The car ride home was quiet between Alex an I, but I didn't mind .

I never had anything to say to him anyways.

The look on his face was emotionless, he didn't have any blood on his body nor was his face bruised.

Did he let Demetri go?

Ha! Of course he wouldn't do that. This is Alexander we're talking about .

He clearly told Demetri he would kill him if he was ever caught with me again.

And I believe him, but nevertheless I can't go around saying that he hasn't killed Demetri.

For all I know he might have gotten one of his boys to do it, or even Massimo.

***

When I got home I took a shower and went to the living room to watch TV.

All the worst shows possible was on every station at this hour.

I didn't even know when I fell asleep, but I was woken up the next morning by my cell phone ringing.

I sprung up off the couch and a huge headache took over

Fuck! 

Frowning, I searched for my phone which I found on the floor near the couch.

It was an unknown number.

Should I even answer?

It might be Alex calling me from someone else's phone for all I know.

" Hello" my voice came out cracked and dry.

" Sorry, did I wake you up?"

It was Demetri.

I was surprised he called. I thought Alex killed him that night.

" How did you get my number?" I asked ignoring his question

A sigh came over him as I adjusted myself  on the couch

My back hurts.

This is why people don't fall asleep in their couches

" I have ways" he repiled

Maybe I should ask if he's okay, I'm sure Alex didn't leave him untouched

" Oh, well then, are you okay, did you get hurt?"

" Why don't we meet up today and I'll tell you how I feel"

" I can't" I sighed

It got quiet between us when I refused his offer, but I could still hear people talking in his background.

" Why not?" He questioned

I could imagine the face he had right now

I looked around my house and sighed once more , I needed to think of a valid excuse not to meet with him.

It was bad enough what Alex saw yesterday and if he sees me with him again, he might just shoot me with him

" It's Sunday so I have to clean my apartment" I lied

My house was spotless

" Well then maybe I could come to your place then"

Does he really want to meet me this badly? Why does he keep finding solutions to my problems?

"Well.. um...you can't b-because I..  don't know how to give directions, y-you might get lost"

I heard him laugh over the phone, and so did some people in his background. Maybe he had me on speaker phone.

" Don't worry,I'm already outside the penthouse"

" W-what" I stuttered getting up from my couch

"Look outside your window" he told me

I immediately got up and slightly moved my curtain looking down at the street below. To my surprise he was looking up at my window

He waved when he saw my curtain move, but I'm sure he couldn't see my face since I'm so high up

" You really have a plan for everything huh?" I scoffed walking away from my window

" Maybe , maybe not" he repiled.

I could imagine the nasty smirk he had on his face.

Maybe Alex should have killed him. I wouldn't have to deal with this 

"Fine you can come see me" I told him and hang up the phone

Sighing I took up the service phone and told the clerk at the front desk to send him up to me.

Immediately after I rushed to the bathroom to brush my teeth and wash my face

I changed out of my night clothes and into something more suitable whilst  catching my hair in a messy bun

My door bell rang just in time.  I walked over to it opening the door

" Geeze" I frowned looking at his swollen face " he really did a number on you huh"

Smiling he walked in and took off his jacket placing it on the couch

" Yeah, well it was nothing I couldn't resolve" he repiled

He then started to look around my apartment with his hand in his pockets

" Yikes! Your house really is a mess"

How dare he? I should ask him right now to scan the floor to find a spec of dirt

" And you have bad taste in furniture too" he continued scanning my apartment

I folded my arm and watch him walk around looking at everything there is to look at

" What the hell is this, a fucking cancer cell" he scoffed pointing at my wall painting

" I didn't bring you here to be a critic of my home"

" Clearly not" he frowned walking back over to me " you would have gotten a negative number as a rating "

" For a guy who has a fucked up face, you talk alot" I mumbled unfolding my arms

He chuckled at my statement.

I'm tired of all these men laughing at me when I talk.

" Never the less your house looks clean" he smiled " which means you lied to me "

" I didn't lie, I just didn't tell you the truth"

" That's the sam thing as lying Elizabeth" he smiled " you could of just told me you didn't want to hang"

" Yeah,but would you have listened if I did?" I scoffed folding my arms

" No, but it was better than lying to me "

Staying silent I walked off towards the kitchen to make myself something to eat.

