Dear confused journal.

I'll ask you again.

Have you ever had a friend?

I mean a real friend. Not ones that claim to be but then when your back is turned they talk. Ones that when you need them the most they do a vanishing act.

No, I'm talking about ones that are actually there for you, people that care. People who want to know all the little details about yourself that you though were stupid.

Yeah, me neither.

Or at least that's what I thought until a few days ago.

It's strange and a little weird the way things change. You get so used to one type of lifestyle, one type of feeling; then, in an instant the tide can change. A little phrase, one word can make a huge difference - I think I read that somewhere, the butterfly effect. The flapping of a butterflys wings in one place can cause a tornado in another. Weird, isn't it.

Change can be scary once you're so accustomed to one way of doing things. Like the sun coming up every morning. Like clockwork it arises filling our skies with rays of warmth. Everyone's lives depend on that huge blazing star, it governs what we do and when. So, if one day it was to just not come up, there'd be chaos.

However change can also bring relief. Like a shower of rain in a year long drought.

Then there's both, where change can bring both fear and relief.

Everyone's subject to change at some point, that's how we all grow. And though not all of us like change, like me, sometimes... maybe it's needed to move forward.

Change, for me, began a few days ago. And I can't say whether or not I really want or need it. But it came, all of a sudden without warning, like a thunderstorm.

It's been about a week since then and already things seem different, feel different, are different.

And all it took was one simple word.

Goodbyes and Greetings

-me