Ch - 69

Sidharth sitting in a same position whole night, without closing his eyes for a second. He only think about one thing, that how will she react after knowing everything. Did she really going to hate him so much? His heart is aching from inside by the thought that his princess will hate him but also know that he can bear that hate for her own safety.

At the time kushal get to know about the thing, he talk with kashish but in all way there's no chance of her surviving as a human. And changing her into werewolf is also not possible with having babies inside her. After changing for first time, ones need to bear the extreme pain like someone broke every single bone of your body. With babies it is highly chances miscarriage which is not good for the human also.

So there's no way, and he will never wants to change her into a vampire. Don't want to snatch her human life from her, he knows very well that if somehow she change into something than never will be happy. No matter how much she pretend because never want to be one. He can never snatch her human life from her, will do every possible thing to save her.

Why can't they leave alone without babies? Kushal and aastha are also very happy in their lives without anyone, because being a vampire she can't get pregnant and there's no miracle happening in their lives. He have to make her understand that whatever he done is the best thing for them.

He is engrossed in his thinking when suddenly heard her voice, "Sidharth." Blinking eyes he look at her who open her eyes slowly, "Princess, are you fine? Is there any pain?" Sana look at him in confusion for some seconds then remember where she was before getting unconscious? And how was the situation.

With shivering hands she hold her stomach, her breath stuck on throat after feels that there's nothing. Eyes filled with numerous tears, she move her wet eyelashes at her flat stomach and a loud son escape from her mouth. No matter how much sidharth prepared himself for all those things but seeing her, his stomach crunched with pain.

Controlling himself he going to hold her hand when she jerk his hand off and says by sitting on the bed, "Don't you dare to touch me with your bloody hands?" He is taken aback by her sudden reaction, his heart drop at the moment when she ask him to not touch his princess. Fresh tears drop start flowing from his eyes, but he have to face this. She can't understand anything at this point of time, because she is only thinking as a mother without knowing the other things.

He pressed his lips to control himself and says, "Princess, listen.. " Sana cut him in between and yanked on him by grabbing his collar, "There's nothing left to listen sidharth, like always you did what you want to? Why the hell you putting your decisions on everyone? How could you kill...your own..babies? How sidharth? I hate you."

He look at her with broken heart, his heart is socked after heard all this from her mouth. Whatever he done because he love her, an unconditional , enduring, a love that has literally no boundaries. A love where he can only think about her, didn't give any single  thought to other things. But this is not his fault, he keeping his promise to protect her from every situation and will always do.

Taking a breath he says by looking towards her eyes, "Princess, please listen to me once. I don't have any other option, you couldn't survive with the babies. There's high chances of miscarriage and if anyhow i would shiphon the pain but still it's not possible to deliver eight werewolve babies. If there was one, we could handle that but in all this eventually you would di...die at the end."

"Then let me dei, at least i could had save my babies. But you didn't gave me the chance to decide anything." Said sana by looking at the other side. Sidharth nodded in no and says, "There's not any guarntee that babies would deliver safely. You wanted me to stand there and see my life go away from me, you know i can't live without you and this is not only for saying i will literally die if you go away from me."

Sana close her eyes and says, "Please leave from here sidharth i want to live alone sometimes and seriously not want to see your face right now. Just leave me alone." Nodded he get up from the chair and says with wet eyes, "Think once about me, which you never does before thinking of harming yourself." He leave before close the door.

A loud sob escape from her mouth, she hold her flat stomach and start crying badly. Getting down from bed she lock the door and thumped on the floor, "Ahahahnn... Why? Why i can't be happy for more time? Why every time this is happening with me? Why you did this sidharth? One who bring me back from the darkness is again filled darkness in my life why?... I hate you,,...." She lay on the floor and crying miserably.

Sidharth is sitting outside the door  brokenhearted completely from inside, he is blank for sometime after heard that she blame him for giving darkness in her life. Her loud sobs is piercing thousands of needles inside his heart, never ever he thought to push her in a darkness. He just want to save her life nothing else, he know she will be angry but never thought that she'll said all this.

Now he is angry on himself for pushing her in the darkness, wiping tears he get up , wear his hoodie and move outside. After sometimes reached a street fighting match, a place where tailor used to win but today he is not here to win. Standing in a centre he stand there and says, "Beat me until your hands not getting tired, and use other things not hands".

First all look at him with weird and confusion faces but then start beating with one by one. But himself got hurt because of his stone body, groaning in anger everyone together start beating him with rods, he bend down on his keens. Blood start oozing, after sometimes they stop and go from there because he didn't utter a single word.

He winced in pain for sometimes than all healed automatically. Here sana is sitting under the shower by folding her knees and crying she suddenly remember that what words utter from her mouth unintentionally, he can never bring darkness in her life. She said all this in anger and emotions.

He was the one who spread happiness in her dull dark life, bear extreme pain for her , he can never think for a once to give her the darkness back. Nor she can hate him ever, because of the love and mate bond and also they have a special bond of all past lives. But that doesn't mean she forgive him so easily, the flashes of her baby bump didn't go away from her eyes.

Once suddenly she feels an unknown pain inside her heart, and she knows very well what it could be. Definitely he is hurt, that's why she can feel the pain but it's stop after sometimes. Shrugging all thoughts away she change herself and come to the room, just then she realise that this a different place not their room.

Frowning she looks outside and saw snowfall but it's a also a different place. After sometimes aastha knock and come inside with food, sana said no directly but she forcefully made her eat. She can feel now that sidharth is not there, wanted to ask but didn't. Aastha feed her and tell everything that happened in all the time. Sana is shocked to hear that, he leave his pack also for her.

But still didn't say anything and lay down on the bed. Sidharth come to the room at night look at her sleeping face for sometimes and go to the room besides her. He dare to not go near her because now he think that his presence will spread darkness in her life. She open her eyes when feel loss of his presence but didn't say anything.

Two week passed like this, he daily go and ask to beat himself wants to feel the pain physically, just saw her from outside all the time. Her words are stuck on his mind and heart. She feel that weird pain everytime, and saw him by the corner of her eyes that he just look at her from outside even whole night also.

She didn't say anything because want him to come and fight with her like always, make her understand the things but didn't do anything. Since when aastha told her that you didn't need  anyone else to live the whole life, two people's love is enough to spend the whole life. At the time, when kushal asks her for mate he knows very well that they can never have any baby but both are still happy with each other.

And sidharth can never survive without her, does she want him to die? She thinks all this and decided to talk with him, because in all this thing, he only think about saving her life. She always know that his love is can never be compare to hers. Everytime he keep her first but she never does. But not this time, she will only think about him and his happiness nothing else.

Now she have only him , so better to forget all bad memories and start a fresh new life with him. Wiping her tears she rush to kushal and asks, "Where is sidharth?" Kushal close his eyes and says, "If you are going to made him feel more worse than let it be please." Sana narrows her brows and says, "What are you saying? I.. I want to talk to him and tell that let's start everything fresh."

Kushal told her all the things that he done since two weeks, tears start flowing from her eyes by heard that how much pain he keep bearing from all this time. But she will bring him back and will never let give himself pain like this. Taking a breath she rush towards the place with kushal.

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