We're on week two of "no contact".

How I am still trying so hard to respect what you want,

Yet it feels like you're not trying to respect me.

It feels like you're happier without me,

That you're okay with the silence,

That you're okay being alone.

Yet here I am, still trying to fix what happened between us. 

I wish you could see and understand how hard I want us to work,

But it feels like you aren't trying at all.

Now I find myself doubting myself,

Thinking,

"Do I really want to get back together with you?"

When I am still wanting to talk,

And you not seeming like you want to?

Why don't you want to text me,

Why don't you want to talk to me,

Why don't you want to be with me?

It truly feels like you're happier without me.

And that hurts more deeply than anyone can ever know.