Blazon Acosta (Azon) POV

It has been five years. Five years of being MU. Magisang umaasa. Five years of hoping and trying to move on. But the more I tried the more wasted I become. Is it hard to move on or It is me who wants to hold on. Hoping that he will comeback. Comeback here in my arms. But for five years even his shadow haven't showed up. Stupid am I? How can I see his shadow if his not around.

Do you know the feeling that you gave all you have but still he chose to let go without me knowing why? As far as I remember we are okay that time. I just wake up and boom he left. He left with his original girl. Later did I know, I'm his mistress.

Honestly, I haven't moved on. Actually I wanted to move on so badly and god knew that. But deep inside this heart of mine refuses, always. I'm not this drama queen before. Before until he came into my life. I was caught off guard. And that's why I look wasted now. Different from the Albie five years ago.

For five years my life revolves around smoking and drinking. My family was disappointed with me. Because I haven't reach their expectations, to work in our company. I remember I graduated college with flying colors because he was my inspiration. It's just so sad to think that it's only in the past now. Not the present nor the future. And I am tired of this, thinking of him.

I saw him yesterday. He looks good, better than five years ago. He have a accompany, his fiance. That "original girl"  I am talking about. I'm thinking does karma didn't revenge for me. Looks like I am the one who's karma revenging. I am so furious. Very furious of myself. I can't bear to see him with another woman. Is this love or obsession?

I am here in the hospital of the village. Lately I don't feel good. And then there is this hunk doctor. He seems familiar but I can't remember him. He seems shocked we he saw me too. He invited me inside to discuss his findings. And so we went inside.

"Ms. Albie D'ealta, my findings says that you have small-cell carcinoma. It's a highly malignant cancer that mostly arise within lung and also in cervix, prostate and gastrointestinal track. And in your condition nasa extensive stage ka na." Sabi ni Doc Alfrench.

"So, mamatay na pala ako. Okay." Sabi ko.

I already expect it. I'm a heavy smoker and drinker. Maybe this is the way to end this sadness of mine.

"Well you can do second opinion. There are also medications so don't lose hope." Sabi ni Doc.

After that I already made my decision. I visited the church. For the past five years I haven't been going to church. I am here not to ask help but say thank you for soon to be end of my sadness. And also confessed my sins. I also visited the places we usually go five years ago, supposedly I am crying but no tears escaped my eye. And my last stop is home.

"Everyone listen up I'm saying something." Sabi ko. And on cue they gathered.

"I have small-time carcinoma and I don't want any medication." Sabi ko.

As expected from my family, all of them negated. But no one can stop me. This is my escape so I should take this for granted. All of them started nagging. My parents, siblings and other relatives. They don't understand. No one understands me. In the middle of discussion someone came. It's the hunk doctor of the village.

"Who are you mister?" Tanong ni Dada.

"I'm the doctor that Ms. D'ealta visited few hours ago. And I am very for the wrong info." Sabi niya.

What the?! Gasps are all around the corner. What supposed to be the info then?

"She wasn't diagnosed with small-cell carcinoma but she's just...."

"What? Is it even more dangerous cancer?" sabi ni Moma.

"She's.... just..... pregnant. And I think I have something to do with this." Sabi niya.

What the!? And what's the meaning of I have something to do with this? Does that mean that's his acknowledge that it was his fault that he gave me the wrong info? But he already did. So I approached him and ask what was the last statement mean?

"I'm the father of the child in your womb. Why? Remember two months ago? Barisita bar?" Sabi niya in a whisper.

Barisita bar? Two months ago? What the hell?! Now I remember! He was the man. Oh God! The man who got my virginity! And that explains why he looks so familiar.

"But how can you conclude that you are the father of this fetus?"

"Our baby is exactly two months inside your womb and that fucking of ours happens to be two months ago exactly too."

So that explains.

"Everyone I have something to do with this pregnancy of your precious princess because I was the one who is responsible for it. And I think that the baby should have a complete family so I think we should get married. As soon as possible." Sabi niya.

What in the world?!?! I spaced out. And the last thing I knew my relatives agreed. Wow! Just wow. They never ask my side.