Emma's POV

Disgusted, I just shook my head and quickly walked out, shutting the door behind me.Honestly, right now, I didn't care about Eric. I just couldn't believe Jessica would do that.

I was right. She was never Becky and I's friend, maybe she was just acting- that's how Mackenzie and Jesse must have found out about my mom. Oh god..this is what I get for being a nice person.

I trudged down the stairs and went to the kitchen and drank some water, and walked out the back door. I got a cigarette from a guy and walked away form the house, I took a drag, and instantly felt relaxed. It was nice, addicting, not healthy, but still nice. Who cares though? Since when did I give two sh*ts about my health- let alone my life. 

Answer- when my mom died-or more specifically, when I found out my mom died. Which was around like 3-4 years after the year she ACTUALLY died.

Whatever.

I decided to take a walk, so I walked down the dark road and soon, found a playground. No one was there, and there was only one old lamp post, that lit up less than half the place, but the bright moon light made it a bit less dark.

I walked towards the swings, and sat down on one. I looked up at the sky, blinking rapidly, as the tears, threatened to fall.

Coming to this party was a HUGE mistake. Why did I agree to come in the first place?

I took out my phone and texted the group, that I was tired and decided to go home. I don't know how long I've been sitting here on this swing, but my butt felt numb. So  got up to take a bus home.

In the bus, aparently, I was the only one here, since it was like 12am.

I stared out the window, with my head leaning against it. A tear rolled down my cheek as I quickly wiped it away, refusing to cry.

 ........

I walked into my bathroom and stripped out of my clothes then stepped into the bathtub. I turned the water to the hottest temperature, and stepped under the water, as it burned my back and stung my cuts. It was painful, but relaxing. Yeah, I know weird.

Soon, I got used to the burning water, so I just stood there under the water, staring at the wall infront of me.

After sulking for around 20 minutes, I finally got back to my senses and washed my hair and body then got out of the tub. I dried up and put on my grey sweat pants and baby blue sweatshirt . I washed my face with make up remvoing soap, knowing there were still remains of my mascara under my eyes.

I ruffled my hair with my towel then tied it up in a messy bun, and went out. I walked over to my candle collection and got a marshmellow scented candle and lit it. I put the candle on my bedside table.

I decided to make my bed, because it was messy.

(A/N: I just realized, that  never showed you all what Emma's room looks like, but I found this pic of a bed, and liked it soo yeah, and I probably won't be putting a pic of the rest of her room..)

I walked over to my shelf and scanned through the bookshelf to decide what to read.I ended up picking Three Dark Crowns, and went under my comforter, and rest my back on my pillows.

I opened where I had my book mark in place. I had started reading this a few days ago, and finished more than half way through it.

I few minutes later, I heard my window open. Scared, I looked at the window, to find Brendon climbing in. " Hey Emm-" He barely said, before falling face first onto the floor. "Hey..you okay" I asked, sitting up properly a bit. He got off the ground, and kicked off his shoes, he climbed into my bed, under the covers.He came closer and wrapped his left arm around my legs and laid his head on my stomach, above the comforter, so he wouldn't suffocate.

'Uh.. Brendon? Why are you here?" I asked awkwardly holding my book a few centimeters above his head." Just came to see you" He slurred. Ah, ofcourse he was drunk. Wait- how did he even climb up to my window if he was drunk.. I shrugged and put my book down on my bedside table then I ran my fingers through his surprising soft, messy hair, kind of brushing out some tangles.

Brendon groaned and I suddenly stopped and muttered a small 'sorry'. " No wait- keep doing that" He said, as I raised my brow, but then started playing with Brendon's hair again.

After some time of silence, Brendon opened the mouth to talk," Eric is a d*ck you know? He said he would help me with this girl, but he betrayed me by.." He just stopped there. " By what? And whose the girl?" I asked curiously.

I was answered by silence"Brendon?" I say. Then I heard quiet snoring and realized he had fallen asleep.

Great, he just left me with a million questions running through my head.

Whose the girl?

What did Eric do?

Why would Brendon ask Eric for help? He could get any girl he wants easily.

Whoo wass it?

I was dying to know. Why? I honestly dont even know, just curious I guess.

'You're jealous.' My conscience spoke.

No, me and Eric just broke up, why would I like Brendon?

Keep lying to yourself.

Shut up. Go away.

Who cares whether you like him or not.He doesn't like you. You're pathetic and ugly, he could get any girl.why would he choose you?

I shook my head. The terrible voices are back. I groaned trying to think about anything but Brendon. And Eric.

I tried to lift Brendon's head off my stomach and move him to the pillow next to me.

