🍁"Thank you for loving me,
When I still tasted of Heartache"🍁

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Bryce's P.O.V.

I sat next to him. Our arms were touching. Neither he moved away nor did I. Music playing downstairs could be easily heard. I just focused on breathing. Looking at Kyler's face was difficult. He was also silent.

"How have you been?", He broke the ice. I shifted in my place to face him. He was looking at his shoes.

"I'm fine. How have you been?", I asked. He looked lost. Hearing my question, he laughed sarcastically.

"Do you really want to know? Or are you just doing the formality?", He asked.

"I care about you. I really want to know", I replied. 

"To be honest, I'm not fine", he said. Looking up from his shoes, he looked right into my eyes. My breath stuck in my throat when I saw his eyes glistening.

"But I'm happy that you're doing okay", he added as he looked away. I saw him taking deep breaths through his mouth. Guilt consumes me from inside out.

"Why are you not fine?", I asked looking at him. My eyes were moist. My heart breaks for him. 

Don't you know? You're a certified bi**h, my mind replied.

"Because I missed you", He replied without even looking at me. He bites his lower lip and exhaled a deep breath. He was on verge of tearing up. A tear rolled down my cheeks. I wiped it away.

"Don't miss me", I said looking away. It's hard to face him.

I missed you too, I wanted to say.

"I tried. Trust me, I tried hard", he said and then he got up from the bed and walked to the balcony. He sat on the bench placed on the balcony. I followed him and stood behind him taking support of the door. His back was facing me. Kyler turned around giving me a view of his half face.

"What should I do Bryce? Tell me. I stay up most of the nights thinking of you trying not to think of you. I miss you while trying not to miss you. I tried to make myself busy with people, work and studies so that I don't have any time to think about you. But even when I'm super busy, you happened to be there with me in my thoughts", he said looking in the infinity.

I think of you too. You happen to be there in my mind as well.

"You're not trying hard", I said as my eyes welled up. He scoffed. He shifted in his position and his back faced me. I walked a few steps ahead and stood next to him.

"It hurts", Kyler said. He took a pause. I saw him rolling his tongue against his cheeks. He was vulnerable. He looked pitiful because of me.

"It's painful to have you in my heart and have feelings for you one sided but it's even more painful to not have you in my life. I tried dating so many girls. I kept looking for you in them. But I failed. No one looked at me the way you do" he said as he looked up at me. I could see the love in his eyes for me. That moment took me back to two months ago, where he proposed to me. He hasn't moved on.

"You should have asked me to wait for you Bryce. I'd have done that but you just threw me out of your life. You should not have done that to me", he accused me. I bowed down my head. I'm guilty. I won't explain myself.

He got up from his seat. Taking a few deep breaths, Kyler stood facing me. I saw him holding back his emotional breakdown. I wiped away my tears. I don't deserve any sympathy.

"You know it's hard to wait for something when you know it's not going to happen. But it's even harder to give up when that's the only thing you ever want", he said.

"I've tried talking to people. They say I'll be over you in a year. May be they are right. But what if your name still affects me after a year?", He asked. I remain silent. I don't have answers for his questions.

"You don't want me, I accept that. But I can't stop my feelings", he said raising his hands up in the air as surender.

"I've one request, Bryce. Please-", he paused as he gave me a longing look. I saw him contemplating. He rubbed his face with both his palms and cursed under his breath. 

"What?", Was all I could say. He looked at me and placed his both hands over my shoulder. He took two steps close. Placing his forehead over mine, he closed his eyes.

"Please let me love you. I can't afford a life without you", he whispered. I was on verge of crying. I looked at him. Tears were flowing down his cheeks. My hand reached out to his face as I wiped away his tears. 

Right now looking into his eyes, I could hear what my heart wants all loud and clear. The feelings I've been trying to engrave inside my heart and ignore all this while resurfaced my senses. I can't run away anymore.

I want it too. I want all of it. The pointless bickering, the constant attention, the fights, the pure affection and genuine care. I crave everything. I crave for his presence near me. I want him. 

He pulled away a few inches away. My hands were still holding his face wiping the invisible tears. I don't want to let go of him as well. I want to hear him calling me Bryce Bear again.

"If you don't want to be girlfriend then let me be your boyfriend atleast. I can give you all the time you want. Let me be with you. Just don't push me away. Does this sound okay?", He asked looking at me with puppy eyes.

This time, I pulled him closer to me. I close the distance between us. I tiptoed and sealed his lips with him. I kissed him. Words weren't enough to express my feelings. I'm not good with words. He reciprocated my kiss immediately. His hand encircled around my waist as he pulled me closer. The kiss was urgent and passionate. We both wanted each other. I let him take the lead. He started pushing me back without breaking the kiss. As soon as my back hits the wall, I broke the kiss. I need oxygen to breathe. I came back to my senses. I was taking deep breaths. 

