⚠️TRIGGER WARNING- contains abuse, violence, self-harm, animal abuse, depression.⚠️

don't say i didn't warn ya, so dont try to sue me either.

The next day

7AM

Hitoshi's pov

"Why can't you be like your brother? He has perfect grades, and actually has a life. He's already getting scholarships, and you? You're already about to fail math." my dad yells at me after hitting me with a belt. "You know where he's at right now? Out. Not at a party, not hooking up with some rich kid, but out at student council- a group for intelligent people. Intelligent people like him. But of course, you just HAD to be the opposite. Your mother and I feed and clothe you, HAVE RUNNING WATER for you, only for you to pay US back with this crap!" with every word, screamed and laced with disgust, anger and bitterness, the slap of his leather belt hit against my skin harder as Momo barked at him, biting at his pants. He eventually hit her with the belt and she bit his leg. I leap up and grab the belt from him.

My mom was disappointed in the grade I brought back the other day, it was not good enough. The only thing they was "proud" or happy about was when they found out Antonio and I were friends. I got shoved out of the house landing face first onto the porch, my book bag thrown at me and the door slammed behind me. Blood fell from my nose onto the steps, I grabbed my book bag and painfully got up to get to my car, Momo quickly follows me through the doggy door, whining while getting in the car with me. "I'm going to school you know. You're wanting to go out and about again?" I click on my seat belt, groaning to myself.

By the time I pulled in my parking spot and put it in park, I lie back in the seat, taking a deep breath and letting it go. Then rolling my window down, while digging through my back pack and taking out my pack of cigarettes and lighter. I couldn't light the dang thing without Momo grabbing the lighter out of my hand. "Dang it! Give it back! I could've had it lit and you would've burned yourself!" I look at her, "Put it down. Now." she looks away from me. Good thing I have another in my back pack, I take out a bowl. So glad I made her breakfast beforehand. I put it down on the floorboard so she could eat. At least that will distract her. I take out my pocket knife, taking off my school uniform jacket to reveal my arms, wrapped with white bandages. I unraveled the bandages, as the air got to my scar covered arm, some of the cuts were healing, already healed or scarred or some were recent, with fresh ones to be added now. I have about 30 minutes, I have plenty of time. 

After I finished....

I grab the bandage roll from my back pack to bandage my arm back up and roll the sleeve of my uniform jacket back down. I make sure to slip on Momo's vest on her and let her out. She likes to roam around on the school grounds or somewhere nearby.

I got out and went in the building said hey to some of my friends and others while some hurried to get out of my way. I kept my eyes down on the floor. "Hitoshi what happened to you? You okay?" one of my friends asked me, "I'm fine. I'll see you later" I mumble. Some guy was in my way so I shoved him off to the side. I went straight to class though it wouldn't start in another 20 minutes.

I painfully  sat down in my desk in the empty classroom. I didn't want anyone to see me, not like this. I just got beat to a pulp by my dad again, I'm supposed to be tough, that's what everyone saw me as- the Japanese guy you didn't wanna mess with. As soon as Antonio and I began hanging out, everyone was surprised how we got along because we didn't like each other at first.

Now it's just going around that we're...dating. I don't hear it as much because most are afraid to say it around me. About 5 minutes later of me holding tissue up my nose, I hear someone walk in. I turned my head the other way. No, not now! The familiar gentle voice filled the room "Hitoshi?" why do you care about me so much? Just leave me alone.

"I...someone told me they seen you come up here and you didn't look okay. I just wanted to check on you that's all. But if you want to be left alone then I can go if you want"

"N-no, stay here" I says, getting embarrassed by my slight stutter. I hear him put his book bag down and walk up to me, "Can't you at least look at me? Are you mad at me or something?"

"No it's not that. It's more of a family issue" "Oh...I'm sorry to hear that-" I just grabbed him and hugged him by surprise.

He hugs me back, I loosen some of my grip "Sorry I forgot about last night"

"You're fine" he says and let's go looking at me worried still.

"Hitoshi, who did this to you?"