Key word- tried, but I couldn't. I tried once more, and finally managed to lift his head up, then put his head down on the pillow next to me. Then I rolled his body further away from me.

I stretched and felt my shoulders and back crack. Felt great.

I blew out the candle and turned off the lamp on my bedside table. I laid down and faced away from Brendon.

I shut my eyes and tried to sleep. I was so focused on trying to sleep, I wasn't even tired anymore.

Great.

I sighed and got out of bed and went to my study desk, and flicked the small lamp on my desk on. I took out my biology textbook and revised through some chapters.

As I was reading, my eyes started to close. It was hard to stay awake, and I was too tired to go to bed.I laid my head on my arms, to close my eyes for a moment.

Which turned into minutes..

I was slightly awoken when I heard my bathroom door close. But I was too sleepy to even open my eyes, or even realize I was still at my desk.

Suddenly, I felt two arms lift me up bridal style into the air and whoever it was,  they carried me to my bed and laid me down, and covered me with my blanket.The entire time, I was half sleeping, so I kept my eyes closed.

A small smile formed on my lips as I began to completely fall asleep again.

Just then, my eyes flew open. And found Brendon staring at me, with sleepy eyes.

"Gosh, you scared me" I say." Sorry,  I woke up because I thought I needed to throw up, but I didn't so I washed my face and came out, to find you sleeping at your desk so I carried you here.." Brendon went on, sctratching the back of his neck.

"Its fine, thanks" I say as he gives me a small smile and walked over to the other side of the bed and climbed in.

He pulled me into his chest, as darkness consumed me once again.
                          
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Next morning:

"Wakey wakey, eggs and.. I don't know how this wakey thing goes.. whatever, WAKE UP" Brendon whisphered in my ear as I groaned, and rolled over to the other side.

Suddenly, my pillow was pulled away from under my head and Brendon whacked my back with the pillow, several times.

"If you don't wake up right now, I drag you out of the house and take you to IHOP for breakfast" Brendon threatened.

"But its soo early..five more minutes" I groaned,  snatching the pillow away from him and putting it under my head.

"Its not early" Brendon said, as I felt a bright light, I squinted my eyes, a bit trying to open them when I was met by the bright sun light, blaring through my window, he had to open the curtains?

That son of a-

"it's 3pm, and we have to meet Becky, Levi, and Theo at the laser tag place at 4pm remember-which also means you have less than 15 minutes to get ready" Brendon said, as I shot out of bed.

"Sh*t, why didn't you wake me up earlier, you idiot." I half yelled, "By the way, you look great in the morning" Brendon smirked.

I glared at him before running to the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror.

My eyes were bloodshot, and I had dark eye bags under my eyes, my lips were chapped and my hair was all over the place.

I looked like I lived in the woods for 10 days and was drug dealing for 3 days straight or something.

I quickly washed my face with my face scrub. I then brushed my hair, wincing in pain, as I tried to brush out the tangles, then tying it up in a simple pony tail.

I rushed out of the bathroom, and Brendon handed me some clothes." I picked your outfit for you" He said, as I mumbled a small 'thank you'.

I was just about to pull my shirt up when I stopped." What are you doing in here? Get out" I said, "why?" Brendon smirked.

"Get out you idiot, perverted, jerk" I said, trying to push him out of my room.

"Hey! I'm not an idiot!" He defened himself, sounding like a 10 year-old.

"yeah you are, now get out, I dont want you in here, let me change" I yell at him, still trying to physically push him out, but he wouldn't budge.

"You know you want me" Brendon sang, as I slowly managed to make him take small steps towards the door, while I was still pushing him.

"You wish, pretty boy" I say, before shoving him with all my might out the door.

He gave me a pout, aww, does he think I'm going to fall for that?

Ha, him and his delusional mind.

I plastered a fake sweet smile on my face and slammed the door in his face.
"Quick, we have to leave in like 5 minutes okay?" Brendon said from the other side." Okay" I said.

I took off my jammies and put on the white sweater and dark grey skinny ripped jeans, and my white vans, that Brendon had choosen for me.

I quickly opened my hair and brushed it again.I looked at myself at the mirror, not bad.

I shrugged and put on some chapstick before walking out of my room and went downstairs.

I looked at the clock and wait-WAIT WHAT

I stomped towards the kitchen, where I found Brendon sitting at the kitchen island, on his phone.

"BRENDON, WHAT THE HELL ITS 9AM!" I yelled as Brendon looked up at me." Wait really? Oops, guess I read the time wrong" He shrugged with smug smirk.

Ugh, I wanted to slap that stupid smirk of his face.

"In my defence, you should have thought what I said through, I said we were going to have breakfast. Do you actually think I would have taken you out for breakfast at 3?" He asked, still smirking.

