Ryan and Matt came and visited me today. They said that they didn't understand why I did it. I just shaked my head, and then changed subject. I really don't want them to know. It's not their fault, they can't do anything about it. I think my mom is going to come here tomorrow, but I really don't want to face her. I let her down, I'm a disappointment. Also - a couple of people commented on my last post saying that Jack probably did that because he cares about me. I don't know. He probably did it for Felix or something, because he would get really sad if I died. Felix will probably also come visit me tomorrow or something. We'll see. Bye guys.