I DON'T OWN THE SONG

~Halloween

I locked my room door and slide down the door taking a deep breath trying to calm down. I close my eyes and curl up into myself. 'I hate this. Why did I tell them all of that?' I thought. I curl up more. "But it's like they actually cared. It's probably from the years of staying quiet," I mumbled.

~later

I laying on my bed, looking up at the ceiling listening to music. 

"Inshallah, that's what you say
You think I lost my faith
You won't speak my name
Forbidden, won't see you again
I chose a life of sin
Wish you could forgive" I sing along softly. 

"I got sharp edges
I get defensive
Too lost to care
Middle finger in the air, I'm sorry that I scared ya
Be my protector when I cross the Sahara
Take me there
Take me there and" I started to get lost in the song.

"Love me like a desert rose
Hold me like you can't let go
Keep me safe when I come home
Love me like a desert roseRegarde nous
Les mêmes joues
Toi et moi, tous les deux les mêmes
Plus de joie, en rentrant dans le bled" I heard a knock at my door.

"I got sharp edges
I get defensive
Too lost to care
Middle finger in the air, I'm sorry that I scared ya
Be my protector when I cross the Sahara
Take me there
Take me there andLove me like a desert rose
Hold me like you can't let go
Keep me safe when I come home
Love me like a-" I soften my voice ignoring the world. 

"Love me, that's all I want (habibi)
Hold me, it's that too much? (habibi)
Keep me safe when I come home (habibi)
Love me
Ah, love me like a-Love me like a desert rose
Hold me like you can't let go
Keep me safe when I come home
Love me like a-Like a desert
Habibi, habibi (habibi)
Habibi, habibi, ah (habibi)
Habibi, habibi, ah
Love me
Won't you love me?"  I finished the song feeling something wet running along my cheek. I touch my cheek. I was confused. 

"HALLOWEEN!" I heard a scream. I jumped and got up. I got up wiping my eyes. I open the door. I saw Christmas standing there, "Hallow," His voice softened. I backed up about to shut the door, "Hey," he stopped it and pulled me close to him. 

"Let me go," I whispered shaking. 

"No, we need to talk," Christmas kept his voice calm and smooth. I looked up at him. I felt him place his hands on my cheeks. I leaned into it. 

"About what?" I whispered. I slowly close my eyes. 

"Your feelings," 

"I don't want to talk about it," I whispered opening my eyes. He leans forward. I was confused and decided to close my eyes again. I felt something soft press against my lips.