"I was half sleeping, you dipsh*t" I say, smacking his arm." Fine, if you're mad at me, guess I'll just go to IHOP myself and eat amazing pancakes and waffles and bacon and eggs and other yummy things ALL by myself" he said, shaking his head and headig towards the front door.

"Wait- Brendon, you know I love you righhht?" I say, smiling, until I realized what I had just said, and felt my face turn red.

I mentally face palmed. I can't say that to Brendon, it only works with Becky and-used to work-with Eric.

"Mm, nope actually, and I'll be going now, since you're mad at me" Brendon smirked as my smile dropped and I just pouted.

" I'm joking, come on let's go" He chuckled after a moment of staring at me.

I jumped up in happiness and whispher-shouted a 'yes' and walked out the front door.

" you're so childish" Brendon yelled at me from behind. I turned around and stuck my tongue out at him, then grinned.

Here I come foood.

He chuckles, shaking his head as we get in his car.

I moved my hand up to turn on the radio, when Brendon slapped my hand away. "No, I am not listening to your terrible singing, you sound like dying puppies." Brendon said, as I crossed my arms above my chest and glared at him, while pouting.

"Pwwelease" I begged, as he sighed and turned on the radio." Yay" I cheered as the song Talking Body by To Love. This song was pretty catchy.

"So if we talking body, you got a perfect one so put it on me, swear it won't take you long, if you love me ri-i-i-ight, we-" I stopped, not wanting to sing the swear part." For li-i-i-ife, on and on and on-n-n"

I sang through the rest of the song, and I could see Brendon physically cringing from my AMAZING voice.( note the sarcasm) The song after was Weak by AJR. 

OH my lord, I loved this song.

" No thank you, is what I should have said, I should be in bed, but.." Brendon cut me off by singing himself.

"Temptations,of trouble on my tongue, troubles yet to come." He sang with his amazing voice. "One sip, bad for me, one hit, bad for me, one kiss, bad for me, but I give in so easily, and no thank you, is how it should have gone, I should stay strong," He went on.

"BUT IM WEAK, AND WHATS WRONG WITH THAT? BOY OH BOY I LOVE IT WHEN I FALL FOR THAT, IM WEAK AND WHATS WRONG WITH THAT? BOY OH BOY I LOVE IT WHEN I FALL FOR THAT" we both bursted out singing together.

"Ohhhh-ahhh-ye-ya-ye-yaaaa oh ahhhh-ye-ya-ye-ya, but I'm weak, and whats wrong with that? Boy oh boy I love it when I fall for that" Brendon sang on, as I listened.

Did I mention he had such an amazing voice?

Yeah, you did. You're so annoying.

You're calling yourself annoying, stupid.

I rolled my eyes at myself and joined in Brendon's singing, completely ruining the song for both of us.
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"so, what do you wanna eat? " Brendon asked me, as I looked up from playing a game on his phone.

I looked at the menu on the wall before deciding what I wanted.
"Uh, I'll get the waffles with strawberry and nutella." I tell Brendon, then went back to playing the game.

"Go sit at a table, I'll pay and come" Brendon tells me as I nod. My focus still on the game on Brendon's phone, I suddenly bumped into someone.

I almost fell when whoever I bumped into, grabbed my arm and helped me balance myself.

"Tha-" My eyes widened when I found Jessica and Eric standing infront of me.

And the one I bumped into was unfortunately Eric. Whether it was Eric or Jessica, its both unfortunate but whatever.

Just then Brendon came to me, and he glared at Eric as Eric glared back at him.

"Let's go Emma" Brendon says as he put his hand on my lower back, leading up to a table next to the wall.

"Why the hell is he here?" Brendon mumbled, clearly pissed." It's a restaurant, I'm pretty sure anyone is allowed to come here" I say, calming down.

"I know, but that jerk brought Jessica with him, are you okay? Do you want to go?" He said.

Wait, does he mean-the girl he was talking about last night..its Jessica?

"No I'm fine, we can stay here" I said quietly."you sure?" Brendon asked. I nodded to assure him.

Later, after we got our food, we ate silently. I apparently couldn't stop wondering what Brendon was talkig about yesterday.

"Soo, do you remember anything from last night?" I asked. As he looked up and shook his head,  when he suddenly stopped and nodded, with his eyes wide.

"Did I say something about a girl?" Brendon asked. I nodded." What did you say afterwards? What was your reaction?" Brendon asked.

"What do you mean, my reaction?" I asked."Wait-did I even tell you who it is?" Brebdon asked. "Actually,  you fell sleep before you even got close to saying her name" I say as his eyes return to its normal size and he slouches down, looking relieved.

