Chapter 3

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Melissa

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It was Saturday today. I hadn't slept last night on account of having no where to sleep.

Dad hadn't come home, not that I thought he would. He was going back to his old ways, and I feared our relationship would once again suffer for it.

I wasn't in the best of moods today, I was tired, and hungry. Not a good combination for a teenage girl.

I don't even bother showering or getting dressed. I stay in my oversized hoodie and my heart covered fluffy PJ pants.

My hair was a mess and I didn't much care and I probably looked like hell on earth.

I did brush my teeth though, I wasn't that lazy.

I was now back to sitting on the counter top and thinking.

Had my brothers told mom we were here? Is she angry? She's probably angry or upset...

We used to be so close, being the only girls in the house. She loved doing my hair for me in the morning, took me shopping on weekends, we would watched chick flicks in her room and now she doesn't want anything to do with me.

And she's not the only one.

I wanted to fix that, with my brothers at least but how could I do that if I didn't know what the problem was?

I have no clue what lies my mother fed them.

I'll just have to prove I'm not what my mother thinks I am.

But how? How do I prove it?

My thoughts were getting me no where.

I need a plan! I should have gotten Jake's number yesterday.

Then maybe we could have hung out, done something, got to know each other...

Okay fine I admit I miss my big brother and maybe even my annoying other brothers but not as much.

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That was how my morning was spent, thinking about my brothers.

Now it was 11:00 and I still hadn't eaten anything since I had that slice of cake yesterday, my tired state was starting to get too me and I was Bored out of my mind.

I was still laying on the counter top, in a star position in my PJ's

What has my life come too?

But doing nothing was better than what I used to do on Saturdays, and being alone was better than the company I used to keep.

My 'friends' back in my old town weren't my real friends, they were back stabbing, two timing, two faced Psychos who I hope to never have to encounter ever again.

What they did to me was unforgivable, what HE did to me was unforgivable.

I would never forget, never allow myself to forget. I learned too many valuable lessons to just forget it all ever happened.

I keep reminding myself "I am all I'll ever need" because truth was I was all I ever had.

No one else would stand up for me, fight for me, be there for me, I had to go in alone.

I envied my brothers, they were triplets, to them they were one, they did everything together, had each others back, stood up for the others.

I could only wish to have that, but in this world wishes don't come true.

The memories of what happened play over in my mind, like every other time I've been alone.

I want to cry, but I can't because somehow I deserved it. Or at least that's what I was told.

But the more the memories play, the more I realize that I was played. I was manipulated by lies, they got in my head and used my thoughts against me like a weapon.

I was so desperate to not be alone that I allowed them to do so.

And the sad thing is despite knowing my fear of loneliness caused all my troubles I still feel the need to rid myself of the feeling and make friends.

But maybe this time I can see the signs, stop myself from being used and abused.

I just wanted to feel loved, I still just want to feel loved.

Jeez, of all the times to remember this unicorn puddle of fudge I choose now.

I really need to get out, or get a dog.

A dog would be perfect company and maybe he/she could take the loneliness away.

Okay enough said, I'm getting a dog.

I have the backyard for it, and dads not around to notice I got one so I don't need to ask permission.

If he asks about the dog I'll say I'm dog sitting.

Its believable right?

Yeah, if you actually knew anyone in this town!

Oh gosh, not that cliché wattpad voice they call a subconscious.

Shoo, shoo!

I won't just go away because you said too!

Fine, you may stay. And it was worth a try.

I was brought back to reality by knocking, I immediately perk up.

Like a kid on Christmas I rush to the door hoping to see Jake, his the only one who would knock.

Swinging the door open I'm ready to jump on the person but stopped myself when I saw my neighbors.

My face fell and all I could say was "oh, its you"

The green eyed boy laughed, and I pouted.

"What's so funny?" I pout.

"You were hoping it was your brothers!" I glared. What was even funny about that?

He was right though.

"What do you want?" I ask, blankly.

Blue eyes was the one to answer "We're going to the mall with your brothers and Jake insisted on inviting you"

I perked up again, Jake invited me?

"YES!" I scream, overly excited.

My mood swings were really weird.

I grabbed my purse and went to walk out but was stopped by blue eyes looking at me weird.

"What blue eyes?" I ask

He raised his eyebrow "blue eyes? Oh and you might wanna change" he looked me up and down when he said the last part making me look down and blush.

I'm still in my PJs.

"Give me two minutes!" I say turning around and running to my room.

I hear one of the boys say something like "20 minutes" but didn't care.

Not taking off the hoodie, I put on tights and boots. Not bothering with make up or brushing my hair.

I did however tie my hair into the sloppiest bun ever and then headed back down stairs.

The whole process taking me about 3 minutes instead of the two I asked for.

"Ready!" I say pushing them out the door way, grabbing dads credit card and my keys I walked outside and locked up.

"You actually took like two minutes" green eyes says shocked

"Yep!" I then remember I hadn't introduced myself and I don't know their names "my names Melissa by the way, since your friends with my brothers you can call me Mel or Liz, pick your poison. Now who are you?"

Blue eyes spoke up "I'm Damien and his my twin Leo"

"Huh, one, two, three" I thought out loud giggling.

Leo looked confused "what!?"

I smiled at him as we walked to their car "I don't have a twin making me one, your both twins making you two and-"

"And your brothers being triplets makes three" Leo interiors and I nod.

It was an odd thought but I found it amusing.

"Wouldn't it make four since you're the brothers sibling" Damien asks but I frown.

"I would agree, but their more like strangers to me, six years is a long time apart and I have so much to learn like do they play sports? What type of music do they like? Food likes and dislikes? Do they have girlfriends? Maybe even boyfriends? Are they happy? What are they even like?" I explain. It's true I know nothing.

I look down at the floor "how can I even call them my brothers if I know nothing about them besides a piece of their childhood"

When I looked up Leo was looking at me with pity, Damien however gave me a look I couldn't read.

We were silent as we got into the car and drove off, but I didn't care. What I said hit me hard but maybe that was how I could show them I'm not who they believe I am by getting to know each and every one of them.

I needed to get them all alone today, if only for a little bit.

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A/N

I still have so many chapters to go T.T