"I said it's nothing! You can't do anything about it anyway, so just stay out of it" I say a bit rather coldly.

"I'm just worried about you-"

"I don't need you to worry about me! Why do you have to care about me so much? You probably just think I'm some douche that just wants to take advantage of you so just go away!" I yell.

"I never thought of you like that Hitoshi! Whoever said that, they're wrong!"

"They're right. You have perfect grades perfect family, perfect hair perfect everything! Just go!" I yell.

"I'm not leaving!" he yells back.

I stand up to him and grab him by the collar of his hoodie, the same intense look I gave him he was giving to me back. "I said I'm not leaving Hitoshi" he lowers his voice, despite it not being so gentle now. Our faces were so close our lips almost touched. I let go of him roughly and storm out of the room. Apparently around the corner not too far from the classroom a group of classmates were talking but really just listening to what had just happened.

Antonio's POV

I stood there, I didn't know whether to stay in class or run after him. I thought about it and decided to stay.  I didn't want him to be more upset. Whatever is going on, I hope things get better for him.

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7:30PM

Soccer game

Despite the cheers, I had other things on my mind. "Antonio, can't you be the least bit happy? We just won state! Everyone has their eyes on you!"

"Yeah....I'm just not feeling great"

"You might if you come to the party tonight lots of people gonna be there" "I'm not going" "Hitoshi told me he's gonna be there"

"....I don't know" "Dude I'm not just saying it just to be saying it. He told me. Antonio I'm not one to lie you know that"

"I know, it's just that we kinda got in an argument earlier today, pretty sure you know already" "Yeah I heard." "He told me not to tell you actually. But I know you're his best friend. Just don't say I told you" "You have my word"

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The party

8PM

I arrived to the party an hour ago. My bruises healed so I could wear my outfits again. Jeans, Jordan's, and my green yellow and white varsity jacket to cover up my white crop top and belly button piercing. I had my hair pulled up too. I was simply sitting on a sofa in a corner while everyone else was making the place hot. Someone sits beside me and rests their head on my shoulder, I almost shoved them off until I saw it was...Hitoshi. "Why are you here?" he slurs out. Ugh he's drunk again. I can barely pick him up but of course, he can pick me up just as easily.
"I came here because I knew you'd do something stupid" I say plainly.

"I thought you were mad at me, I'm sorry about earlier I'm just a big jerk"

"There's no reason for me to be mad at you. Come on I can take you home" "I'm not going home, they won't let me back in" he hiccups.

"Your parents kicked you out again?"

"Yeah my dad did this morning. He'll- he will let me back in tomorrow." "Well then you can sleep over, come on" I say. "Noooo" "Do you have somewhere else to stay?" "No- I can't stay at your place everyday" he slurs. "Shut up, we'll talk about it later"

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By the time I got home, my mom was doing work in her office on the phone and dad is at work. I help him up the stairs as best as I could. I carried him on my back to my room and close the door with my foot. "Mom I'm going to bed, I brought Hitoshi here!" I yell out, hiding the struggle and strain in my voice from carrying a 200 pound 6'5 guy. "Alright then, good night, tell your friend I said good night too." I hear her.

I struggle to my bed, just a few more steps. I make it and had to get in the bed to drag Hitoshi in "Why do you have to be so heavy man?! Aah-" I get pushed down by his weight, resulting in me being pinned down by my friend.

I can barely move now "Hitoshi get off" I curse in Italian to myself. The more I moved the more awkward it got, especially by the position we were in. His head resting on my bare shoulder, his warm, alcohol-tainted breath dancing on my skin. The flush of drunken red on his cheeks, he's basically between my legs snoozing it off. I just lie there on the bed, staring at his face. I would go to sleep like this but I don't wanna get crushed. I manage to flip Hitoshi over beside me, the rush of air on my body felt great yet chilling at the same time; like cool air after you get out of a shower. I doze off and go to sleep.

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We have a new classmate coming in and she's from Italy huhu

🍄Antonio has his own car, which is a blue Porsche.

🍄Hitoshi is 235 pounds, most of it from muscle!