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Hi guys! So, all my Sirius Black one shots are written connected. I highly recommend reading them in order, but it's not necessarily required.

I just love Black so much that I can't stop writing about him hehe

This is based on 'Falling' by Harry Styles and I recommend giving it a listen at least once so you get the mood of the chapter ( or listen for like a hundred times and get addicted to the song like me lol).

Warning: this one's like 3000 words long plus it's kinda sad. Also, for those who want to listen the song while reading I'll tell which time. But the timing of the lyrics might be wonky considering everyone has a different reading pace. You might have to skim through the words to match the pace which is why I recommend just lying on your bed with eyes closed and listening to the song before you start reading and repeat after the chapter. I'm not even kidding. I'm dead Sirius.

This idea had been going around in my head for literally months and I really hope you guys enjoy it :D

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"It's true, isn't it?"

He wouldn't answer to me. Remus avoided meeting my eyes and continued chewing his lower lip. And honestly, that's all the confirmation I needed.

"All right class," Mcgonagall spoke, "That's it for today. Complete the homework for tomorrow without fail. Class dismissed."

I collected my books in a rush to get out of the room as soon as possible. Just as I was heading out the door, there was a tap on my shoulder. I turned around to look at the tallest Marauder, Remus, who had somehow crept into the position of being one of my closest friends.

He looked down at the ground, "I'm sorry. I really am. Are you fine? I had no idea-"

Merlin, it really was true.

I was quick to interrupt him, "It isn't your fault, Rem. And I'm perfectly fine, alright?"

I hurried out of the room before he could say anything more or see the tears forming in my eyes. Being glad that transfiguration was the last class for all seventh years, I didn't hesitate to rush into the comforts of my bed.

When I finally reached the Hufflepuff dorm rooms, I threw my books on the table and collapsed on the bed.

He cheated on me.

The rumors had been circulating throughout Hogwarts the entire day.

"Oye I heard Black dumped that Hufflepuff and slept with Valetta Primrose."

"I heard Primrose was seen half dressed in Black's dormitory!"

"Poor girlfriend of his. Did she really think The Sirius Black would want her?"

Rumors were extremely common at the school and often extremely exaggerated. However out of all the words I had heard about last night's party, one thing remained constant: my boyfriend of three years had slept with Valetta Primrose.

I hadn't let any of those rumors get to me. I was used to people not minding their own business. But I couldn't help but think that now there was some actual truth to it.

Last night, one of the biggest parties was thrown in the Gryffindor common room. Sirius had pleaded me to come but I had refused because I really needed to study for my SATs. My dad was a plain and happy wizard but my muggleborn mom had pushed me into following some parts of the muggle curriculum side by side.

I insisted Sirius to go even though he said he would stay and help me study. But we both knew that would just end up with us snogging and plus I realized he needed to spend some quality time with the boys.

He cheated on me.

"Vans!" Came the shout of Eshia as she arrived in the dorm, "Are you okay? What happened?!"

Her shouts made me dig my face deeper into the pillow. But like any Hufflepuff, she came over and enveloped me into a big hug after she strictly instructed me to look at her and sit straight.

"Are you going to tell me what happened?" She whispered softly with a small smile.

"He cheated." I said as I bit the inside of my right cheek. The words seemed even more dreadful to say than to think.

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Eshia refused to leave my side for the entire next week. And honestly, I was thankful for it.

I hadn't talked to Black in two days and whenever he tried to say anything, my friends would flip him off and take me away.

Was this nice?

No.

Did I care?

No.

The more I wanted to stop thinking about what happened, well, the more I thought about it. Nevertheless, I wasn't going to let my grades drop for a stupid guy. So, I made an extra effort to excel in my classes. Although it was tiring, I have to admit it was a good distraction.

Walking to Potions, someone suddenly grabbed my hand and pulled me into an empty classroom.

Someone none other than Sirius.

I hadn't spoken to him in a four days  and I definitely wasn't wanting to anytime soon. Looking down at our interlocked hands, I pulled my hand away from his hold instantly.

