Emma's POV

This was bad. Really bad. 

Weirdly, I wasn't crying, I wasn't freaking out, I wasn't shaking. 

I just sat on the beanbag. It was like my body's been through so much trauma, it didn't know how to respond to it anymore. The thought of Charlotte telling people about me killing Ella- obviously leaving out the rest of what really happened- scared me to death.

The image of Ella laying dead on the dusty floor with an ax in her chest appeared in my mind.

I exhaled sharply and twisted the cap of the liquor bottle open and brought it to my lips. I pushed the bottle up, letting the liquid flow into my mouth and down my throat. 

I didn't pull the bottle away. I kept forcing myself to swallow the liquor, the burning at the back of my throat slowly worsening. 

Out of nowhere, the bottle was snatched from my hand. I slightly gagged and coughed looking up. "Emma what the hell," He said, setting the bottle down far away from me. 

I glared at the ground. "Didn't I tell you to leave me alone?" I snapped angrily. "And leave you to get drunk and who knows to get hurt? No," Brendon replied. I snorted and shook my head slowly. 

"Why does it matter anyway? I should die," I muttered, laughing a little. "Baby don't say that," Brendon said, I could hear the pain in his voice. A shock spread throughout my arms and legs starting at my heart. "If you knew the things I've done you wouldn't even look at me," I said as Brendon sat down next to me. "That's not true and you know it," He said. 

"Mhm sure- hey! Did you know I killed someone?" I said enthusiastically. "What?" Brendon asked. "Yeah, stabbed her with an ax and damn the blood was gross to look at," I said, scrunching my face.

"Emma, what are you talking about? You're drunk, let's go home," Brendon asked. "I'm not drunk Brendon, I'll have to drink more to get drunk, give me the bottle," I rolled my eyes. 

"Emma talk to me please, what really happened," Brendon pleaded. "I already told you! That's what happened, it's all because of that stupid bitch Charlotte," I exclaimed angrily. 

Brendon didn't respond for a couple of seconds. I rubbed my face with my hands and sighed. "I want to blame Charlotte but the more I think about it, it's my fault," I muttered. 

'Oh god, it's all my fault," I whispered. "Brendon it's my fault Ella is dead," I said, standing up, looking around, shaking my head. "Hey hey hey calm down Emma, talk to me what happened, tell me everything," Brendon said, grabbing hold of my upper arms and pulling me down on the beanbag against him. 

He rubbed up and down my arm as my eyes stared out at the waves, wide open. My eye started to sting from not blinking. The second I blinked, I felt a tear drop roll down my face slowly. 

I was getting sick of waiting for it to roll off my face so I wiped the drop off my cheek and sniffled. "The day Becky and I escaped, Charlotte made me go get our nails done together and when we got back, she took me to the warehouse where her gang is at and in the room where she had all the screens for the security cameras, she showed me Becky tied up to a chair unconscious,"I started slowly, still looking out at the waves, listening to the waves hitting the bottom of the lighthouse.

"I freaked out, begging her to let Becky go but all she did was knock me out, next thing I know, I woke up in this cold place and Charlotte told me to keep walking down the hallway. As I was walking, I found a knife and Charlotte told me to keep it because I would need it later. I was desperate to find Becky so I listened," I stopped. I took a deep shaky breath and continued. 

"I kept walking through the narrow hallway until I came across.. a body, he was dead, hanging from the ceiling, it was scary, I knew I had to somehow you know, cut through the body to keep moving but I couldn't and that's when I suddenly heard Becky screaming loudly and I couldn't just do nothing, I cut his neck and.. and kept going. I soon found myself in a room and there was someone there, I didn't know who until she started talking coming towards me. She kept chanting sorry," I continued to explain. A voice inside my head kept yelling at me to keep my mouth shut. I tried to push it away but the more I tried, the more vivid the images of Ella laying dead on the floor became in my mind.

"I was trying to calm her down but she didn't listen, she kept trying to kill me, I tripped over an ax and quickly picked it up to scare her. I only picked it up to scare her," I whispered, looking down at my slightly shaking hands. I took another deep death and exhaled slowly. "I tried to tell her that we could get out of here together but she suddenly jumped at me, I closed my eyes and the next thing I know, Ella is laying on the floor with an ax deep in her chest.." I continued, my voice cracking causing a shock to spread throughout my body. 

Brendon didn't say anything for a moment. Suddenly a wave of regret came over me, making me wish I hadn't said any of it. But it was too late now. 

"I.. I'm not sure what to say but Emma, that wasn't your fault, Charlotte forced you into that situation knowing you wouldn't have any other choice, you were scared, your fear took over you, the Emma I know and love would never intentionally hurt anyone," Brendon said after a long couple of minutes.  

