Emma's POV

"N-no what, why would I?" I asked, surprised I didn't faint.

"Of course you would never do that- at least not on purpose" He said. "I didn't do it Jesse, what the hell" I denied. "Oh but you did, I saw you, infact I recorded you doing so on my phone sugar" He said.

Okay, what? 

I just stared at Jesse. 

"S-show me" I managed to say. "As you wish" He says and pulls out his phone.  He presses  a video and shows me the screen of the phone.

He was right. I was right there, sitting on the grass, in Brendon's garden, I saw myself throw the cigarette behind me to a pile of wood and get up to leave. Then the video ended.

"What the f*ck Jesse, do you stalk me?" I yelled. "I wouldn't call it stalking because I was on my way to the party, then somehow, found you and thought why not record" He said.

"Please delete the video and don't tell anyone" I shut my eyes tightly and begged. It's all I could do. 

It's not like I could just snatch his phone from his hand and delete it without getting a punch in the face. 

"Now, now don't be upset" He said, caressing my cheek, as I quickly pulled away. "I'm not deleting the video sweetheart" He said. "Why not?" I asked, trying not to burst into tears.

"Because I need it to have you" He said. I gave him a questioning look. "You're mine now." He said, with a smirk. "Wait what? You're blackmailing me?" I said, my eyes widening.

"Sure am sugar" He said, as I shook my head. "No, no, no! I'm not yours, you can't do that!" I yelled. "Awh, then I guess I'll just release the video to everyone at school, and the police- oh and most importantly, Brendon." He said, with fake innocence.

My jaw dropped. How could he? 

"So babe what's the answer?" He asked. I bit my bottom lip, looking down at my lap, as a tear rolled down my cheek. "I'm yours" I whispered.  "Now that's my good girl" he said, pinching my cheek hard.

"Now kiss me" He said. "What?" I asked, shocked. "Kiss me" He growled. I gulped, and slowly leaned in. 

Just when our faces were inches apart, Jesse grabbed my jaw hard and smashed his lips onto mine.

After what seemed like forever, Jesse finally pulled away and looked at the playground set, smirking. 

I raised my brow, wondering what he was looking at and I turned to the direction he was looking at.

Brendon was standing there with his mouth open, he looked shocked. I felt as if someone just punched me in the stomach.

"What the f*ck Jesse, leave Emma alone!" He yelled, now standing right in front us. "Hey Brendon, sorry to break it to you, but Emma wants me" Jesse smirked. 

 I see what Jesse is doing...

"Bull shit" Brendon said.  Jesse just kept his stupid smirk on his face. "Wait- is that true Emma?" He asked. 

I kept my head down, refusing to look at Brendon's or Jesse's face. "Yes, it's true, I'm dating Jesse" I whispered, then looked at Jesse. "As she said, she loves me, and only me" Jesse said, grabbing my jaw and kissing me again.

I've never felt more disgusted. 

I waited for the moment when he pulled his cold, rough lips off mine.

He finally pulled away and I looked around to find Brendon gone. I felt my heart drop to my stomach. 

"I'm going home now, I have to sleep for school tomorrow" I mumbled getting up and walked away. "See you tomorrow babe" He called after me, as I gaged.

I trudged all the way home, not being able to think straight.

 Does this sh*t even happen to normal people?

***
"I'm sorry!" I yelled, jerking up awake.

I looked around quickly, realizing it was just a nightmare, I let out a sigh of relief.

I buried my face into my hands, feeling my tear and sweat stained cheeks and forehead.

I pushed the covers off of me and slowly walked to the bathroom.

I flicked the lights on in the bathroom and quickly shut my eyes from the sudden bright light.

I groaned and went to the sink and splashed my face with some cold water.

I looked at the mirror and almost gagged from how disgusting I looked.

I quickly looked away and walked out of the bathroom, flicking the lights off on the way.

I sat down on my bed, and covered myself with the blanket, staring up at the dark ceiling.

I looked at my alarm clock, it was 4 in the morning. Well, no point going back to sleep now.

I closed my eyes to calm down a little bit. That's when it hit me. This weird feeling- weird urge to do something.

I got up and walked to my study desk. I flicked on the small study lamp on my desk.

I took out a new notebook that I haven't used yet and flipped the cover open. I grabbed a pen and looked down at the paper.

I wouldn't actually do it would I?

I brought the tip of the pen to the top left corner of the paper. And started writing.

