I think I am a bad person.

But I debate with myself, am I bad for wanting attention and affection?

When so much happened between us, 

Is it wrong for me to seek it out from someone else?

And why do I get hurt,

When that other person also doesn't give me what I want?

Am I selfish?

Narcissistic?

Or am I not lovable enough?

I don't know. 

It feels like I'm just making excuses for myself,

To make it sound like what I'm doing is okay.

I mean, it hasn't gone any further than just talking,

And I don't know if he feels the same way I'm feeling either. 

To be honest, I don't know what I feel.

I know I still love you,

But I'm still really hurt.