"You told me that Eric was a d*ck or something and that he betrayed you, thats all you told me before you fell asleep." I inform Brendon. He sighed in relief.. what is he hiding from me, ugh.

We contiued to eat in silence, until. "Is the girl Jessica?" I blurted out, as Brendon looked up at me in shock and shook his head.

  "No- what? Emma, why would you even.." Brendon said, " I just assumed she was the girl because, you know, a while ago, you were pissed that Eric was here with Jessica.." I said, as he shakes his head again,"No, what I meant was that, Jessica is supposed to be your bestfriend, and now she is dating your ex, which made me pissed, because I didn't want to see you upset." Brendon explained as I smiled, heat creeping up my neck.

 " Oh, okay, I was just asking" I said. But then now, I really waned to know who the girl was. "so..who's the girl?" I asked, out of now where again.

"Can't tell you that, darling" Brendon said, as I pouted."why not? Its not like I'm going to tell her" I said.

"Still, no can do" Brendon shook his head.
"Ugh, fine.." I said.

I looked around to find Eric and Jessica kissing at another table.

Brendon noticed me looking, "Wanna make him jelly?" Brendon asked with a smirk.

"How?" I asked. Brendon thought for a moment before Brendon whispered something in my ear.

I nodded, as he told me the plan.He was still whispering the plan in my ear, as I glanced up to find Eric staring.

The plan was simple. Act as if we were flirting.Only problem- I suck at flirting.

"Okay, lean in closer, and laugh when I say something, and in the process, brush your hand on my arm, then I'll lean in, pretending to kiss you, okay?" Brendon informed me of the plan once more, as I nodded.

  " Ok, so I'm currently pretending to say something funny right now,...-now laugh" Brendon said with a smirk on his face. I start to giggle, and brushed my fingers on his arm,which was on the table. 

  I glanced at Eric who had his fists clenched as I turned around to face Brendon and smirked. Whoa, wait, that worked? How? I legit just laughed and touched Brendon's arm..

Brendon started to lean in as I made sure my hair was covering my red face from the side, so Eric wouldn't see that this 'kiss' is fake. 

Just then, Brendon jerked back, as I realized that Eric had pulled him back. Eric looked furious. "Dude, what the hell! That's my girlfriend!" Eric exclaimed as I raised my eyebrow.

Bish, whattttt?

"EX boy friend. EX. You broke up with me Eric, so why don't you go suck faces with that girl and mind your own f*cking business" I snapped.

"Seriously Emma? You're going to act like we never happened? I thought we had something special!" Eric said.

"If I recall, YOU were the one who broke up with ME, not the other way round. And guess what? Yes I will act like we never happened, and yeah, I thought we had something special too, but guess what? Life doesn't always go the way you expect it to." I say, pissed.

"You're such a spoiled, fake b*tch" Eric said, fuming with anger."Okay, that's enough, go away" Brendon said.

"Oh, so Mr.Protective boyfriend is going to stand up for you! You weak ass b*tch" Eric said, and with that, he punched Brendon.
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HEY GUYS OMG SCHOOL IS FINALLY OVERRR!

SUMMER IS HERE.. I hate summer but, atleast there isn't school right? I mean, come on, winter is way better than summer on so many levels. That's my opinion,  I dont know about you peps, but yeah.

Anywayyy, since its summer now, I'll probably be updating often, since I've got nothing to do besides, go on movie/tv series marathons, eat, sleep, uhh repeat?? I know normal people would watch around 2-3 episodes a day, but for me, minimum, 1-2 seasons a day, who knows, sometimes even the entire series...

ANND guys,  this book is probably ending sooon. Well around 20 more chapters? Am I going to write all that soon? No idea.. but I've got everything planned out, like everything EVERYTHING. I planned it all in class. Yep. In class. Well, not my fault it was boring af.

BTWWW, OML I REACHED 2.74KKK, I'm sooooo happppyyy.lol. Thank you guys soooo much for reading, I love you all to bits.

Lol. I love this guy, his name is Schmidt, he is in the series of New Girl, it's aweeesome, you guys should watch it, if ya want. lmao.  #schmidtforlife

I'm still so happy idek. I should freakin chill.

Y'all have a f*cking amazing summer!-And for those who haven't finished school yet, and still have exams, Best of luck!

Okay, I'ma go now and start my movie marathon while stuffing my face with popcorn-

(Lol, I was supposed to publish this a while ago but, something happened to wattpad, and I had to rewrite like half the chapter,  and there are around 3750 words..)

OK . OK . I'll seriously go now, I know no one likes long ass A/Ns, right?

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