(Dear god this is long, prepare yourselfs. I hope your ready for some storytime and venting :D)

Art by me!

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KRIS' POV:

'Wait...where..am I?' I thought as I slowly opened my eyes.

My surroundings were dark, but where I was had some light. And someone was singing.

They were stroking my hair lovingly and I had my head on their lap. The voice...it sounded so familiar...but who-

......wait....

..it..it couldn't be..

.....Ralsei?...Is..Is that you?....

I didn't say anything. I just laid there, listening to his beautiful voice. The voice that would always soothe me when I'm in my darkest times.

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(Btw can we clap it up for ShySiesta and her beautiful voice and just this song in general cuz my god this is absolutely gorgeous!!)

"Darling won't you please calm your heart
Just close your eyes...and hear your heartache wisp away...
Let sleep embrace you, don't be afraid of the dark.

Please, allow me to pacify your mind.
Just rest, oh rest...and feel your pain be blown away...
And no harm done, oh no pain shall come.
For now place your worries aside.

(Hush now, hush now,)
(No one can hurt you now.)
(See all that you've accomplished,)
(now take a bow.)

(Everyone has their own battles)
(inside their hearts so please...be gentle.)

(You never have to fight)
(your battles alone...)"

My throat started to tighten. I missed him so much. He was always there for me, no matter what I did, no matter what I said, he was always by my side.

"...Ral...sei...." I said quietly, slowly reaching my hand up to feel him.

He gently took my hand and our fingers intertwine. I blushed a bit at his actions. His hand was...warm. I held onto him as he continued to sing.

"Darling, oh won't you please calm your heart.
Just close your eyes...and hear your heartache wisp away...
Let sleep embrace you, don't be afraid of the dark.

Please, allow me to pacify your mind.
Just rest, oh rest...and feel your pain be blown away...
So no harm done, oh no pain shall come...for now place your worries aside.."

Ralsei held my hand as he lended in closer to me.

"Kris...don't forget...you're strong..much stronger than you think....stay determined..and I'll see you soon...." He softly whispered to me.

My hand gripped tighter on his hand. I didn't want to let go.

"Wait Ralsei...don't leave....please..." I said. I felt my eyes start to water.

"We will meet again Kris...I promise...besides everyone's waiting for you...they're all worried about you..."

"But..I..I want to be with you...please...don't go..." I begged.

"I'll see you very soon...don't worry..I'm never leaving you..." Ralsei said, stroking my hair one last time.

"You can't give up now..." He said.

"Kris...remember..stay determined...for me...but also...for you..."

Then everything faded to white.

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NO ONE'S POV:

Kris' eyes slowly opened. He looked around, trying to figure where he was. He realized he was laying on the couch and..

He looked down at his rolled up sleeves that showed his arms. They were bandaged up nicely, same with his other injuries. He slowly looked across from him.

"Ben..dy?.." Kris said half asleep.

Everyone jumped as soon as they heard Kris.

"KRIS!" They all said in unison, relieved that Kris was ok.

Flowey looked up as well, hearing the commotion. 

Kris slowly tried to sit up, but his body felt so numb. He winced a bit as he tried the best he could.

"Kris no! You need to rest!" Fran said.

"N-no no...it's ok.."

"I'm getting Mae brb!" Mugman said to everyone as he ran upstairs.

Kris fully sat up now. He looked down at his bandaged arms again.

"Why did you save me..?" He asked everyone in a almost hushed tone. He didn't want to look anyone in the eye. Not after what he did.

They all were hesitated to talk for a moment, but the answer was pretty obvious. Flowey continued to listen.

"Because we were concerned about you." The neighbor said calmly.

"And I know you're mother would have been too.."

Mugman came down the stairs with Mae. She was absolutely relieved as well to see Kris ok. They both sat down near him.

Kris remained silent, not looking up at anyone. He slowly got his legs off the couch and held arms close to him.

Bendy scooted a bit closer to him.

"Kris...please...talk to us..." He calmly said.

