From:  Ga 1200

To: X-relief. 
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Time of delivery: 1:08am

Dear Lavender,

This is my first time writing here, the reason why I am saying that is because I don't think its my last. I hope you don't get tired of me, most people do. And I haven't stopped wondering why.

You said to write how we feel, so here's what how i feel. I feel that am a very boring person, that's why I have little friends, actually the only friend I have is my  electronic guitar. I used to have friends but I guess we drifted apart due to my boringness, and before you tag this as over thinking, I want to tell you that I have had up to fifteen friends and I lost everyone of them, in the literal sense. We are not enemies,  merely acquaintance.

Any friendship that formed, and eventually  led to a clique remained, they are still friends with each other, maybe best friends now, I am the only person who isn't a friend to all of them, I am the only person who was literally or subtly  kicked out of the clique.

It seems that every friendship I struggled to keep, by breaking my own personal boundaries or just been a general people or friend pleaser as the case maybe, did not last.

Even the ones I didn't break anything for, did not last. I completely frustrated by it, I know its good to be your own person, and I also have my family but I still want to have friends. I miss some of them alot.

I wish, that I get good friends and stop been boring.

                             . Alvida. Bless you.

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From: Dn 1205

To: X-relief. 
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Time of delivery: 9:58pm

I HATE MONEY.

I hate the fact that I am very wealthy, don't get me wrong or consider me a spoilt and ungrateful brat, though most people do anyways. It's just that, my parents have so much money that nothing seems to matter except making more money. They are very caring and I can't say that I have lacked their presence or parental guidance.

When I say they want to make more money, I don't mean it in the give everything you have sense, No. What I mean is, my parents come from a rather poor background and I feel that even though they have a really successful company and well paying investments, they are afraid of losing all this money and returning to their not so favourable background.

I did not formulate this theory, they have repeated informed my younger siblings and i. Does it mean they haven't experienced loss?  No. They have, and they got back on their feet again. But that's the least of my concern.

My parents have a set pattern for me, it seems like they have a catalogue for everything that will happen in my life. They don't even  hesitate to tell me. I am suppose to head over the company (in approximately nine years), too bad am still in high school lol 😂. After high school, I would go on to a high standard university more standard than my current high school,  if you get me. When I am through I am going to have an exclusive one year to work in the company, that is excluding all my summer break internships, summer break just-go-to-the-company, excluding all the time I will supposedly come back from the university and spend my breaks going to office with my dad and uncle.

After my exclusive one year, I would ascend the TPOH 😩. And I must tell you, I don't like it one bit. I want to be a scientist not a businessman, I appreciate business but its not just my thing.
My parents are kind, they are generous and everything but understanding, they can't understand that their son has no intention to run a company.

I love everything science and I want to major in physics not business,  and currently,  and in nine years to come,  I can't do anything about it.

I want to wish that we go broke but I can't do that, my parents hold their achievements dear and i know how much they care about the people working for them, I know how much they dislike their poor beginning. And I can't bare to see them unhappy. They worry too much about their children's  well beings than for me to wish for more burden like going broke.

My parents have my life so planned out that I wouldn't even be surprised if they know when I will die. I just hope that they know I want to die as a scientist not a business mogul.

Here's my wish, I wish that my parents finally understand me, and we all end up happy. Because I don't mind taking up business after studying physics in uni. I really don't mind.

Lmao 😂😂 even I know how unrealistic and funny my wish is.

            Yours aspiring scientist and business mogul.
                                         Donovan.

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