Dear Evan,
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God this is so weird that I'm writing you a letter just after you left. I have no idea on what I'm gonna say.

The kiss was amazing? Well...it's not like I had much experience...*cough* none *cough*

But it was amazing.

I'll always remember it.

Hey, Evan? Remember the time we listened to See You Again together? Remember the time when a ray of sunshine pierced through the dark sky landing right in front of me?

You always think that I'm your ray of light, right?

Wrong.

You are my light too.

I had given up, you know. I thought that by leaving this world maybe I'll be doing my parents a favour. They won't have to cry every night or spend thousands of dollars on me every week. They could finally move on.

But you showed me all these dreams Evan. I'm selfish, yes. A lot. That's why I want to live those dreams with you. I don't want to go Evan.

I want to go to that date.

I want to listen to your recent favourite song.

I want read the new Dan Brown novel.

I want to go to prom.

I want to live in a house with a huge backyard and ten kids.

I want to do so many things, Evan.

I don't want to die.

Please.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry I'm such a coward Evan.

I'm afraid of dying.

I can't embrace death with open arms like those brave characters. I really want to live.

I don't want to go.

I don't want to leave.

But I know what kind of a bitch reality is.

So I'll ask you this instead Evan.

Will you forget?

Will you forget my smile? My kiss? My laugh? Myself?

Will you forget our little moments that'll always, always, always be precious to me?

As I said, Evan

I'm really selfish.

So I don't want you to forget.

That's why I'm leaving you this letter I guess. I told my mom to give it to you if.... you know....our date gets postponed? *insert smiley face*

I don't want to say it, Evan. I'm not saying good bye.

I'll say that I'll fight.

I'll fight for the dreams you showed me Evan. I'll fight for my goals. Hell I'll even fight for my unborn kids.

Just....remember me? Even if it's like a fading dream which you won't remember the whole day but just before you go to sleep?

When you close your eyes, after a long day of work, always remember that I'll kiss your forehead lightly.

When you bring a smile to someone else, always remember I'll be smiling at you standing by their side too.

When you become some big shot scientist (I know you're a closet nerd) always remember that I'll be clapping and jumping for you like a madwoman too.

I'm not leaving Evan.

I'm fighting.

-Rose Carly Winters.

I read the piece of worn out paper in my hand that was given to me once again and tucked it away in my pockets sighing like I had been doing for the last ten years.

The End