Kris was still silent, but after a few seconds he finally looked at Bendy.

For the first time, Bendy saw Kris in tears. He stared at the demon for a moment before turning back.

Kris felt as if he was hesitate for the longest time sitting there. He has never done this kind of thing before yet he's finally come to the conclusion, after so long that he wouldn't hide it anymore. He had given up on hiding his troubles after all these years. It finally became way to much for him. Now might as well be his very first opportunity.

"...ok...." He said quietly, wiping his tears.

"I-I'll tell you..."

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"In the beginning, I...I never had parents. I never knew them. So I was basically an orphan for most of my childhood. I lived in an orphanage with kids who didn't really like me all that much. I..I kinda was labeled as a weird kid and got bullied sometimes. Though, it was probably because of my girlish personality, my still childish-high pitched voice, and how I looked. I actually looked like Maddy, but with a really ugly bowl cut."

A few people looked in Maddy's direction. She didn't know what to say or how to react, but she guessed she seemed almost flattered. Flowey raised an eyebrow.

"I tried to interact with some of the other kids, but they didn't seem much interested in me, so I was kind of a loner and I kinda..I excluded myself from everyone. I did nothing but..draw and..explore the woods that was nearby. When my 8th birthday arrived, I got this new outfit from..someone. I didn't know who gave it to me. I asked around, but no one else knew. And this happens every birthday. I wake up in the morning and there is some kind of gift waiting for me, even my last birthday. But a-anyways...with the new outfit I got I decided that..I would change my identity to a female.

At the time, i-it made sense to change myself to a girl, since...I acted so much like a girl and like girly things more than anything. I also thought maybe then..people would start accepting me more and I would be fully true to myself. But I also did it because I liked the idea of just being a girl."

"Do you still feel that way?" Freddy asked.

Kris hesitated.

"Not really...I..I'd rather be a guy who just likes girly things..

B-but..I also decided to change my name by mixing some letters around. I guess I wanted to make it more "feminine", so in the end, after trial and error, I added an F, making myself known as....'Frisk'."

Flowey...froze as this information was brought to him like a bullet.

"Isn't 'Kris' also a girl name?" Sal asked.

Kris nodded. "I guess that's why I-I wanted to change it more, so it could become more "feminine." Kris said using air quotes.

"But for once i-in my life...I felt kinda proud to be who I wanted to be at the time. But, of course...nothing really changed. I think it actually became worse and....I.....I couldn't take it anymore....." Kris continued, trying to keep his composure.

"I heard that there was a legend about this mountain, Mount Ebot, that people who climb the mountain they....never return.."

Flowey stayed frozen, listening to every word.

"S-so I ran away and climbed till I got to the very top. Once I made it, there was this big hole that lead to complete darkness, I couldn't even see the bottom. I wasn't really scared though and I...I-I remember taking off my shoes and staring over the edge.

I cried and cried, but I knew that this was for the best. I turned around and....I...I let myself..." Kris couldn't finish his sentence, but everyone knew what he meant. He looked away from everyone for a moment as he sniffed and tried to find his words again.

Bendy placed a comforting hand on his shoulder.

They couldn't imagine an 8 year old, a child wanting to...And their life hasn't even begun yet..That's just awful. Truly awful.

"W-when I woke up I....I didn't expect to wake up a-and I cried again.

But I stopped and looked around. I...I still don't know how to this day a small patch of golden flowers saved me from dying. From where I-I looked up, it was pretty deep. Even so, I..I had no choice but to see w-what this place had to offer. I began walking and sooner or later....I..came upon..." Kris hesitated.

"...a talking flower...." Everyone gasped.

"You...you don't mean..." Freddy managed to ask. Kris looked at Freddy and nodded.

Just about everyone was shocked.

And Flowey.....how in the hell was he supposed to react. All this time..ever since...'Kris' got here....after all these years....

Kris continued his story.

