I dont know how long i have been here. Here in this hill with nothing but weapons i copied around me.

My ideals betray me

I have no one to talk to.

I ended being insane.

I wished for my end. That is the only way my suffering will end.

But there is no end.

I stabbed myself with these swords. But its no use.

If only i can kill myself

If only i can go back and kill this kid

I should have realize that there is no value of saving lives since i cant save all of them

I ended up killing some, to save others

This is not what i dream for. All I ever wanted is everyone to be save.

The hero of justice is nothing but an impossible dream. A lie

I curse myself

There was one moment in my life when i was dying

I wish i got myself killed that night. The night i stabbed by lancer

I wouldnt reach this far if that someone just let me die.

I couldnt see this someone's face. But i remeber the glowing necklace. And this necklace was there when i wake up and still alive.

I had it with me ever since till i die.

And even as a counter guardian. I still had this necklace with me.

I wonder who save my life.

Then i suddenly hear a call.
The holy grail is calling me.

Then there was a light. I reach for it.

The next thing i know. I crashed myself into a room.

Damn it. Who summon me?!?!

I stand up and wipe out the dust in my clothes

Im pissed.

Then i hear a familiar voice on her way to this room

Dont tell me that's...

I panicked. I close the door. I broke the doorknob. Then i place a lot of obstacle in the door.

I went to the mirror. I still look like that kid even if my skin is tan and my hair is white.

I hurriedly style my hair up. Then i clear my throat and try to make sounds of an old man. This sound will do.

I find a place to sit.

Rin finally broke the door and went in.

She still looked the same rin i remember.

Who would ever thought she is my way of my salvation?