'Dear dad,
   I don't know where to start to be honest, but I guess all I can say is I love you and sorry. I know you lost mom.. And now you lost me too.. But I really couldn't handle things anymore.

It's kinda funny how you haven't noticed anything. How you haven't noticed my fake smiles and laughter, the scars and the fresh cuts that cover my arms, legs, hips and body.

But its not your fault. Don't blame yourself please, because it's mine. I should have told you and asked for help when I didn't. I shouldn't have hid it so well, and tried to confront you about things. Yet I knew I wasn't worth the time, I also didn't want help, I forgot what it felt like to be happy. I was scared of getting better, because who am I without my demons?

I hope you and Avery live rest of your years happily together, get children, and grow old and die happy. Don't be sad about my death.. I'm in a much happier place now, I'll make sure to say hi to mom for you :)

                              Your daughter,
                                                           Emma'

I read what I had written 3 times. What the heck am I doing?

I ripped the paper out of the notebook and crumbled it into a ball. I threw it on the desk and got up.

I grabbed my phone and walked downstairs to the kitchen. I was extremely hungry.

I made myself some toasts with nutella and sat down at the kicthen island to eat.

I started eating, staring at the wall infront of me, chewing slowly. I looked at the screen of my phone.

I had already put the guy's number into my phone. I stared at the number. He did work at the pharamcy that stays open 24 hours and he obviously has the night shift.. maybe I should text him?

I grabbed my phone and texted him.

Emma- hey, uh this is Emma

Unknown- Oh hey :) how r u?

Emma- I'm fine ig

Unkown- not sure I believe u

Emma- I'm fine really, um btw, u never told me ur name

Unkown- oh right, my name is Jason

Emma- that's a nice name

Jason- thanks :)

Jason- so what's wrong?

Emma- nothing

Jason- we both know that's not true

Emma- yea I guess, my life is really f*cked up right now.

Jason- wanna talk about it?

Emma- hmm maybe later

I put my plate in the sink and walked upstairs to my room while texting Jason.

It was nice to have someone to talk to so I don't get left alone with my thoughts.

...

I rolled over to the other side of the bed and looked at my alarm clock.

It was 7 am.

Meaning Jason and I talked for around 3 hours now.

Jason- wait holy sh*t you have school *facepalm* I'm so sorry I forgot, I should have made you sleep

Emma- lol no its fine, I'm used to not sleeping much anyway

Jason- sleep is important tho, you need it, adding the fact that you have school too, how are you gonna be able to concentrate in class- let alone stay awake?

Emma- idk, I'll manage somehow tho :)

Jason- ... wat time do u leave ur house?

Emma- idk depends.. but usually around 7:40

Jason- I would tell u to go sleep while u can, but idk how long u take to get ready and stuff so..

Emma- I get ready pretty quickly, but I don't need to sleep.

Jason- if u say so... but make sure to take a nap during lunch or like after school, k?

Emma- ok, I will

Jason- good girl, now go get ready for school lol

Emma- haha ok, bye I guess I'll ttyl

Jason- text me whenever :)

I put my phone on my bedside table and laid down, staring at the ceiling.

For some weird reason, I genuinely felt like someone actually cared about me.

I dragged myself out of bed and went to the bathroom. I looked at the mirror and gagged.

My eye bags were extremely dark, it looked like a combination of purple and green and black shades, my skin looked super pale, my blue eyes were more vibrant yet dull, around my pupil, it was red, and it hurt when i closed my eyes.

I haven't slept well in days.. who cares though, not like I care whether I'm healthy or not.

I splashed some water on my face and walked to my closet. I took out my Memphis May Fire band hoodie, with a pair of skinny jeans.

I changed into them and put on my plain black converse. After brushing my hair and tying it up in a pony tail, I quickly tried to cover my dark eyebags with concealer.

When I was done with the concealer, that did a poor job to cover up the dark color, I grabbed my bag and walked out of my room.

On the way down the stairs, I untangled my earphones and put an earbud into ear. I scrolled down my playlist and chose the song Jocelyn Flores by Xxxtentacion.

Slipping my phone into my back jeans pocket, I looked at the watch on the wall.

Becky should be here any minute now. Just then, I heard Becky's car honk outside.

I quickly walked out of the house, and jogged to Becky's car and got in.

"Hey" I said, buckling in my seatbelt. I looked at Becky who didn't even look at me.

