never nourished. But today standing at my new campus watching the lady infront of me, activate the dormant fantasy of mine.

Her short traces reaches upto her shoulder, some of them assembled at her back by using a clip whose actual name i am unaware of. Her oval face flaunts a sharp jaw line with almond eyes and plump full lips. her sharp nose gets curved at the end, bearing a mole on the right side. Her features were normal yet so alluring, so enchanting and eye catching. Her wheatish skin with warm undertone, which seems to glow more under the crepuscular ray, she had the height which can be counted as above avarage on the scale of height of indian woman. I won't deny that I have encountered with some very beautiful woman with some flawless face or some great features, but no one has ever made such impact which this unknown lady with her single glance had made.

I knew I was doomed, the abyss of love which I am curious to witness is infront of me, yet so far.

I may not in love, the profound feeling affection, but the attraction that I felt was surely much more than momentarily attraction or anything. But the whirlpool of emotions which has stirred within me is so hard to ignore. 

And I have no knowledge as to how I will soothe my raging mind in this unknown world.

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May'22

A year had went down in horizon, lots of exam, assignment and assessment, it was finally second year here, in the lap of lush greenery, somehow seems cut down from the polluted world altogether, in the melancholy of sudden rainshower may gloom the ambience but the joy of relieve from 10 hours of duty can easily overpower the gloom.

In this course of time, I hardly get few glaces of the lady of eternal dream, as if she and I reside in different world, it's not much impossible to encounter the same person many a times in the same campus, but as if the universe as it's said in book, was not in the favour of the encounter of mine with the lady who has been rulling my super-conscious mind. The only distance I covered towards her was the knowledge about her name but to avoid the possible suspicion of being stalker has grip my will to explore the under-graduate section.

Prashmita, her name reverberated throughout my body, when I first heard that, the taste of her name in my tongue feels like the ambrosia of Amrit. Unaware of actual meaning of the name, I surrender my inability on the hand of the Google, a detailed surf in the window of different website avail me not one but three meaning of her name, each one unique from other.

A peaceful one, some wrote, sure the sound of her name resonating from my vocal box gave me the feeling of tranquility.

An intelligent one, no doubt about the ability she possess not only studying at the most premier institute of the country but her association in multiple research paper and books at this tender part of career. I may not have the courage to put forward my hand for friendship, but I surely possess the knowledge of her feats and achievements.

But the most beautiful explanation that I found was the one who can make a peaceful friendship, a relationship which has no blood connection yet profound in many ways, it bound two strangers in a bond of such beautiful thread that stays lifelong.

But could I be the one who will get the opportunity to get one end of that pulchritudinous thread?

Author's note:

The upcoming chapters will be prologues to give a better understanding about how the love which he has harbored for her started. 

The chapters will be shorter than actual chapters. It will contain some stances of his life where he encountered with her.

The tune from the movie called Hridayam, is apt for the whirlpool of emotions which he was feeling at the first glance of her.