As expected he followed behind me .

I got some eggs from out of the fridge and  started to prepare them with some toast and coffee

My door bell rang and I looked up and Demetri.

A bet it's Alex. He always seems to show up whenever I'm with Demetri.

Like some magnet.

" Expecting someone?" He asked walking out of the kitchen towards the hallway

I followed behind him watching him go towards the door.

He opened the door and to my surprise it was Mona

" I made a mistake " I sighed laying down on a leather couch with my hands on my chest like a dead person " I fucking kneeled Infront of her and told her that I'll do whatever she wants me to do ,you should've seen her face. "

" It this the same girl you've been metioning ? The one your brother kidnapped "

" Yeah, she's back now and I can't control myself around her " I repiled
" I tried being mean to her when we first met, as you told me to do,but she still spoke to me"

" When did this happen? When did you show her your real personality "

" A few days ago, she was with some random guy and I got angry. I thought she was seeing him behind my back "

" Mhm" she responded

When she responds like that I know she's writing down information

" So you got angry and kneeled Infront of her?" She questioned

Her voice seemed concerned over me. Like she wanted to see only good things happening to me, but how could it, when.. when I'm obsessed with some girl who's not even my type .

" No, I told her mean things to make her stop seeing him. But when I saw her face I switched" I repiled " now she can't even looked me in the eyes anymore"

" What made you do it, what made you switch so suddenly? I'm sure it wasn't her face"

She was right. It wasn't her face at the time. It was something else.

Something I've been avoiding to think about.

" I thought I was going to I loose her to that guy. I thought maybe I wouldn't be the one she goes to anymore when she has problems with Alex" I confessed

She went silent after that.

for a while I could hear my own heart beat speeding up the more she scribbled in her note book

" I see. So what was her reaction after she saw that side of you?"

" She seemed frightened, like I was a ghost. She must be thinking why would one of the Costello brothers kneel Infront of her like that "

" I'm sure she thought that same thing too" she exhaled and started writing in her hook again " besides that what else happened in your week"

" Well, my sister came back into town" I sighed

" Well That's good Mr Costello. Family time is good for you"  she sounded cheerful,

"I fucking hate that bitch" I scoffed

" And why is that?"  Her voice got back gloomy and concerned

" Well she told Alex that I was screwing Elizabeth and now he won't talk to me"

" Interesting, and why would she get that idea?"

" Well,at the time of me kneeling to Elizabeth she was in the building having sex with an assistant" I explained" so I guess she thought I was doing the same with Elizabeth "

"And how does that make you feel?" She questioned again

By that time I knew she was no longer looking at me as I spoke, the writing sounds became more frequent and intense I as told her my problems

" Like a failure. even tho he took her from me I still want him to be proud of his little brother you know"

I then got up from my laying position and looked my therapist in the face.  Even tho she told me it was better to to not make eye contact

She says it makes her nervous considering I'm in the mafia and I have a gun in her office

" Somethings I want to kill her" I confessed

It was a truth that I hid as a lie for the longest while,  because I didn't want to believe that was how I felt. 

" Who? Elizabeth "

" Yeah and Justin and my father  and maria " I repiled " I get the urge to kill anyone that gets in-between the relationship of Alex and I, even if he's the problem I want to kill him to make our relationship better"

" But you can't kill him, if you do he'll be gone and you'll be empty again"

" Exactly. And I can't kill her because he loves her even tho he doesn't show it". I sighed

My therapist was the only one who knows about this part of me, I express my feelings to her because she's the only one who's not going to judge me for it.

The timer went off and she closed her note book

" We'll continue this next week" she smiled getting up to walk me out

I got up from the couch and left.

we both walked to the elevator

She presed the button to the first floor and we both waited for the door to open.

" I'll see you next week Mr Costello" she smiled when the elevator door opened

I only nod and got inside and waited for it to close

All I could think about was how I'm going to kill her when I'm done using her for moral support. She knows too much about me.