Stella refused to talk to Geralt once they got to the barn, and she refused to go inside in fear of making Yennefer mad. Her dress was soaking wet, and Geralt was quiet as they sat feet apart. Lightning and thunder rolled above them, making Stella jump and hug her legs tighter to her chest. Geralt tried to comfort her, but she moved further away.

"We can go inside," Geralt said as she shook her head no.

"Stella, I'm sorry. How many times do I have to say it for you to believe me?" He asked.

She didn't answer him, and he sighed weakly, realizing there was no way she could. They probably apologized a thousand times to her and only hurt her more. Geralt didn't like her being quiet, and it said more to him than her words.

"I... I don't know what that smell is, and it scares me, but also, when you were with Yennefer, it made me sad, and I don't really know why. For some reason, it made me feel like you didn't care about me anymore," she explained as Geralt sighed but looked over at her.

"You were jealous?" He asked.

"What does that mean?" She asked.

"It's a feeling you get when you want someone to spend time with you, but their attention is directed to someone or something else," he said as she she looked at him sadly.

"That smell you smell... it's hard to explain, and some people don't call what others call it. Some people call it love and others it just what happens when you when you are trying to have a kid. We both can't have kids, and sometimes, when we meet, we end up.." he paused.

"Do you love her?" Stella asked as he sighed.

"It's complicated," he said.

"Not really if you think about it. Does she make you happy when she is with you? Does she make you feel safe and help you solve problems you have? People in the stories I read do that. They also help each other when they need it. I know they aren't real people, but I just... I don't have anything else to go on," she sighed.

"She doesn't make me happy long only for a short period of time, I also know I am never safe with her around. But you are different, and I made a mistake and got distracted. You could have died, and I wouldn't have known because I was with her and not you," he said softly.

"How am I different, I turned into a monster and killed things. Also, I didn't tell you I could do that," she informed.

"Because I said you didn't have to, and you are a wearwolf of some kind. You can control it, and that is extremely rare. You don't try to cause problems, and even though I'm protecting you from people who want you. You always find the good in everything and everyone. I know that being a witcher, no one sees what you see. I'm not sure if it's because you are innocent and don't know better or you over see all the bad that comes with us," he said.

"It's only because all I used to see was bad things, and you showed me that there could be good out there. I mean, I'm learning things," she said as she sneezed.

"Yu are going to catch a cold if you stay in those wet clothes," Geralt said.

"Not if I turned into a what was that thing I turned into?" She asked.

"A wearwolf," Geralt said as she turned and her dress disappeared, making Geralt confused.

"Where does your dress go?" Geralt asked as she turned back.

"I don't know, don't look at me, I just found out I was a wearwolf," she said as Geralt smiled a bit.

"Sorry," he said as she turned into a wearwolf again but laid her massive head on his lap.

He started to run his fingers through her long black hair. She slowly went to sleep, and he sighed a bit. That one question was burned into his mind now, and he wished he could get it out.

"Does she make you happy?"

Stella made him happy more than he realized, and that was dangerous. It didn't matter to him if she was a wearwolf or not. She was kind and carring. She didn't understand a lot of her emotions yet because they were new to her, and it didn't bother him to explain what they were. But realizing she got jealous because Yennefer spent time with him and she didn't also tell him that maybe she was seeing him more than a friend, which was bad.

She was experiencing changes faster than he hoped for and wished her affection was geared towards someone else who could give her a better life. The life of a witcher wasn't for the faint of heart and with them being on the run from the people that wanted to harm her; she needed something and it was something he couldn't give her. A nice peaceful life with kids, and he surely didn't deserve that after everything he had done in the past.

Morning came quickly, and the rain was starting to dry up from the storm they had last night. Geralt woke up first while Stella was still sleeping and sighed as he was about to wake her.

"You really know how to pick them," yennefer informed as Geralt looked at her.

"She was going to run away. I had to do something," Geralt informed her.

"Let her run she is dangerous," yennefer said.

"So are you but still end up sharing a bed once in a while even though you have tried to kill me or used me to get what you want," he said.

"Geralt, this is different; an army is after her. It's not just some crazy man in a mask, the person thst is after her has killed everyone that knows where she went with you. She will get you killed," she said.

"She can't be by herself for that reason. I want to know why she has this curse, who started it, and how to fix it," he said.

"She is never going to be normal Geralt, my suggestion is to leave her. If you don't you will die," yennefer said.

"So will she if she's alone, if there was a way to help you all those years ago I would have done it. But i wasn't even born yet, she needs my help and teaching her how to help herself is the best way to do it," he informed her.

"I will never understand you Geralt, also someone left flowers by the barn door. Freshly picked to, they are the kind to heal wounds quickly. You have a shadow and I don't know if it's friend or foe so be careful," Yennefer informed him as she left him alone in the barn.

She was learning what her feelings were and he had to convince her that he shouldn't be the one to receive her affection but he liked her to even though he also liked yennefer and many whores. She was different and he needed change in his life.