"Some nerve you have, Black." I hissed as I folded my arms against my chest and stared at the ground.

"Please hear me out," He pleaded. I looked up at him, searching his eyes for any sign of sincerity.

"I'm leaving."

I turn around to make my way out of the classroom only to be stopped by his ludicrous words.

"Babe, please.."

I turned instantly back at him and the words that came out of my mouth were full of venom, "Don't you even dare to "babe" me." I poked his chest hardly, "You. You are the one who decided to go sleeping around when you had a girlfriend. But you know what? I really don't care at this point."

He rose his eyebrows and instantly defended, "I didn't sleep with her, I promise! We were drunk and yes we were in my dorm but we didn't sleep together, I swear! Yes we snogged a bit but that's all, I promise!"

He lifted his right hand to caress my cheek and gave me a pleading look. I made no reaction to his actions because the only thing on my mind was the words that had come out of his mouth.

I muttered, "You kissed?"

Sirius gave a small nod, "Please try to understand, love! I'm sorry! I really am. It's just that we were both drunk and-"

"Oh so that's your excuse for everything huh?" I pushed him away with both my hands as the former hurt got replaced by anger in my mind, "You were drunk? Do you think this is some kind of joke? You know just because I'm a Hufflepuff does not mean that I'm a pushover!"

Sirius gulped and this time he was the one who refused to meet my eyes, "Vanya, I'm sorry. Please.."

"I care about you but it's quiet clear you don't. I love you. I always have. But this is outrageous. So, listen to me carefully, Black." I said grabbing his tie down so he was face level with me, "We. Are. Done."

The shock on his face was instant and he opened his mouth to protest but I really wasn't in a mood for this shit.

Turning on my heel, I walked straight out the door.

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Sirius POV

Two weeks later, I finally opened up to the boys about what had happened.

"She broke up with me." I told them as we sat in a circle on my bed.

"You really think she wasn't going to?" Remus snapped back as he narrowed his eyes at me.

"You know we love you, mate." James added which brought a hopeful smile to my face which was instantly wiped off after his next words, "But what you did was extremely stupid. Even for you."

"I thought you loved her.." Peter remarked timidly.

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"I did! And I do!" I replied instantly in protest. "It was a stupid, truly stupid, mistake."

"A mistake that probably can't be fixed." Remus said with a sigh,"Goodbye you two. Peter and I are going to go do some research at the library.

The pair left and I realized I had quidditch today.

"You have messed up Black. Fix it before it's too late, alright?" James said staying the obvious. "You coming to practice now , right?"

"Yeah I'll be there in a few. You go ahead, Prongs." I said as I collapsed backwards into my  bed.

I'm in my bed
And you're not here

Everything seemed perfectly normal yet so wrong. I lost her and it was all my fault.

And there's no one to blame but the drink and my wandering hands

I swear if I had known how much a few swigs of drinks were gonna cause me so much trouble..

But then again, it wasn't the alcohol's fault.

It was mine.

Suddenly there were two knocks at the door. I reckoned it was James who thought he probably forgot his scarf even though he was most likely to be wearing it. Letting out a sigh, I went to open the dorm door only to be faced by the one and only, my precious Vanya.

"Hey.." I murmured biting my lip trying to ease the unbearable tension between us.

"I forgot my scrunchie here last week. Can I get it back?" She stated, her voice without any emotion.

"Oh uhm yeah," I said as I went over to my bedside table to pick up the scrunchie and proceeded to go and give it back to her.

"Listen I really didn't mean what u said. Forget it all. I miss you. Please give me a second chance-"

Forget what I said
It's not what I meant

"Goodbye, Black."

And I can't take it back

I sighed as she turned around and went down the hallway.

I can't unpack the baggage,
you left.

Was this it? Were we over? She really left me.. and for good.

What am I now?
What am I now?
What if I'm someone I don't want around?

Frustrated, I opened the bottom drawer of my wardrobe and dug my hand to the back of it.

