[Tom's Point Of View]

The happiness on Tord's face slowly faded away, sticking to my memory. He looked pained - as if someone had dug a knife through his chest. And in a way, someone did. He gasped for air, stuttering as he was choking to hold back tears.

God, I felt awful.

"I-I understand."

His voice was weary, as he quickly got up from the table and cleared his throat. "I expect to see you at the airport at 8 o'clock SHARP. I won't wait for you, Tom." He snapped, clenching his jaw. Standing up, he stormed out of the house leaving me behind.

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The flight back to base was quiet and gut wrenching. It was extremely awkward, especially when Tord moved a seat away from me so he wouldn't have to look at me.

I felt my stomach churn, as I began to regret what I said that morning.

'Dammit Tom, why did you say that?!'

Was it because I was scared of being loved by Tord? Was I scared of being in love?

Was it all happening so fast that I panicked at the thought of commitment?

Whatever the reason was, I cursed it under my breath, because now Tord couldn't even look me in the eye.

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Tick Tock

Tick Tock

Tick Tock

I stared up at the ceiling of my bedroom, feeling a gut-wrenching guilt burn inside of me. When we came back, I had tried to talk to Tord.

I wanted to make it right, I wanted another chance... But Tord didn't trust me anymore. He didn't love me anymore.

"Go away Tom, go do whatever you have to. Can't you see that I'm too busy for you?" Tord spat, glaring at me coldly. I bit my lip, feeling a lump in my throat. "Y-Yes Tord..." Tord turned around with a snarl. "It's Red Leader to you soldier." And with that, he walked away.

I opened my eyes again, feeling the tears burn from underneath my goggles. I let the tears fall, curling up to my side sobbing quietly.

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The days passed by slowly, killing me softly on the inside. I know it was killing Tord to because he was avoiding me.

He was so hurt that he even moved my room away from his, making us farther apart. I never saw him in the cafeteria anymore, it was like he was avoiding me. Anytime I came by his office, he'd scream at me to get out, giving me orders to keep me busy.

I hate this, I just wanted my Tord back. I wanted to go back to that morning, I wanted to fix things. I would jump up into Tord's arms and tell him I loved him, that I needed him. But I didn't, instead, I killed him.

And now it's killing me.

//Author: Sorry for the short chapter guys, I didn't really know what to do for the chapter RIP. ;-;
Anyways, I'll try to make the next chapter eventful uwu