From: DI 1368

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Time of delivery: 2:39pm

Hey Lavender 😘

I actually have a story to tell and a question to ask, and I really want you to answer 😭😭.  So I have a friend and I really like her, and no, I am straight. She's just this person I met in which I really liked her vibe and all that. We met in school and we have been friends for two years. The thing is, I overthink, I seriously can't help it, I like to second guess actions and even scenarios. A lot of my friends and best friends  when I was growing up have become acquaintances. But I really appreciate this one, and I don't want to force it but I want us to be just like we started.

So my friend calls me all the time, its a normal thing I guess. We would just call each other with nothing to say and just end up laughing 😁😁😁, and I liked it and that was the first year of our friendship, most of my friends don't call like that and I admit I do not either, but when I met her and she was like that, I actually recipocrated and we were cool. Fast forward to a some months after, we are still in school and its like something is wrong. We have so many mutual friends and nothing seemed wrong. We don't call as much as we do and somehow that translate to talking less with each other.

I dont know about you, but I like when I send a message maybe on WhatsApp or any app and the person replies. I also like it when people are online and they reply to messages not the other way round. Sometimes I text my friends and it seems like she has to take ages to reply while she's online she can literally take thirty five minutes to two hours to reply a message.

Sometimes when I call my friend during the holidays too, I feel like she mutes me. We could be talking and I won't hear her replies, I don't want to overthink it, but I am sure that service or network doesn't fuck things up four to five times.

If I call her, both in schools and during holiday she doesn't call back. One time she wasn't online for days (we live in different places)  and I called her, it rang up to five times before she picked and when she picked she didn't sound like she was happy to hear me, I don't want to believe she cut the call but it ended. I called her close to nine times after that call and she didn't bother to return it.

I have related to our other friend, we are super close, and she says to relax. I also want to do so, because I barely know what she is going through. Fast forward  to after another school term and we are on holidays and nothing has changed.

I decide to return her energy to her, and we didn't even talk for months, I even deleted her number, no hard feelings because I didn't want to appear desperate and call her only to get the same response and I didn't want to hold a grudge against her. But she communicates with other person just cool and fine, and I know my friend and I know that nothing is wrong so maybe she finds me unfriendable or doesn't see any value in our friendship.

Yay to me 🙌🙌🙌 I lost another friend!!!  I thought she wouldn't call me but she called on my birthday and we talked though not for long and she promised to call back later  and she  didn't. I called her anyways and we barely talked when I ran out of airtime and she did not call back.

Lmao 😞😞😞 I remember one time when I called her up to twenty times I am not exaggerating,  and she did not call back, I thought every relationship in this world were based on mutuality, mutual effort and appreciation. I don't  want to repeat my past mistakes and just think my friends are tired or avoiding me, but it seems I have done more than enough.

Its strange how we didn't have any issues and things are ending in this manner. I saved her number again after my birthday call and we still on an extended break and I messaged her, its been days now and she didn't reply. I don't want to sound demanding but she didn't post me on her status for any birthday but here's another one of our friends whose birthday is just two days after mine and she had something to say.

I am actually tired of all this, I just want to be there for my friends and also have their backs I don't want to look like a fool or appear desperate. So I should delete her number and just accept that she doesn't want my friendship or return her energy?

I don't think I can do that same energy thing, I feels like I am holding back on the love I can give to person just because I want to do some same energy shit.

I really don't have a wish, but I wish that I have a friend who appreciates my person and also shares a mutuality in everything because I am tired of trying not to over think and feeling down. I don't think I deserve it. You all should appreciate and be there for your friends. Cheers to friendship.

Also before I got, I felt like she blocked me and one day after so many trials she picked and I told her, she claimed that I still had my attitude and here's what I know, I have been a really closed up person but this years I have tired to appreciate and encourage people around and I am not kidding anyone, I don't have an attitude problem. But isn't it sad, that my friend thinks like that 😥😥😥😩😩😧😧😧.

What do you think I should do, because I have said hello, a thousand times.

         Your resident over thinker.
          Demitri, though I like Demi 😳😳😳 more.

I also like demi Lavato!!!!!

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From: XN 1399

To: X-relief. 
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Time of delivery: 5:00pm

My name is Xin, and I just wanted to know who your favorite character in money heist is. My friend thinks the movie is dumb, but I know he's just trying to act cool by saying things, about what is trending. My top two favorites are Helsinki and Marcelo. And I find her okay, but Nairobi just isn't my person. And Berlin is borderline crazy. I just like the professor, like damn are you an AI or a new Einstein?

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