I'm fallin' again

Found them. The cigarettes.

I'm fallin' again

I had quit because of her and I was starting it again. I didn't want to. But it seemed like the only escape.

I'm fallin'

Taking one out of the box, I lit it with Moony's emergency lighter. I put it in my mouth and inhaled it in.

What if I'm down?
What if I'm out?

I went over to Vanya and her friends when I spotted them beside Zonko's joke shop. I impulsively put an arm around her shoulder and greeted her with a peck on her lips. "What are you all talking about it?" I asked with a grin.

The three Hufflepuff girls giggled and the tallest one, Nadia I think, spoke up after giving a teasing look at Vanya, "Oh we were just discussing about you!"

What if I'm someone you won't talk about?

Her words caused Vanya's cheeks to redden and I reckoned it wasn't because of the cold, "Dia! Uhh erm- no we weren't!"

I'm fallin' again

"Aww it's okay to discuss about your awesome and handsome boyfriend," I said bopping her nose to which Vanya responded with an adorable annoyed look, "It's all good things, I suppose?"

I'm fallin' again

Shaking her head with an amused smile, she pressed a kiss to my cheek, "Ofcourse, Black."

I'm fallin'

"Aargh! This PDA is killing me I swear!" Eshia, Vanya's closest friend, exclaimed as she dramatically put the back of her wrist on her forehead to prove her point.

I chuckled at her response and Vanya rolled her eyes and muttered, "Oh and on a completely unrelated note, how's Longbottom doing, Eshia?"

"Longbottom is just a friend, Walters." Clearly taken aback by the teasing words, her friend mock-narrowed her eyes at Vanya, "And anyway, now we'll go and won't bother you with our existence anymore."

"What the drama queen means is," the third girl said elbowing Eshia in the ribs, "that we'll leave now. You guys have fun."

The three girls headed towards Honeydukes and as they left, Nadia called back with a warning, "But not too much fun, Black."

I did a mock salute at her and then extended an arm to my beautiful girlfriend, "Shall we get going to The Three Broomsticks, madame ?" I said in a French accent making her giggle. The Three Broomsticks had become our weekly date place without us even realizing it.

She took a hold of my hand and replied, "Ofcourse, monsieur!"

All that.. was gone.

Her words kept echoing in my head:

"I care about you but it's quiet clear you don't. I love you. I always have-"

You said you cared
And you loved me, too

I exhaled a wisp of smoke trying to forget all that was gone because of a stupid mistake.

And I'm well aware I think too many thoughts about you..

I don't think I could ever go to The Three Broomsticks without her beside me laughing at my lame jokes.

And the coffee's out
At The Three Broomsticks

"Please give me a second chance-"

"Goodbye, Black."

And it kills me 'cause I know we've run out of things we can say..

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Vanya POV

Sirius was laughing along with marauders across the hall at the Gryffindor table. Propping up my elbows on the table, I rested my face in my hands.

What am I now?

This was stupid. Here I was staring at my cheater of an ex trying to deny any feelings that lingered for him instead of having a blast playing charades like the rest of the 'puffs at breakfast. I had my own friends. I didn't need him.

What am I now?

Letting out a sigh, I turned towards Nadia and plastered on a fake smile.

"Who's turn is it, now?" I asked faking cheer.

Faking cheer? When did my jolly self get run over by a truck? Gosh, did am I really being this sad over someone who cheated on me?? Since, when did I become so emotional and pathetic?

What if I'm someone I don't want around?

"We stopped playing fifteen minutes ago, Vee." Nadia knitted her eyebrows together and gave me an odd look, "Are you okay? Who do I need to murder this time?"

I chuckled lightly at her response. "No one, Dia." I said while shaking my head. I looked back at Sirius.

I'm fallin' again

Honestly, as satisfying murdering Sirius sounded, I knew I wouldn't be able to live without his constant lame jokes and flirting. Shoot. I was doing it agai-

I'm fallin' again

"Vanya Procyon Walters!" Eshia shouted out just loud enough for half of the Hufflepuff table to hear. I snapped my head towards her at the sound of my full name, "Listen to me right now. If you look at that idiot of a guy again, I'll personally hex you into the next year!"