"Um, you okay?" I asked. "Are you kidding? No, of course I'm not okay! When were you going to tell me that you and Jesse are dating, and like what the f*ck Emma, he bullied you for years. He even beat you up for f*ck sake, and out of nowehere I get a call from Brendon, informing me that my bestfriend is dating.. f*cking Jesse" She yelled, hitting the steering wheel.

I shut my eyes tightly, keeping my head down. "I- he- " I didnt know what to say. "Wait Emma, is he forcing you to? Becuase if he is, I swear that motherf*cker is going to-" Becky went on then stopped.

"Its not true, right? Please tell me it's not" She asked, sighing.

I gulped and sighed. "I-it is true.." I mumbled. "Wait what, really? How? Why- I am so f*cking confused" she said, not looking at me, but keeping her eyes on the road.

I kept my head down, twiddling my fingers trying not to burst into tears and tell Becky everything, because I can't.

No one can know.

The rest of the ride was silent, I chewed on my bottom lip nervously. Secretly wishing another car smashed into this car from my side, so I could die. But at the same time I knew if that happened, Becky would get injured badly and possibly die as well.

Becky parked the car and instantly walked out. I sighed and got out of the car and walked towards Becky. She gave me a look, sighed and walked away.

I felt my vision go blurry. Did I just lose my bestfriend? F*ck, please no. No. No.

I quickly walked towards my locker, biting my bottom lip hard, holding my tears back.

I took out my books and slammed the locker shut. "Hey babe" Someone whispered in my ear, as I felt two hands on the sides of my waist.

I turned around, moving away from Jesse. "Leave me alone you f*cking idiot" I mumbled, walking away.

Jesse grabbed my wrist and pulled me back, his grip on my wrist was hard, it felt like it was about to snap.

I winced and looked at Jesse. "There is some blood on your lips, who did you make out with this time, you slut" He glared a little, making sure he looked like he was acting nice so everyone around won't suspect anything.

"I didn't, I just bit my lip too hard" I muttered, as my breathing became heavier, hoping he won't do anything.

"Stop f*cking lying, just wait until lunch, I'll make sure you learn your lesson not to lie to me, whore" he said in a low, furious voice, letting go of my wrist.

He walked away and I gulped, biting the inside of my cheek.

Why the heck would he assume I made out with someone? And just because my lip is bleeding?

I walked quickly towards homeroom hoping today won't be so bad.

Yet little did I know, all hell was about to break loose.

....

I quietly walked out of class and ran to my locker. I quickly shoved my books in and headed towards the auditorium, praying that I won't run into Jesse.

I quietly closed the metal doors behind me and sat down on one of the red, soft seats.
Placing both my feet on the seat infront of me, I stared at the thick, red curtains that hung down from the stage ceiling.

I started to hum a random song when I suddenly heard the auditorium doors swing open.

I quickly sunk down in my seat, putting my feet down quietly, along with my head down, hoping whoever came in won't find me.

Soon, after a couple seconds, the doors opened again and slammed shut. I stayed still for a couple minutes, until I was pretty  sure no one was in here anymore.

I looked around, and found no one around. I shrugged and grabbed my bag, taking out some books so I could finish some of my homeworks now.

..

I fell off the seat all of a sudden, as the bell rang loudly. I groaned and got off the ground, rubbing my eyes. I must have fallen asleep.

I packed my bags, and made my way out of the auditorium. I quickly made my way through the crowd, and towards my class.

I had already put the books I needed in my bag before so I didn't have to stop by at my locker.

Just as I was about to pass by an empty class, the door swung open, and someone grabbed my arm, pulling me in.

Losing my balance, I fell on the ground, as I heard the door slam shut, then the lock turning.

I picked my top half of the  body off the ground and looked at the door.

Jesse stood there with an evil smile. 

"You didn't actually think I was going to let you off the hook so easily, did you sugar?" He said, taking his jacket off, his cold stare never leaving my eyes.
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Hey guys, yea I know, I'm a horrible person, its been so long since I've written sh*t, but my summer has been sh*tty as hell and nothing is going right, and I didn't really have the motivation to write :/ I'm reallly sorry.

But I finally managed to finish this chapter thankfully :)

School is starting in around a week, I'll try to write as much as I can before school starts, and maybe if I can, even at school :)

So.. hope you guys liked this chapter, lol I know, I'm like f*cking everything up right now... but I'll just say it'll end with a happy ending.. maybe or maybe not. *fakes innocent smile*

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-Sarah🌻