"H-he introduced himself and..greeted me with a smile and told me what to do down there. I thought..I was hallucinating. Seeing a talking flower wasn't something I've ever seen before. But everything just seemed so..real. In the end, he tricked me and tried to kill me. But someone else came and saved me. That someone was now my mom.

She gave me a much more friendlier and kinder greeting, of course, being a mother and all, but..I-I never knew that feeling. The feeling of a warm welcome or of a mother's love. I never once had that nice warm hug moms give. I never in my life had those feelings, so I was very confused. Above anything at the time..I'd thought she'd trick me like Flowey....but she never did.

She took me into the place she lived and properly showed me how things worked around there. And at that moment in my life, I've never seen so many colors.

It's like the world I used to be in was in black and white until I can to the underground. Kind of like the wizard of oz and I was Dorthy." Kris smiles a little at the funny thought.

"All the monsters would lived there were so nice, nicer than any human I've ever known....well except for one....but leave that towards the end.

Throughout my journey, I remember having to leave my mom. I knew I couldn't stay with here forever. Being trapped, alone...I didn't want that again. She was devastated, but understood. She hugged me and left. But I wanted to see her again. I knew I would. I didn't want to lose her...

And for the first time ever...I had a reason to live. I want to see my mom again. I became...determined."

Flowey continued to listen. Everything started to piece together for him.

"I traveled through the rest of the underground and..I remember meeting so many great more monsters and seeing all of the beautiful places they lived in. They wanted to kill me and take my soul, but that was because they just wanted to be free. To free the monsters that were there, you would need a monster's soul and..a human soul to break the barrier, that sealed them underground. But...I...I remember helping them achieve that...without fighting or...hurting anyone...

A-And you know..soon..some of those monsters I've meet became like my family....

A skeleton monster who smiles a lot and tells bad puns..."

Bendy perked up.

"A ghost who secretly wishes he could do better at what he wants to do..."

Spooky perked up.

"Another skeleton monster who hates his brother's puns and has a lot of confident in almost everything he does.."

Cuphead perked up.

"A fish monster who's very energetic and is ready for almost anything.."

Mae perked up.

"A reptilian monster who likes anime and gets nervous a lot.."

Maddy perked up.

"A robot monster who loves to entertain and apparently likes fire..."

Freddy perked up.

"A monster who likes to talk about his adventures and the people he admires..."

Fran perked up.

"A spider monster who was greedy and would to do anything to reach her goal..."

Ayano perked up.

"A goat monster king who just wanted to see his family again..."

The neighbor perked up.

"And a doll monster who is very interested in feminine things..."

Sal perked up.

"With every monster I befriended throughout my journey, I felt like I had more of a purpose. I finally felt important. And when I got them all out I..." Kris sniffed a bit.

"I knew I wouldn't be alone anymore..." He continued.

"I...I feel like..i-if it wasn't for them I wouldn't have become the person I am today. And I was so happy that they were in my life."

Kris took a second to look at the humans in the house.

"T-The truth is I...I never liked humans....I..never had a good impression with them..and....and I hated them for hurting the monsters.......but...."

Kris turned back again to face everyone, including the humans here.

"Y-you guys are ok..." He smiled shyly.

It was understandable. To hate your own kind for what they've done to you. The humans in the house knew that every well, so they weren't even slightly offended.

"But...but before I meet all of you and all the other monsters I-I...had someone else...a human...Her name...

Was Chara.."

Another bullet went through Flowey.

"She was the only human that understood me..that cared and helped me..and..I miss her too..

I remember t-the first time meeting her in the underground...The thing was though..she was a ghost and..s-she also had problems with humans in the past, so..she wasn't so open with me i-in the beginning..But soon...she became more like herself and..even helped me when confronting the monsters. Besides the monsters I was saving, she was a lot of fun to have around..

Soon though I..found out about her past..when she first fell into the underground. She was apparently adopted by the royal family of the underground. The king, the queen and..the prince of monsters."

Flowey gulped. At this point, he knew what Kris was going to say next. And he wasn't ready for it.