"Okay." I looked down. In all honesty, I was ashamed of myself. Why did I care so much about him when he clearly didn't even give a shit about me?

I'm fallin'

Nadia lifted my chin to make us look eye to eye and whispered, "Vans, you aren't being yourself anymore. I think it's time that you move on."

Eshia, on the other side of me, gave my hand a small squeeze, "Really. You do need to move on."

This was getting dramatic and a bit silly now. And all for some stupid guy. Well, at least I had the support of my friends with me.

"Oh my gosh! You guys are awesome, really..!" I exclaimed with a chuckle.

"We know." Came the reply in unison. And we laughed and embraced each other in a tight group hug.

Nadia interrupted the laughter abruptly, "You know what you need, Vanya? A blind date!"

- -

I'm late.

I'm late..

I'm late!!

Again.

I rushed through the hallway, clutching my books to my chest. Gosh, History of Magic was definitely not my best subject. And Professor Binns would be sure to turn me into a ghost if I don't even bother to arrive on time.

Walking as fast as I could, I inevitably crashed into someone spilling my books on the floor. The girl helped me gather them quickly and I was so thankful considering that I was the one who crashed into her.

I looked up with a cheeky smile to thank her until my smile dropped instantly.

Primrose.

What if I'm down?

"Hey.. hi?" She began nervously as we both stood up and brushed the dirt off our skirts, "Listen! Before you get mad at me, I just want you to know that we definitely didn't do anything serious. Pun not intended, ofcourse. We were both drunk and I have no idea what I was thinking to kiss a taken guy. And I'm extremely sorry. I mean it, really."

I composed myself and exhaled. There was no need to be angry at her, obviously. Giving her a polite smile, I replied, "Hey.. there's no need to be sorry. You weren't the one in a relationship anyway. It's alright. It isn't your fault."

"I- It's just that the Gryffindor commonroom hasn't been the same after you both broke up. It's been a month and there's barely any pranking pulled by Sirius. It's like he's broken or something. I just.. I'm sorry I didn't mean for this to happen."

"It's okay, Primrose." I clenched my teeth behind my smile. As if it was possible to break Sirius. He's probably just returned to his old playboy self or something. "Now if you'll excuse me, I have a class to attend."

What if I'm out?

She nodded and before she had the chance to say something else, I dashed to the to the end of the hallway and entered the classroom.

"I- I'm so sorry for being late, professor! It won't happen again!"

"That's the third time this month, Ms. Walters." Said Binns with a sigh. Wait, can ghosts sigh? "Go take your seat and we'll start with the lesson."

Nodding, I took my usual seat at the back of the classroom.

I took a look around the classroom in order to see what materials needed to be on the desk and what not. I cursed my eyes as the first thing I saw was Sirius talking to Becca Mitchel. Were they a thing now? I thought Remus liked her, though.

What if I'm someone you won't talk about?

Before returning to his desk, Sirius leaned over and whispered something in her ear. She let out a chuckle and the grip around my book's tightened.

"Class, so today we'll be covering history of simple spells. We'll be starting with Leviosa or the lifting spell. Open your books, please."

Right. Studying. Yay?

I opened my book but couldn't help but to stare at Sirius who sat two benches in front of me.

I'm fallin' again

I kept my arms on the desk in cross-cross and rested my chin on them. What did I even feel for the boy anymore?

I'm fallin' again

One thing was sure. I still loved him.

I'm fallin'

A lot.

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3072 words? Wowzers.

Don't worry guys, I know I haven't competed the song yet and I will in the next part. My exams are coming soon there would be very slow updates for the next two months. Aaarrgh I have to study for a nine chapters of a history exam on my own birthday..!!

Anyways, hope you enjoyed the chapter and don't forget to vote and comment. Plus my messages are always open if you want to just talk or fangirl/fanboy about Sirius.

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