Dying Inside

A dark blue haired teen stands outside of a to colorful door which seems to make the room darker for some reason thinking to himself

Im dying inside with no one noticing.

Now i bet you all are wondering why.

Why would no one notice someone dying inside?

Answer?
Simple.

No one cares to look.

The teen opens the door with shakey hands and as the people inside the room look at him, his true self hides away to reveil an open, overly energic and hyper teen.

Now you may have figured this out but this teen's name is Rin Okurmra.

The teacher comes in as Rin sits down on the far back corner of the room. Away from the supposed friends he has. Oh wait. Had.

"Hey. Shima. Bon. Why is the demon here? Shouldn't it have died by now?" a small, bald headed teen says to his pink haired friend Shima and his other friend. Oh wait. He is more like the leader of the trio, Bon(AKA Ryugi).

Rin however, could hear all the words they were saying. No matter how much they try to push him away, they rely on him to lift their spirits up with his supposed stupid remarks or to help keep the group together in a time of fighting or need like with the camping trip or the impure king.

The teacher, who has light teal eyes and brownish hair, Yukio Okurmra, ignores the remarks of his students about his supposed twin brother and keeps the lesson going.

*BRRRIIIINNG!!!*

The bell to end the day sounds and Rin bolts away from the room only to be held back by the back of his shirt collor, choking him without the one holding him caring, he says,"We have a new mission. Its supposed to be an easy one this time. So pack for a week but plan for a month. Tomorrow we set off at first light."

Then, the trio leaves with Rin standing on to much shock to notice the remarks on his apperence. A girl, bout few inches smaller than he appears to be, Shimei, goes up to him and straight past him without seemingly seeing him.

The only other female classmate of his with hair in twin pony tails of a nice purple shade stalks past like a fox following its prey, Izumo.

'Why would they notice me? Why do they seem to care about me? Would it matter at all if i were to disappear?'

Are some of the thoughts flowing through his frantic mind as he walks towards a building.

Its old. Run down. But not the old boys' dorm. 

No. He moved out of there and into this building where a small village of low level, peace loving, demons live. He made the village from the ground up, and he continues to make it bigger. Should he call for it, They would fight for him. He doesnt want that though.

"No More."

Are the thoughts of his and all the others with him. Every day. For nurmerous reasons.

We are all "Dying Inside"

A sensation of tingles comes from Rin's arms. Calling him. Wanting to be heard. Wanting to be answered.

Today, Rin answers yes.

He goes into his large bathroom where the tub is roughly 6ftx61/2ft and 2-3ft deep. His old friend lays resting in its hiding hole where Rin pulls it out. Its a gleaming, polished, 5in knife. Hand made in a borrowed forge with a blade desgin like a hunter's dowie and its handguard a celtic symbol of life with the handle made with a beutiful dark oak and hidden tang.

He fills the tub with hot water which relaxs his muscles. That will help with his next action.

He takes his old friend in his right hand and moves it over to his left arm and slices slowly in a perfect horizontal line. He moves like that three more times and moves to his right arm.

The feeling of letting go is overwhelmingly releasing and releiving. He relects back to the hidden memories written in a hidden dairy in the old boy's dorm.

Flashback

'Why must i live?'

Were the thoughts of a small, 4 year old boy with a deep, sasphare blue eye color and shimmering blue hair in the middle of the night in the bathroom.

*Knock*

*Knock*

"Rin? You ok in there?"

Were the words of an old man. He was the one who raised the child and his twin.

"I-im do-doing ok d-dad." The child said, his words wavwring as his bleeding arm leaks the life line of the small boy onto the floor.

"Rin? why is the smell of blood comin-"

He cuts himself off relizing what is happening.

"Rin. Could you please open the door for me?"

The tone soothing and kind.

The door, being unlocked, opens to reveal the old man, Shiro, and seeing the poor, crying, bleeding blue eyed boy, Shiro runs to him, ignoring the blood staining his shirt, and the caretaker hears these faint words, "I dont wanna die dad. I dont wanna di-" the boy passes out and Shiro picks him up fully and just runs out of the monostairy.

He makes it barely to the emergincy room where doctors and nurses rush up and take the fraigle child to the surgery room. Shiro takes a seat in the waiting room, covered in the fresh, crimson blood that flowed from his surrogute son.

He gets called back, with a coat on as one of the others brought it to him, the old pastor is frozen in mid step going into the child's room.

IVs attached to the boy's left arm. Blood bag in his right. Heart monitor placed on the left side of the bed and an oxygen machine and mask covering his face. Those shinning blue eyes closed. Skin paper white.

"You mangeged to just barely save his life sir." The doctor's voice cuts in.

"We were able to get his heart started once in the sergery. But he almost didnt make it through."

Shiro walks over to the chair in the room and moves it closer to the bedside where he sat. Proptly falling sleep leaning gently on the bed.

Flashback end

The water now fully tainted pink, Rin lets go of the relaity and its painful steps.

Death coming like falling asleep, his head sliding underwater.

The dairy is then found 3 days later. 2 Days after Rin died. The class then fell apart. The trio were arguing with eachother. Shemei was slowly sinking into the inky black. Izumo blaming herself for not helping when she noticed the changes in Rin's posture. Yukio locks himself in the old room he and his brother shared.

Slowly, the village left True Cross. No longer wanting to be around the people who caused their leader to pass on.

Slowly, but surely, they reliaze this.

Without Rin, They Are All Dying Inside.

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