"The prince's name was Asriel and h-he was Chara's best friend at the time a-and..just like me, she found the monsters to show more kindness, respect and love than any human would and..the monsters loved her right back.

One day..Chara and Asriel had a plan to got to surface and set all the monsters free..but it had failed and....t-they both died from it and...the kingdom was in despair of their passing..

My dad declared that any human that fell would be killed and their soul would be used to one day free the monsters a-and..my mom divorced my dad after he made that decision and decided to live in the ruins instead. They buried Chara's body and as for Asriel..the prince of monsters...his dust spread across the garden.."

Everyone was silent.

"Not too long after however..the royal scientist was doing experiments on a power that only humans contained...a-and they named that power...DETERMINATION..the same power......that I have.."

Everyone was puzzled at that.

"What...is DETERMINATION?" Mae asked. Kris was hesitant for a second.

"It's....a power that..causing one to persist after death, to keep coming back after you die...

I was also...able to..go back in time by..SAVING and RESETING everything from the very beginning. From where I first was able to feel determined..which was..back in the underground.."

"So..ya were able to go back in time like..Hat kid?" Bendy asked.

Kris nodded.

"I...I know what..you guys did..I know that you all went back in time for me....I know what I did in the other timeline...I know that I-" Kris stopped himself once again.

It made sense now. When they went back in time and Kris was supposed to be in the room like he originally was. But he wasn't. He must have scened it and sneaked out before they got to him.

"The..the thing is though I..I don't really have that power anymore since I..I'm not determined.."

'Understandable"' was what everyone thought.

"But...that's what they were experimenting on..the power of DETERMINATION..and...they injected that power into one of the garden's golden flowers...the first one to bloom after Asriel's death."

'Oh no.'

"The experiments on the flower vessel t-turned out unsuccessful, and the royal scientist returned it back to the king..."

'Oh god no.'

"But, not long after being it was replanted..."

'Don't remind me of that..'

"Asriel, the prince of monsters, woke up within the garden, reincarnated....as Flowey."

Everyone sat there, practically having exploded minds as they tried to consumed.

"So..that means-" Cuphead said.

"Yeah...Flowey is royalty...

However.." Kris continued.

"Though the injection of DETERMINATION, Flowey was able to live, but h-he was unable to feel any emotions towards the king or queen or really anyone.."

"Wait..why?" Spooky asked.

"Because..he didn't have a SOUL and so.. he could not feel love, joy, or any compassion and therefore, he was...soulless."

Freddy sat back in his seat. This just made so much sense as well. It explains his "soulless" attitude. Why Flowey tends to be an a-hole almost all the time. Why he doesn't care. The truth made sense,  but...it was sad.

"I remember I got to see the prince. I got to see Asriel for the first time. He was sad, angry, confused and broken and all I wanted to do..was help him. He kept telling me that "in this world, it's kill or killed" and "that I should give up".

But I never did. I never gave up. Not on any of my family...or him.

I-in the end..I saved him and he broke the barrier so that everyone could go free. But before I left..I hugged him and told him that he wasn't alone and that I forgave him..for everything..And that was the last time...I ever saw him..."

Flowey lowered his head. 8 years ever since that...he couldn't believe it...Even to this day, he couldn't understand why Kris would forgive him.

"S-so after I set all the monsters free, Chara..had to move on..I guess I gave her what she always wanted. The monsters to be free and...a human friend..

Before she left, she gave me her necklace so I could remember her..and I've always cherished it...and I've never forgot about her.."

S-Soon, we made a town for all the monsters, away from the humans and now that's where I live."

Kris paused for a second, finding more of his words.

"After a few years later, when I was like..11? I became a little...mischievous. I-I don't know why I did what I used to do..but I would...pull some...dark pranks, cause a little trouble and telling kids lies to scare them...At the time I thought it was funny..b-but I wasn't doing it to be mean..."

"I would do that too." Bendy said. Kris looked at him.

"Really?"

The cartoon nodded. "It drove my creators crazy.."

"Yeah..

