I would be lying if i say i had sleep yesterday , all i could think if was kasim . I didn't know what to do with the information but i knew i had to keep it a secret from everyone . Because it would cost his life

I immediately looked up as dilara woke me up from my daydreaming

" The trailor has sent the dresses you sent and they are all ready should i let them come " i nodded still deconcentrated

The door opened revealing five maids each one of them holding 2 different dresses .

I asked them to put them down and leave , i could see they were shocked since i adored checking out my new dresses .

" Sultanum you weren't fine even yesterday what's wrong ? " dilara took a seat next to me as she noticed expressions on my face  .

Dilara was more than a servant to me she was a sister and like a mother to me so i immediately told her everything .

She couldn't help but get shocked too

" Sultanum this is a very dangerous secret , it will shake down the whole palace " she said quietly

" that's why no one should know about it " i said putting a hand on my forehead .

" Now you should get ready sultan murad has invited you all for breakfast in the garden " i nodded before getting up from my bed .

It didn't take me a lot of time to get ready , i made sure to put one of my best dresses for this occassion . I put my crown up and checked  myself one last time

The door bursted open revealing ahmed and hanzade together while ibrahim was behind them

" Aunt " they both ran towards me and i kneeled down to be able to hug them both

" How are you so energetic today " i looked at them giving them a bright smile

" Ibrahim good morning " i spoke to ibrahim who smiled

" we should now go right " he asked getting their attention

" Where is ayse ? " i said asking ibrahim

" She - uhm " i immediately understood what he meant , she obviously spent the night with murad .

" Come on let's go , who's turn is it today " i asked the two little ones

" it's mine " hanzade jumped while i could see ahmed pouting in the side

" Come here , your uncle is going to take care of you .let them be late " ahmed ran towards ibrahim

" We are going to be there earlier than you " ahmed made a grimace to his sister before leaving with ibrahim

" Isn't it too cold for you my dear ? " i asked looking at hanzade's dress .

" A little " i looked over at my maids and ordered them to get her a cap .

We played for some moments until my maid arrived with a cap in her hands , i immediately took it and tied it around hanzade .

"Now we are ready " i said carrying her in my arms .

I left the room followed by my maids and immediately headed to the garden . The table was already settled and everyone was there except for murad and ayse . Even farya was there

I put hanzade down

" ahmed and selim are waiting for you , go play with them " she nodded but before she could go

" wait i will take the cap off you so you can play freely " i said untying her cap and gave it to my maid .

Hanzade ran towards her cousin and brother while i headed to the table . I bowed to kosem sultan before taking my place next to gevherhan .

" good morning " i told them and they all smiled at me except for atike and gevhehran who were exchanging looks .

I didn't know what was wrong anymore , kasim's story on a side and now my two sister's weird behavior . Some seconds later Ayse joined and bowed to us and kissed kosem sultan's hand before taking a seat next to atike .

" princess , i hope everything is going great for you " i said to farya who was looking around the garden

" Thank you , with your warm welcoming i felt like i was home " farya warmly smiled

" you're going home anyways " i could hear ayse whisper under her breath ,i gave her a look which made her look down immediately.

We all chatted for a bit when the agha announced murad's arrival , everyone including kosem sultan got up bowing to murad who was coming followed by silahtar .

He walked to his seat in the corner of the table and sat , then ordered us to sit too .

Ayse immediately went to bring hanzade and ahmed next to her while selim was brought next to his mother .

" Good morning " murad said making us all look at him

" Good morning " we responded , after he made sure everyone responded her ordered us to start eating .

We all started eating quietly before humasah sultan spoke

" the greatest feeling is to share the table with the whole family " she said proudly looking at us

"We are delighted by your staying here " Murad responded making her chuckle

" We should still visit so many places " Kosem sultan smiled at her

" I will go hunting soon with my brothers , you can all go with us if you want " murad said glancing at our brothers

I looked at them and they all looked uncomfortable , they couldn't trust murad .

" It will be a very good idea " humasah sultan said happily

As everyone was talking i could catch a glance of the hidden lover of kasim , she was approaching our table to add some water.

My eyes met beyazid's who was sitting infront of me and we both tried to not look suspicious .

The girl arrived to the table and as kasim was seating last in the table he avoided to not make it obvious .

As the girl started pouring water on the glasses her body fell down the floor . We all gasped not knowing what to do

The maids immediately rushed to her and.kosem sultan's face started heating up . She personally stood up and walked towards the girl

" lalezar kalfa take her to the doctor " kosem sultan spoke then whispered something before they carried the girl away .