So I think I made some progress on my weird mental state?  I think??? But I figured something out I guess?

Half of me is like an adult, the other half is like a child. That might actually explain why I can never make up my mind on whether I want to grow up or stay young. I guess it's like... My adult side thinks very logically and is very... left brained? And gets annoyed when people are stupid. But then my child side is very right brained and just wants to do whatever it wants. So then I get frustrated with myself because half of me hates stupid people who do something stupid even though my other half is currently one of those stupid people. So then I get mad at myself for being a hypocrite when that is one of the things I hate about other people

That's kinda all I managed to work out. There's more things I need to figure out, like my weird obsession for graphic depictions of violence, my weird thing with apathy, but I think I've made a start? Come sometime later, I'm gonna look back at this and go, what was I thinking? But I mean... I've done something I guess. I also think that there's kind of a middle ground between the two and I guess that's when I'm stable?????? Idk man. 

Go team, go.