Looking back at my...stupid naive self..I don't know why I did it....Maybe I just wanted more attention...maybe it was all a "cry for help" thing...Maybe I felt...too lonely....Everyone was having their own lives as well so..maybe I just wanted how things used to be, but I-I guess it could never really go back to that..

I-I remember...causing trouble to just about everyone in town..I was pretty outgoing and..stubborn at times..

My mischief got to the point one day where..I was a causing a little more than I should have and...one of the kids started hitting me with a wiffle bat until I..stopped lying about..all the scary lies I told the kids...I wished it was a real bat I was hit with...."

That last part, Kris made sure it was quite.

"Geez.." Mugman exclaimed.

Kris nodded.

"One day...I..I remember I woke up and..my eyes felt different..I went to look in the mirror and...they..they looked different and....I looked horrible...

I scared some of the kids on that same day and...everyone was..looking at me weirdly...I didn't know how to feel..I didn't like how I looked either.

And I felt bad..really bad. I..I didn't mean to scare and annoy everyone on purpose and..with how I looked...it just made everything worse..

That same day, I decided to stop my mischief ways....a-and I knew i-it also wasn't fair for anyone to deal with the unnecessary habits I did. I didn't care if I felt lonely....they already had things going on..so I didn't want to make everyone's lives more difficult..

Until...that same night...when everything....changed...."

"What happened?" Bendy asked.

Kris didn't respond right away. He covered his mouth with his hand, like he was going to vomit. Bendy put his hand on his shoulder again.

"I....." Kris took a second before continuing.

"Everything was..so fast I..I didn't realized what I did till...it was too late....

I don't know why it happened but...I remember blacking out for..I don't know how long and the next thing I was....."

Everyone waiting for him to continue.

"I.....I was holding..a-a knife...and....I had..." Kris whimpered, taking a second to breathe.

"I had..blood..on me....and everyone's face-" Kris couldn't take it anymore. He felt tears form in his eyes. He covered his mouth with both of hands as he cringed at the horrible memory.

Bendy immediately went ahead and comfort the boy.

"I...I don't why it happened....and-and soon...the news spread across town and..."

Kris paused.

"Everyone hates me now..no one looks at me the same ever again...

And to think..Kris, the ambassador of monsters tried to-" Kris cut himself off, a tear rolled down his cheek.

"Do..do ya know how ya blackout?" Bendy asked.

Kris shock his head.

"I-I didn't know w-what happened to me that night a-and..from that day, my family doesn't really speak to me that much anymore...and now t-they attended their own lives..Everyone has a negative perspective of me a-and...it's hard to go to school too when one of your family members is the teacher and...all the kids bully you or avoid you completely almost all the time...

And you know...Maybe...maybe I should of just...stayed alone..forever...then...none of it would happened...then I wouldn't have hurt any them...or any of you guys..." More tears fell down Kris' cheek as he wiped it away with his bandaged arm.

No one intervened with his open thoughts. They thought it would be better to let him vent for now.

"I remember..I cried in my room sometimes, feeling guilt and regret take over from what happened..I never really talked to anyone anymore after that..and I was..." Kris inhaled sharply.

I-I was also beaten up by some of the kids....and I didn't fight back and...I cried, taking every blow...and this happened for a few years...

At that point I..I would have....I would have tried to end everything right then and there....if it wasn't for my mom....

I guess..even after so many years.... she's still the main reason I keep going...just to see her not stressed or...worried about me...just to see her happy.." Kris sniffed, wiping away more of his tears.

Everyone kept listening , so did the flower.

"One day, when I was beaten again I-I would walk through the woods to get to my house...just so no one would see me in the state I was in but...soon I..I found a..a flower...a really pretty flower, just in the middle of the woods..by itself...and, this was a stupid though of mine, but I thought at the time 'why not spend time with this flower since no one wants you around..'"

"Dude that's not stupid, that really sad.." Mae commented. Everyone agreed.

Kris bowed his head.

