It feels like I'm killing myself just to be with you.

That all my feelings are just eating away at me and you're okay leaving me to die. 

You don't care about what I need, how I feel,

You're okay doing whatever you want. 

I'm scared that tomorrow when Diana talks to you,

You're going to change your mind about wanting to be with me.

But you also need to know that what you're doing isn't okay,

How you've been treating me is unacceptable.

I get that there are things I need to change,

I'm not perfect.

I know I've hurt you.

But at least I'm trying to make things better.

Are you?

Or are you comfortable where you're at,

Happy to do whatever you want,

At your own pace,

Knowing that you've also hurt me so much,

And being okay with it?

You've trampled all over my boundaries, 

And yet expect me to respect yours completely.

Dong and Sam seem on board with this call,

But my anxieties have been out of control,

Telling me constantly that everything is going to go wrong,

That there's nothing that can get better.

I want to have hope,

But you haven't shown me any reassurance,

Any comfort,

That things will get better.

How can I have hope when I see none?

Please show me that you're there for me,

Please show me that you want to get together,

Please show me that you're willing to change as I am,

Please show me that things will get better for once.

Or else this feels like romantic homicide;

That I'm doing all of this for nothing...