Your memories still haunt me

We didn't chat much

Yet I don't know who were you in my life

I don't know what special connection I had with you

That I yet have this numbness inside me

Don't know why but I still miss you ever single day

And just pray to god

" please kill me, take me away but bring her back

She deserves to live and I deserve hell

Take me away god but bring her back"

I can't see your best friend like this

She remembers you ever day

Even if she doesn't tell me I know that she misses you deadly

Your dreams haunt me

And just gives me one thought

" was I the one to kill you ?

If I would have not come to your life would you be alive today ?

Am I to be blamed for the reason that you are in heven today ?"

Oh didi please answer

And not just answer come back also

God please snatch me away if I am to be blamed for didi's death

I was born with bad faith not she
Her intensions were good

I was born with bad faith

I was a curse for her life

So take me away, punish me

But bring her back