"S-So I talked to the flower...I sat down and stayed with it..for a few hours, where no one would hear my stupid conversations with a flower that couldn't even talk back....But soon, I had to leave..before my mom got worried...

A-Another time I got beat up, it was...pretty bad..a-and I passed out for an hour or two..and...and when I woke up...it was late and I ran home despite being in pain...and I remember the look on my mom's face when I got home and she saw me....I...I just told her that..that I fell or...something...

But..the worst time I got beaten..was...when they took the necklace that Chara gave me and..broke it..and...that destroyed me..

I promised her I would always have it..to keep it safe so I'd always remember her....but I broke her promise..

So now..I wear this sweater.." Kris held a bit of his oversized sweater.

"This was her's but..this one's a little bigger.."

Everyone understood as more realization hits. Flowey looked away, thinking for a moment.

Kris sighed shakily.

"I-In the end I felt so alone for years..till I was.......15...so it wasn't too long ago...

One day I came to school..like any other day, but this time...

I meet someone new...

We had to do a school project that day and...I apparently was teamed up with her..since no one else was free..or wanted to team up with me. And then..m-my teacher was going to write the assignment on the chalkboard..only..there was no chalk and I-I had to go with her to get more...

The girl's name...was Susie..

I walked out of the classroom with her to get more chalk...and I..I catch her eating some at the corner of my eye and....she noticed I looked...and...the next I knew...she smashed me into a locker and..threaten to bite my face off..."

"Oh gosh..." Spooky exclaimed.

"Y-yeah I know..My back hurt like hell...but the thing was....she was the first one to spare me...when it came to bullying a-and I...I was so surprised when she didn't finish me off...No one before has ever stopped what they were doing and I-I wasn't expecting it..

A-Anyways...we went to go get the chalk from the storage closet but...something happened...I...I didn't know what it was nor d-did I know what was happening, but the supply closet felt...different..and I just didn't want to go inside...

It wasn't because I was scared of the dark...but more like...it...it just didn't feel right...but we both went in anyways...

I remember...it was really, really dark in that closet and....for some reason it was..longer than we thought and we just decided to go out...but then...

The door closed suddenly and....we fell....dark...darker...and...even darker we fell..

It was weird too. The moment felt so...familiar....like how it felt when I was falling into the underground...but this time....I had no idea where I would fall...and I guess...I wasn't alone..

When I woke up...I..I looked like a knight...I was covered in armor..and..I was blue and so was my hair...and....I was in this...strange new and very beautiful place...it wasn't the underground so...I-I didn't know where I was....

I walked and walked until I found Susie again..and she too looked different..

But we continued through this new and strange place and...soon we found...a castle..."

Flowey's nonexistent ears perked up.

"And that's when I met....him.." Kris said that last part quieter than anticipated.

"He was so nice, nicer than anyone I've ever meet..and at first I..I couldn't believe someone could be that kind and caring to me...but he really was...

No matter what I said...no matter what I did...he would always trust me and stay by my side...also..it turned out..he was a prince too.."

Flowey's eyebrows scrunched.

"I remember going through another journey with him and...it was....really something. He was always really worried about me..and his singing was..beautiful..and that laugh of his.....adorable.." Kris smiled to himself before he realized what the hell he was even saying in front of EVERYONE. He turned his focus on everyone as they raised an eyebrow at this new information. They knew what was going on alright.

Flowey however, was in his own thoughts.

"A-a-anyways!" Kris blushed, looking away.

"What's his name?" The neighbor asked.

"H-Huh?!"

"The other prince, what's his name?"

".....Ralsei..." Kris respond timidly, feeling his face grow red just from saying that name.

"OH! So that's who you were saying in your dreams!" Cuphead said rather a bit too excitedly.

"W-what?!"

"You were saying his name when you sleeping....and other things too.." Sal replied.

Kris' face turned bright red from that. He was extremely embarrassed.The fact that everyone knew what was going on with Kris and this prince, made everyone laugh and smile in their heads their own way. It was actually quite funny and cute to see Kris get flustered at this "potential someone."