He was still holding me close. It took me a few seconds to normalise my breath. My hand was on his chest. His heartbeat was rapid, just like mine. 

"Why? What was that? You must know you can't push me away now. You've kissed me", he said. He sounded like a kid.

"I'm in", I said.

"What?", He asked.

"Be my boyfriend. I'm ready to have a relationship with you. I'm ready to receive your love. I'm ready to give my love to you as well. I'm scared. It's freaking me out but I still want to risk it for you. I want your love", I said with a smile.

My eyes were teary. Every limb of my body was trembling. Goosebumps covered my body. From this moment on, my life will undergo a major change. I'll have to do things, I'm not comfortable with. I'll be accountable to someone. I'll not more be available for myself. I've to share my alone time with someone else. This change will take a toll on me but I'm ready for it. Why? Because Kyler is worth it.

"Really? Are you serious? Are you sure?", He asked with excitement, confusion, happiness, hope and endless emotions playing in his eyes and his voice.

"I can't be more sure", I replied nodding at him. He smiled one second and started crying another second. He pulled me into a comforting hug. I closed my eyes as I heard his heart beat and his crying.

"Thank you. Thanks a lot for accepting me. I Love you, Bryce bear", there it is. He said me with that name, I was craving to hear. It melted my heart. I hugged him back. I feel at peace now. I don't feel anxious. I feel contented. 

Is this feeling called being at home?

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Kyler's P.O.V.

I was holding her from behind. We both were looking up into the sky. I didn't leave her for even one minute. Her head was rested on my chest as she looked up. She was silent, so was I. The music playing inside Kimberely's house was filling the silence between us.

"Are you going to leave me or not? It's been fifteen minutes", Bryce said leaving a deep sigh. I hugged her even more tightly. Her back was touching my chest.

"I have two months to cover. I want to makeup for the time I didn't see you, I didn't talk to you. I missed you so much", I said and kissed her cheeks. She shifted in her position and faced me. I immediately kissed her lips.

I want to pack her and tie her with me forever.

"Talking about those two months, I need to talk about the endless number of girls you dated", she said and then placing her hand over my chest, she pushed me away.

"I don't want to talk about them. Let me hug you", I said but she didn't agree.

"Not happening. Sit down", she ordered me to sit on the beach. Folding her hands across her chest, she glared at me. I gulped nervously. I never knew Bryce will be a typical girl. But even God can't predict women.

"Do you kiss the girls you went out with?", She asked.

Only two because I was drunk.

"Not a single one", I lied with a straight face.

"Did you sleep with anyone? Any drunken mistake?", She asked.

I want to sleep with you. I want to cuddle you.

"What do you think of me? I'm a gentleman. I never dated any girl twice because I don't want to hurt their feelings", I told her and she scoffed.

"I asked you to let me go and you didn't even wait for two days before dating a new girl. Such a gentleman you're", she complains and I couldn't help but smile.

"You look cute when you're jealous", I said and her face turned pale.

"What? Who is jealous? Not me. I was just being concerned as a friend", she said looking everywhere except me. I bite back my laugh.

I held her hand and pulled her towards me. She landed on my lap. Her ears turned all red. She struggled to get out of my hold. I was enjoying it.

"But now you're my girlfriend. You can be as much as jealous as you can", I said and she scoffed.

"Don't set high hopes. I am not going to be jealous. It's your nature", she said.

"I'll be very possessive. I don't want anyone to be around you except me", I said as I hugged her. She pushed me away and got up.

"Don't be so clingy. I'll change my mind", she smirked and then walked inside the bedroom. Scratching my head, I followed her.

I can't keep my hands to myself.

I sat next to her and entwined our hands. I passed her a smile and she smiled back. "What have you done if I've never fallen for you?", She joked. But it hurts to even think of that possibility.

"I don't know. I never had a plan B. Each day I saw you, I fall in love with you more than before. I'd have ended up living like a loner or something maybe. My heart rejected everyone. My life would have turned into a nightmare", I said and she kept looking at me without uttering a single word.

"Kyler Grace", she said.

"Yes, Bryce bear", I asked.

"I have no experience of love. But I guess you're going to be my definition of forever", she said with a heartwarming smile. I sealed her lips with another kiss.

And In this moment, I again fall for her.

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And here is another update. Wow, you guys must love me for regular updates. Tell me your real feelings for me (*praise me*- whispers in your ears). Lmao.

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