no love
no pain
no hope
no suffering
no joy
no hate
no emotion
just nothing

***

I am blank.
I am nothing.

You were life.
You were everything.

I don't understand.
No one does.

You were there.
No one else was.

What do I do?
I sit in my chair.

I don't think.
I am just robotic.

What should I do?
I should feel.

I should grieve.
But I can't.

Why am I like this?
I want to feel.

I want to LIVE.
I want you to live again.

***

Part of me 
LOVES.
Another
ANGERS.
Another is
BITTER.
I am impossibly
PAINED
But, most of all, I am
HOPEFUL.