"A-anyways...um...me, Ralsei, Susie and this other fun and goofy prince named Lancer went on this crazy adventure through this new world and...I..I remembered what an..amazing adventure I had...it was crazy, but...I-I've handled worse before, back in the underground and all and I...I didn't want it to end....but...soon I..a-and Susie had to leave..and...I had to say goodbye..

I never wanted to leave....I never to..leave him or his beautiful world that he lived in that I was also leaving behind but...I did and I wish I never did and I...

I still miss him to this day..I-I just...I really hope one day..I can see him again.."

An 'Aawwww' was played in everyone's heads. Mae thought about that page of that same character Kris drew. Maybe that was him...maybe that was Ralsei..

"Though, when I came back, I realized I-I..wasn't completely alone anymore..because now...

I had Susie...

And..I was really happy she was in my life. After so long I..finally found a new friend..

But..

The feelings I had..after all those years..after everything that happened, everything I went through were still there and...the feelings got worse and worse everyday...

I..actually was more surprised she stuck with me, even after what happened years ago...but..she did..and..

I couldn't tell her how I felt about it all, about what I've been feeling my whole life, a-all of those negative emotions I've been bottling up..I couldn't even tell her about that..or to anyone...not even my mom..."

Kris paused to regain himself once more.

"When I..when I told her I was leaving....I-I remember her getting pretty mad at me...but I understood why she felt the way she did, since I've been there...but..she forgave me anyways..

Then before I came here...I-I had a pretty big fight with my mom and..I regretted every word and...I hope I can tell her I'm sorry one day...

And for Susie..I haven't talk to since I left...She probably thinks I betrayed her...

And then...

I..I finally came here..

And...what I realized...why I-I've been acting weird...is because.." Kris hesitated.

"Is because..you guys remind me of my family I once had..

And it made me freak out inside and..I...I didn't know how to react so...I excused myself and pushed everyone away...like I also did...and then..

My feelings and emotions were so, so strong I...I just couldn't hold them in anymore and-"

Kris looked down at his bandaged arms.

"Well...you guys know the rest...

And...

I guess...that's my story.."

Everyone sat further back in their seats, trying to process everything they've just heard. It all seemed crazy..sad...really sad actually...horrible..but..for some reason, it didn't seem unbelievable.

"I-I'm sorry...this was stupid.."

A BUNCH of loud disagreements came from that one statements.

"Kris we..we believe everything you said.." The neighbor spoke.

"I know this was very hard for you, but I'm very proud that you were able to tell us you're story.."

Kris looked down at his lap.

"It's just...if this was bothering ya that much...then why..didn't ya say thing sooner?" Bendy asked.

The boy hesitated.

"It...I just didn't think it was worth telling anyone. I didn't want to make anyone worry or waste their time on me...so I...I never told anyone, and I still didn't even my mom a single thing on of how I feel.."

"So wait...you haven't told anyone any of your mental problems ever since you had them??" Madotsuki asked.

Kris nodded.

"I..I remember I..fake smiled a lot..for everyone and my family and friends, even when I knew I would'nt be alone anymore I...still couldn't really smile. I guess I..was never the one for smiling and...if I'm being honest, I never knew what a real smile feels like. I-I mean I smile but...I-I'm not sure if I'm really smiling sometimes or..maybe it's all the time.."

"Trust me buddy...we get like that too..." Bendy calmly said, looking down. Everyone, for the most part agreed.

"W-what...do you mean?.." Kris asked the smaller demon beside him.

"It means we know what you feel, not exactly but, we've all been in that dark hole that your in right now.." Monika said.

"But I...I've hurt people...I-I can't imagine anyone going through what I've g-gone through as something so terrible as that..." Kris exclaimed.

Everyone else sat in silence. A strong nervousness and debating feeling filled their thoughts...

But Mae was first to speak.

"I have.."

Everyone looked at Mae, including Kris. He was absolutely shocked beyond anything. Mae...hurting people?! That seemed so unbelievable to Kris, it almost seemed like a bad joke. A terrible joke actually.

