I'm gonna start going to a therapist. For my friends. I'm only doing it for them. I guess I'm kinda doing it for my fans as well, even though I'm guessing most of them have left by now. I haven't updated anything for them in so long. I don't want them to see me like this, I don't want to worry them. They're so loving and it would break their hearts to see me like his. I've been so selfish lately. Not once have I thought about their feelings. Fuck. I'm a fuck up. I break people's heart. I hate myself. Everyone should hate me. Why don't them?