hahaaa
crushes.

except really I've liked this guy for 9 months so like when do i cross the line into "being in love" territory?

Not yet obviously.

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he reminds me of myself in a spooky way.

like today he was reluctant to tell me his test score because he did better than me.
That's such a me thing.
Not wanting people to envy me or feel bad about themselves.

Still think he cheated but at least he's not admitting to it.

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Isn't it funny how a crush can form from a thought?

Like in May, after getting over a teeny tiny crush I had, I was like, "Wouldn't it be funny if I started crushing on his best friend?"

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I've liked every blonde boy in my class at this point except for one.
Who I really dislike sometimes and my best friend likes so like.
Nah

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Don't wanna be in a relationship cuz communication is hard.
I feel like I just need to find the right person.
Because I actually do want a relationship.
Just not one like the one I had two years ago.

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He looks really cute with his hood up.
I don't know why.

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We were watching Wall-E today and during one of the "electrical" scenes he turned to talk to one of the boys at my table and I swore the boy he was talking to glanced at me.

Or maybe I'm just imagining things.

Probably.

I'd imagine anything to try to convince myself he likes me back.

We barely talk.

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hA hA OCtObEr 10 i aM gOiNg tO yEeT mYseLf iNto tHe sUn

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Me in May: haha crushless
Me in June: it's summer but like that dude in my class last year was cute.
Me in August: wow what an a**hole.
Me in September: gOd yOu're sEndIng mE mIxeD sIngaLs
Me in October: frick i still like him.
Me in December: Ima get over him.
Me first week of January; haha crusless.

Samantha last week or two: You don't like him anymore. Right?
Me: yeah no.

Me now: hahahhahahhahahah yeahhhhhbbhh

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Sorry I'm talkative today and no one else wants to hear me rant about this.
So i put it on a publicly available site where anyone who doesn't want to read this can!

uh yeah I'm straight and dying can someone like
give me his phone number?