Flowey kept silent and listened in too.

"For me it was one of the people back at my college.."

Kris was speechless.

"For me it was my friends.." Bendy said.

"For me..it was my dad and everyone else in my apartment building.." Sal said.

"For me it was my parents.." Fran said.

"For me..it was innocent security guards who were just trying to do their jobs.." Freddy said.

"For me and Mugs it was our friends because of my stupid greed.." Cuphead said. Mugman placed reassuring hand on his brother's shoulder.

"For me it was a dream but...it still was disturbing..I hurt the people there.." Madotsuki said.

"For me..it was this man who was a little bit curious about my house and just wanted to be friends.." The neighbor said.

Everyone else looked down, ashamed from what they used to do.

"Six is also a cannibal and Ayano..well she does it for her own needs.." Maddy said. Ayano eyes averted away.

The follower, Spooky and Hat kid looked down as well. They too have hurt people in some way.

Kris...couldn't freaking believe it. Everyone here has...there was absolutely no way they could have..

The boy sat there, unable to react, let alone even spare a glance at everyone. He didn't know what to think now. He didn't know what to think of himself. He held his bandaged arms close to him.

"Buddy we just wanted to tell ya that ya not alone.." Bendy said to Kris.

"We all did some bad things but, do we regret it? Yeah we do. Well ignore Ayano, but that's ain't the point.

The point is that it's obviously not easy handling all this baggage and feelings all by yaself. Ya can't keep them in like this, that ain't ok. I'm glad ya told us what happened to ya as well and I'm so sorry..

Ya matter Kris and ya don't deserve what happened to ya.."

"Yes I do..."

"No, ya don't. Ya don't deserve any of it..

Ya not unloved. And ya uncared for. And if no one else doesn't thinks so, then I sure do."

Mae walks over and sits next to Kris.

"So do I."

Sal walks behind the couch and stood near Kris.

"Same here."

"Stop it."

Everyone looked at Kris confused.

"Stop being so nice." He said facing down, his hair completely covered his face. His voice however, began to shake

"I don't...I-I don't..." Kris could hardly contain his tears. He didn't deserve this. He didn't deserve this much love. Or any love.

He covered his face with his hands. His heavy tears fell like a waterfall as he sobbed.

He then felt..arms.

Multiple arms wrap around him as he cried harder. The warmth of them around him, comforting him..it felt nice...but he didn't deserved it. He didn't deserve this. He didn't deserve any of this. He didn't deserve them. He didn't deserve their help. He didn't deserve to be here. He didn't deserve to live.

They continued to hug him till he was calmed down. Kris sniffed sharply a few times, wiping his remaining tears.

"Thank you...."

Everyone smiled at the boy.

Kris put a hand to his head for a moment and inhaled sharply.

'I.."

Kris got up from his seat.

"I-I need to go lay down..." The boy said as he first walked over to the neighbor.

Kris reached into his pocket and opened the neighbor's hand, giving him bloody razor and then closed his hand.

Everyone watched him, including Flowey watched as Kris quietly headed upstairs. Kris was physically and mentally drained. His mind was all over the place yet it felt so empty. He wished he didn't just walk away like that but...after a night like that..what else could he say? He's never, ever had an experience like that and it took A LOT out of him which he wasn't expecting.

He found his and Mae's room and changed into his pjs. Luckily, they weren't blood stained this time and hopped into bed. The covers felt so nice on top of him and pillow was perfect for his pounding head.

The darkness made Kris' eyes heavy as he felt himself drift away to sleep, completely exhausted from today's events that he'll never forget.

Sweet baby glob!!! Thank GOD I got that out of my system. I literally stayed up until 3:00 in the morning, just to finish editing this! Oh and Btw..

This was a picture made a little bit ago, based on the beginning of this chapter. I'm actually really proud of how it turned out T-T

Anyways I hope you enjoyed this LONGGGG and depressing chapter (this will clear up trust me) and I'll see you in the next one!