I feel really alone again.

That no one wants to put in the effort to be with me.

Whether it be a friendship or relationship,

It feels like I'm the only one trying.

And it hurts.

It hurts that I feel lonely.

But from what I keep hearing from everyone,

I'm not valid to feel this way or I'm making myself a victim;

There's nothing else for me to be.

 I just really want to die.

There's nothing else I want more.

You've shown me over and over again that I'm not worth putting effort in.

The texts that you've sent don't show that you care. 

My friends and your friends just treat me like garbage,

Letting me rot and not willing to be there.

You saying you want to get back together and not want to talk to me,

Makes me feel like you truly don't care how I feel in all of this.

That what you did is okay and I deserve to be treated like this.

I feel really alone again.

And I just want to die again.

No one wants me.

I don't even want me. 

I hate how you treat me.

I hate how they treat me.

And I hate how I treat myself.

How I offer myself up to everyone,

Just to feel accepted and loved.

And yet giving my all is still not enough.

I am never enough for anyone.

If giving everyone what they want isn't enough,

Then what is?

I want to cry,

But my eyes are tired.

I am tired.

I'm not good enough again.

I'll never be good enough.

I'm alone and I'll always be alone.

Again and again and again.