I decided not to tell Brendon about the note Charlotte left me earlier so he wouldn't get so worried. "I love you," I whispered, not knowing what to say. Brendon held me tighter and kissed the top of my head. "It's going to be okay, I'm so sorry about what happened baby," He whispered as I sighed. 

"School starts again soon," I muttered. "Hey we still have about a month and we are going to have lots of fun okay?" He said as I nodded. "Oof that means we're going to have to start preparing our college application soon too," I whispered. "Yeah," Brendon whispered back. 

"I should get a job again, the last time I had a job was like over a year ago," I said. "I can work as a waitress or something?" I suggested. "Hmm why not baby, I could think about getting a job too," Brendon said.

I heard Brendon's phone ring just as I was about to say something. Brendon answered the call and pressed his phone against his ear. "Hey was- dude dude Levi, hey hey calm down and slowly explain what happened?" Brendon said, his face instantly showing how worried he was. Brendon moved his phone away from his ear and putting the call on speaker.

"I- I don't know what happened, I don't know what to do, Theo's mom- I ugh fuck can you and Emma come over," Levi said, gasping for air as I felt my heart ache.

"Okay buddy hey just hold on for a couple of minutes, we are on our way right now," Brendon said quickly as Levi whispered okay and ended the call. Brendon and I ran out of the lighthouse and ran home. I pulled the car door open and slid into the passenger seat and put on my seatbelt. 

We didn't say anything the whole ride there, we both didn't know what to say or think or really know what to do. We just knew we had to get to Levi and we had to get to Levi quickly. 

Once we got into the driveway, Brendon and I jumped out and rushed into his house and up to his bedroom. Levi was sitting on the edge of the bed, his cheeks looked slightly swollen and they were bright red. So were his eyes. 

"What happened Levi?!" I asked, rushing towards him and hugging him tightly, rubbing his back. "I don't know, I don't even know why I'm freaking out about this," Levi blurted out quickly, all in one breath. He stopped and took a deep sharp breath as I sighed sympathetically. "What happened Levi?"

"Just breathe, slowly. Take deep breaths in and out," Brendon said as Levi did as he was told. After about a minute, Levi pulled away and stared at the floor. "I was at Theo's house earlier, his parents weren't home as usual and we were playing on the ps4 until Theo stopped and tried to kiss me," Levi said, stopping for a moment then continuing.

"We started making out and I was about to get his shirt off when his dad suddenly burst in the room, the second he saw me he- he got really mad, he was yelling and kicked me out, his mom forced him to calm down and stay in the house with Theo who was trying to get out and come to me but his dad didn't let him. His mom rushed out and she glared at me and told me to never talk to Theo again, that their son was perfect and he didn't need me planting any stupid ideas into his head because he is straight," He continues, his breath slowly getting faster. 

"I tried to tell her that not letting us see each other wasn't only going to hurt me but Theo too and that's when she lost her shit and a-and slapped me. I knew I couldn't stay there any longer so I left," He slowly finished explaining as Brendon and I looked at each other, knowing there wasn't any way we could help at the moment to make our best friend feel better. 

"Levi I- ugh I'm so sorry that happened, Theo is going to talk to his parents and things are going to work out, right now though, I know Theo would want you to stay strong for him, he needs you Levi alright?" I slowly said, starting the sentence with no clue where I was going with it. "I'm scared guys," He whispered as my eyes watered. Brendon just stood there as if he couldn't process anything Levi had just said. 

I couldn't imagine how horrible both Levi and Theo must feel right now. "I'm so tired," Levi whispered. "You should get some rest, Emma and I can stay here until you wake up then we can keep you company," Brendon said as I nodded, rubbing Levi's back. 

Levi stood up and pushed his blanket aside and slipped into bed, burying his face in the pillow. "Thanks guys, I love you," Levi mumbled before falling asleep. Brendon and I quietly walked out of his room and headed down to his living room. "Damn he must have been really tired," I said, not being able to stop my lips from forming back into a frown.

"I feel horrible, I'll go and check up on Theo if his parents let me. You should stay here baby, just in case for Levi," Brendon said as I nodded. He leaned down and pressed a kiss on my lips then gave me a sad smile then walking away. "Hey baby?" I called out right behind he got out of the house. "I'm sorry about earlier I-" 

"It's okay I love you Emma," Brendon said as I smiled weakly and said it back as he rushed out of the house.

Suddenly, I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket. I pulled it out and looked at the text message I got. There was no name. When I saw what they sent me, I froze. I shut my eyes tightly, the words 'this can't be happening' replaying over and over in my head.

I looked down at the picture and the text underneath it once again.

 'Cute couple, don't you think? Such a shame Theo's parents didn't think so.'

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Hey guys, I'm sorry. Idek what to say or think anymore, life f*cking sucks.

I hope you guys liked this chapter, do you think things with Levi and Theo is going to get better??

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