It's been almost a month since I started going to see Stephanie, she told me to call her that since Dr. Stephanie was too formal! My final exams are over now and I'm finally on summer break. I've been doing the looking in the mirror thing, but I don't really think it helped me much, but my parents said that I had improved on my view of my appearance. I don't see it, but hey! If the people who know me best said I had improved then maybe I had.

I had mostly stopped binging and purging except for my teensy weensy slip a week ago and again four days later. I had an overwhelming desire to binge and I did, but I really couldn't help it. Afterwards I couldn't stop myself from purging. I remember feeling extremely ashamed afterwards even though at the moment, I felt nothing but calmness and serenity. I still feel ashamed but after I told my therapist and my parents, I felt better. My parents were incredibly sympathetic but slightly scared for my health. Whereas Stephanie told me that it was to be expected, that she understood why it happened and that in most other cases they would binge and purge more than twice in a smaller period of time during the treatment. So she said that I was actually making progress and that I was actually one step closer to being completely cured. So...Yay, I guess!

Anyway, today my parents finally told me what my dad meant on the phone when he said 'a change of scenery', which I had actually asked them about a lot! Apparently I was going to be attending a new school. They had already done the paperwork and everything. So, in one month's time I would be attending St. Stephen's High School! They decided this because according to Stephanie, there was too much negativity in my previous school, All Saints High School (which is so not like it's name) so I had to go to a new school with a much more pleasant environment. Luckily, I wouldn't have to move to a new town though because it's just an hour or so away. They had thought that moving to a whole new town might be a bit too much, which I'm glad about, because moving to a new town would just be too much unfamiliarity to be comfortable with.

*One month later*

This past month has been pretty hard for me. I've had many and I mean many times when I wanted to give in to my temptation to binge and purge, but I'm proud to say that I didn't except for one time. Half the time I managed to stop myself and the other times my parents stopped me. Both of my parents have been so kind and loving during this time and I'm so grateful for having them in my life!

Another thing that I'm glad about in this whole treatment process besides the obvious one which is getting better is that I've finally learned how to play the guitar. My parents bought me a guitar when I was around 12 or 13 years old because I really liked music and wanted to learn, but it had remained untouched throughout the years since I was always too lazy, but Stephanie told me to start doing something that will give me complete and utter happiness.

Even though at first it was extremely hard and I thought about giving up a lot, I managed to keep at it. I've been practicing for almost two months now and I've become a lot better which I'm glad to say, and I've always loved singing so that part is so much fun as well. I remember when I was younger my parents would ask me to sing for them. I was always too shy most of the time, but as time went by, I became less shy in front of them. Despite my shyness disappearing in front of my parents at that time, I doubt I would be able to sing in front of anyone else.

Anyway, so school is starting next week and I'm extremely scared and nervous. I'll be going to a new school where I won't know anyone. I mean, I know that in my old school I didn't know anyone besides Sierra but there was always a sense of familiarity there. But even then, I doubt that I'm going to miss that place. I just hope that this school will be a lot better than my old one. Maybe I'll be able to actually make friends, as long as I can overcome my shyness and people are not completely repulsed by me.

That week passed by very quickly for me. The whole week was spent getting school supplies and buying a whole bunch of new clothes for my school wardrobe and of course daily therapy with Stephanie. The clothes shopping was a little difficult because I kept feeling way too big for most of the things that I had liked. But I managed to get a lot of them in my size which was surprising. I've actually lost a little weight because I still work out but only for an hour maximum, which was strictly said by Stephanie.

And apart from that, I've been practicing the guitar and my singing a lot, secretly of course! I'm not even sure if my parents know about it but they probably do since I play really loudly.

Anyway, today was the big day. I would finally be beginning my first day of school at St. Stephen's High School! I woke up pretty early today to get ready because it takes me forever to put on my new contacts. My parents finally got me contacts after a lot of begging. I really disliked my glasses but now I get to wear contacts so, yay! But they were really hard to put on, at least they were for me but I managed to, thankfully!

Now I was in the car, already on my way to my new school. To say I was nervous would be a major understatement. I looked down at myself as I critiqued the outfit that I had chosen. I was wearing a denim acid washed top with sleeves till my elbow that went to just above my knees. I paired it with simple black leggings, my trusty owl chain that I loved wearing and my favorite black and white high tops! This was one of my favorite outfits and I just hope that it looks at least almost as good on me as it does when it's draped across my bed, which looks pretty amazing, I might add.

When I got to school, I immediately went to the huge music room that they have to put my guitar which I had brought in case I had a free period or something. It was pretty easy finding my way to the music room because I had come here a couple of days ago since my mom wanted me to see the school so that I'd be able to make my way around the school without getting lost.
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[A/N]

Hey guys!

So the gif in this chapter is basically what Lana told her mom when she saw the outfit she's wearing, in the mall. Also I think she looks really pretty in this gif and I hope you guys agree! :D

And please feel free to vote or comment if you liked it and I would really appreciate it if you did!

-athena