Chapter Dedication: mnopiuytgddch  ❤️

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Deepak's POV:

Hi my name is Deepak Joshi and I am a player. Well, you heard me right!  Being born in an orthodox family full of doctors, it has taken the life from me.

I never got the care and attention that other children used to get from their parents and I find it quite ironical that they save others lives. How about saving their own sons, for once?

I was always a loner and I craved to create my own identity where my parents or brother is not even in the picture. To every typical Indian parent, their son should either be a doctor or an engineer. But if you are the son of legend doctors, you are left with no choice but to dress up in a white coat, wear a stethoscope and hang out with blood, prescriptions and IVs!

Frankly speaking, is it essential to for a doctor's son to always be a doctor?
Also what is wrong with Engineering, huh? Why are we trolled so much?

I wanted to this become the best in a completely unknown field to my parents and yet be praised by the society and this was my driving force, since my childhood! Honestly, this drained away my innocence and made me who I am. Frankly, I am proud of it!

Party.

Girls.

Money.

Independence.

Isn't this a life anybody would dream for? Tell me, what's wrong with it?

Until, my mother, with her emotional sentimental blackmail, called me back here and said that Eeshwar likes a girl , who is from a rich family and she has a younger sister who would be perfect.

To be honest, I didn't care, until when I saw Chinmayi for the first time. I didn't know whether she could deal with a emotionless, heartless man!
She really seems like this sentimentally stirred person!

So here it goes, she is totally not my type!

How can I take away her innocence with my "fuck and that's all" kinda attitude?

She timidly waited until everyone boarded their respective cars not knowing what her future was beholding or what thoughts were spinning in my head. It was only her and me waiting in the garage and she was patient-extremely patient for me to start the conversation!

"Hey!"

She just looked at my face without knowing how to even respond.

"You can talk right?", I almost snapped at her.

She looked bewildered. Somehow I wanted to warn her before it's all too late. As I unlocked the car, I opened the passenger seat door for her.

Why such a mixed response?

Hey, I am a player not a mannerless jerk!

As she meekly sat I came over to the driver's seat and  as we settled in, I started the engine.The drive was very very silent. I knew she was nervous, but she did look beautiful. But to be bound to her under the institution of marriage, I found it very silly.

Since we were the last ones to leave, there was no one following us and I thought, this is the right time to let her know.

It's better to break the truth rather than beat around the bush right?

"You are awefuly quiet?", I asked her.

"Well, I don't know how to react!", she chuckled.

Well that did kinda lighten the mood now.

"Well, my name is Deepak and you already know about it!"

"Yeah, I was given an option of knowing that! So-"

I laughed at it. God, she is funny!

"See I don't believe in this astrology and stuff! I have never done conventional things in my life and after seeing you, for the first time, I felt I should not spoil your life just because the elders want this or rules and stuff are being dictated. So tell me, are you seriously okay with this arrangement?"

"Well, I don't know...", she confessed.

Ok, now is the time, she deserves to know!

"Chinmayi, I am not the right guy for you. You seem like a person who really cares about family values among other things. You have been brought up that way and it's evident while talking to your brothers and seeing how your family works. My brother is more of a family man, but I am not! So, please think this through.

I just want to be honest with you, give you your life back. I found it unfair when they dragged you into this. At least, I was given a heads-up. So, what's your say? Just take that day to be today and decide now!"

She looked lost and mostly startled. She looked like as it she was finding the right words to talk to me.

"Have I done anything to offend you?  Or is there anything missing in me?", she sadly asked.

My heart shattered.

How do I tell her that it's really not her?

How do I ensure that?

Is this what she thinks, that she is at fault?

No dammit, why am I bothered so much?

I really wanted to scream!

"It's not you, it's me, Chinmayi..."

I sar there speaking the most cliche' break up dialogue like a shameless and coward-filled fool. She looked like as if she was going to cry now.

God please don't, I am not good with this emotional crap and from you, that would mean an extra layer of difficulty!

"Hey, are you okay?"

"What do you mean by it's not you, it's me, huh? Haven't you been to school or college? That's what people say to break up and when they don't want to get things ugly.

Mr. Joshi, you don't even know me and this is the first ever conversation I am having with you and you are telling me indirectly that it's all my fault? I am here, for my family, my sister and ofcourse I am always grateful to your father and brother for saving my brother's and Bhabi's life!

How dare you 'It's not you, it's me', me?"

She was almost screaming those words in anger but mostly dipped in disappointment.

She was shaking.

Her face was red.

Her eyes poured with tears.

Her kajal was smudged.

Her hair was all out of place.

And yet she looked beautiful...

But how dare she even think of raising her voice against The Deepak Joshi?

Which part of what I said before is not comprehendable to her?

But even before I could explain, I saw the walls of the temple revealing themselves. Everyone was waiting for us and it did seem like I drove like a snail. I race through Bangalore traffic and here I was, dealing with all sorts of melodrama...

This is why, I don't want this wedding.

This is why, I want Chinmayi to understand.

And for the first time in twenty years, I am going to pray for it!

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A/N:

Hey guys, here is the much awaited Deepak's POV. The wait is finally over, right? Please note that this chapter is not written to disrespect any doctor or the medical profession. It's just Deepak is frustrated that he was expected to follow the trend and he never got the love from his family.

Happy Reading! ❤️

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