I could here a annoying beeping sound. That's all. Oh and someone breathing on the other side of me.

I wanted to die. In peace I really didn't want to put up with this horrible life I was living. If I did survive I would just shut down all my emotions. I'm planning on not talking to anyone.

I plan on rotting until I'm on my death bed. Simple as that. I felt like my body was stiff. I struggled to open my eyes and when I did I groaned. Xavier jumped up from his chair and kept saying how he loved me.

If he loved me wouldn't he have not hurt me? I looked him in his eyes and looked down. I had to do everything to stop tears from streaming down.

My leg was in a split and I had something that went around my back and chest. It was hard to breathe when I thought of it.

All this was just to much for me. It reminded me of how this mess started because of my parents.

Mommy and daddy said we were going on a twrip to a fun place, I cheered. We stood in the woods and a van pulled up. My five year old self stood in confusion. My daddy handed over a wad of cash and the two scary men came and lifted me up carrying my little body that was putting up a fight to get away i looked up and saw my parents gone. I Was thrown in the van were one of the men drove and the other beat me until I lost conscious. 

This repeated in my mind before Xavier tapped me causing me to jump. I'm just shook because of everything thats been happening.

I rather die than live this life like I said.
Maybe that's a good idea just maybe.

Soo soo sorry I haven't been updating. I will be ending this book in two chapters sorry ! Thanks for reading