ʜᴇʀᴇ ɪ sᴛᴀɴᴅ
ᴏɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴇᴅɢᴇ,
ᴀʟʟ ᴀʟᴏɴᴇ.
ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀʀᴇ,
ᴏɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ sɪᴅᴇ
ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡʜᴏʟᴇ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ
ʙʏ ʏᴏᴜʀ sɪᴅᴇ

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I tossed and turned in my bed until dawn came. I really liked the name dawn. My grandma's name. She gave me her nickname Lilica, so I would always have a piece of her with me. No, she is not dead. She thought she would die before I was born and now I'm 17 but she is still as healthy as ever. Way to go grandma.

After stretching again in my bed, I decided it was time to hit the showers. Half an hour later I was ready to go. I was wearing my favorite white trousers with a full sleeve tight purple t-shirt matched with my favorite ankle length white boots. I applied no makeup as it was always my go to look. My hair was up in a ponytail. I didn't quite like my hair. So I always tried to put it up in a bun but most of the time it ain't possible as my hair's really thick and long.

When I reached downstairs I noticed that it was eerily calm. Like a calm before the storm. I brushed it of and went to the kitchen. My mother, Tessa, was standing by the island, hands on her hips, looking outside the window. My mother was a petite women with a really slender frame. Her brunette hair was always messy and uneven.

She didn't notice me when I walked up to her. She looked deep in thought. Nowadays she is extra tired. Her eyes were red and had dark circles covering them. The years gave age lines on her forehead and her once beautiful face was dull with worry.

Then she suddenly turned towards me and smiled. That gentle Mama smile.
"Paige, you are up early today." I wasn't. "I didn't make anything. I only woke up." Clearly she was lying. She looked like she didn't even had one hour of sleep. She also looked like she was in pain.

"It's okay. I'll buy something on my way."

"I'm so sorry baby. I know I haven't been like myself lately but please try to understand." She sobbed. The tears welled up inside her, flowed freely. It hurts me to see her like that. My throat tightened and my eyes filled with unshed tears. I cleared my throat and nodded at her. I wasn't in the mood to talk about the million problems we currently had. I was preparing to leave when I heard her speak again.

"Wait. I'll go get some money."

"No mom. I got a job yesterday. I got money mom. It's okay." I reassured her. Feeling my throat tighten again. Obviously I was lying. I got no job or money for that matter. But I can't tell her that. She must not feel like she has to look after me too.

"I'll be going now." I gave a small smile that didn't quite reach my eyes.

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Outside, my best friend Ellis was waiting for me with her black Sedan. She was looking through her phone. Ellis was hot topic. She had beautiful light blonde waves and chocolate brown eyes. Her plum lips were always a cause of my envy. She had a small frame with a really thin body. Ellis was one of the most beautiful person I've ever met both internally and externally.

When she saw me, her face brightened and she came towards me to give me a bone crushing hug.

"I missed you Paige." She said breaking the hug.

"I only saw you yesterday. You are so dramatic this early in the morning." I said narrowing my gaze at her. How could she? I can barely open my eyes.

Her face morphed into worry once she saw my eyes. Without another word she hugged me again. But this time softly.

"Come, the classes won't start without us." She said smiling at me. I laughed and followed her to the car. Once we were settled in, she started rampaging through the radio to pick up a song. Only after settling on one did she start to drive. Elli always said that music made her. So whatever she is doing, she needed music to accompany her.

Two days ago, I broke up with Caden Carter. Not because I didn't like him. I used to have this teeny tiny crush on him, that's true. But once I got to know him, he had this huge egoistic personality and he was way over his head. Also I liked someone else.

Usually when guys asks me out for a date, I always accepts. It was in my nature to not say no. But I've been doing it a lot lately, saying no that is. And when Cade asked me to go out with him, I was happy because I liked him. But then I did regret my decision.

I also had this huge crush on his best friend. So I couldn't lead him on and have the hots for his best friend. I can't just forget him. It doesn't work like that.

Once we reached school, El parked the car and switched the engine off. Then she suddenly turned towards me, took my face in her arms making my face look like a fish.

"I love you Elli baby, but not in that way. I'm so sorry. But I will try to make it up to you by fixing you up with someone but if .." my blabbering was cut short by her laughter.

"Bitch I love you too. And if I was a lesbian I would have fell for you already and as straight as you are, you would fall for me too I'm charming like that. But no it's not that." She sighed. And I wanted to laugh. If only she took those arms out of my face.

"Paige, it's gonna be okay. It's going to get better. You know you can always talk to me. I'm always here. Don't carry the burden all by yourself. We can always share okay?" She said slowly looking straight into my eyes. The sudden shift in the atmosphere made me so sad that I just wanted to cry. But I can't let them know that I'm already broken. No one can know.

Once we both entered the school, I noticed that everyone were looking at me and whispering, loudly. I knew what it was about. But it is my decision to date whom and not.

"Slut." I heard someone say.

"Watch your tongue there baldy. Don't go calling your name out loud." Ellis snapped at the girl. I gave my best friend a small smile. I saw people near the girl snicker at her and she looked like was plotting bloody murder on Ellis.

The whole hall suddenly became silent. All head turned towards the entrance of the building. Then they entered, the 'it' boys of our school. The group consisted of four boys, Caden being one of them. I didn't knew them personally, except for Caden. But everyone except him looked nice, especially Brent. He is so cute and charming.

Whispers surrounded them the moment they entered the hall. And they all walked inside in unison. If this was a k-drama, there would've been flowers blooming on the places they stepped on. Heck I can see the light coming from them, blinding me temporarily. Caden didn't even leave me a second glance. After the breakup I can see the egoistical asshole as who he really is.

Lagging behind Caden, with his eyes on his phone was Jason Harris, the guy I liked, my best friends brother. Cliché I know. But i can't just forget him. It doesn't work like that.

I had this really stupid crush on him since I saw him shirtless at his home during one of our many sleepovers. Since then I had this love eyes whenever I see him. And it doesn't help me that, we haven't even talked once in our life. And it's even suspicious to me that I only found him attractive this year.

As this was our senior year, it could be the last year that we see each other. So I have found the courage to ask him out this week. So either we become a thing or he turns me down. Either I find myself in a romantic relationship or I can hate myself for the whole year.

When the bell rang, all of us scrambled our own ways. I muttered a shit under my breath, gave El a look and ran to the other side of the building. My first period was physics and the class was situated on the other side of a very big building. I was already 5 minutes late when I got there and the fact that the physics teacher is a monster didn't help my case.

I took a shaky breath before opening the door. The angry face of Mr.Smitherson greeted me the moment I entered. Before I could come up with an excuse another person opened the door. It was none other than Marcus Cohen, one of the 'it' boys.

We both stood by the door panting. Even the school bad boy was afraid of Mr.Smitherson as he too ran here. We both exchanged a knowing nod and waited for our punishment.

"Detention both of you." And just like that our senior year began.

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