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(y/n)'s POV
Tap.

I slowly opened my eyes to the faint sound of a tap. I stayed cuddle under my blankets with Josie snoring lightly next to me as I listened to see if what I heard was real, or if it was simply apart of my dream realm that leaked into reality.

After a few silent seconds, my heavy eyelids began to close - then I heard it again.

Tap.

My eyes snapped open once more when I heard the clear sound of something hitting against my window.

My initial thought is that it was Anakin, but I highly doubted that since we already saw each other just a few hours ago, and we planned to see each other again at noon tomorrow. But then again, I wouldn't put it past him to show up again.

Tap.

I glanced to Josie and she was dead asleep with her mouth hung open ajar as she drooled onto the pillow - her snores consistent but quiet.

Piett sure is a lucky man..

Not wanting to disturb her for what could easily be Anakin's impatient nature, I slowly moved out from under the covers and placed my feet firmly on the floor.

The wooden boards underneath my steps creaked as I inched closer to the window, but I could still hear Josies snores - so I knew I hadn't woken her up with the piercing noise.

I reached the window and lifted it up, before poking my head out, only to be hit between the eyes with a hard pebble, "Ow!" I whisper shouted as I shot my hand to the space on my skin that began to throb.

"Oh shit, I'm sorry!" I heard the late night disturber and I immediately dropped my hand down to glare at his unwanted presence. The pain suddenly being the least of my problems.

"What the hell are you doing here Clovis?" I snapped in annoyance at my ex who was gazing up at me with his blue eyes - wearing the exact jacket I got him for his seventeenth birthday a few months ago.

He placed his hands in his pockets as he nervously shuffled his feet on the grass, "Can we talk?"

I shook my head, "No." I went to pull my head back in and slam the window shut, but his next words stopped me.

"I won't come again," He shouted quickly before I could close it, and I glanced over to make sure Josie hasn't woken up, "If you please just give me five minutes. I promise I'll leave you alone for good after tonight."

I stood there with with my hands on the window, debating on closing it and going back to bed. But the idea of him leaving me alone to live my life without the constant reminder of not being good enough, was tempting.

So I sighed heavily and stuck my head back out, "I'll meet you up front." I pulled myself back in and softly closed the window.

I folded my arms over my chest after closing my front door to keep myself warm from the cold night air, "You have five minutes and I already started counting." I addressed Clovis who was already on my porch and leaning on the wooden pilar by the short steps.

He nodded, "I wanted to tell you how sorry I am," He lifted his red eyes to meet mine, and just as he did - the wind picked up and the smell of alcohol reached my nose.

I took one step back, "Are you drunk?" I asked with furrowed brows.

He nodded again as he swallowed thickly, "Seeing you kissing him," He spat in disgust, "Wasn't easy for me so I left the diner and drank alone in my car—with these." He turned around and picked up a box that was previously hidden from me behind the deck.

He stepped towards me and dropped it at my feet. I instantly took notice that it was a box full of my things. Shirts left at his house, a hair brush that was left in his car, movie stub tickets and receipts from our date nights that I insisted on keeping for memories, and the blue jersey I always wore to his games for goodluck.

So many memories were inside of this box, memories that I'd rather not hold onto anymore since all they did was bring me pain, "Thanks for bringing this, but I don't really want—"

"You were a good girlfriend," He cut me off as he leaned his back against the wood again, probably to keep himself from stumbling over. I checked behind him to make sure he didn't drive here and judging by the fact that I couldn't see his car - he must've walked, "An amazing one actually. I took you for granted, and for that I'm really sorry." He dropped his gaze to the floor and I took notice to the water in his eyes.

"If I was so amazing," I took small steps closer, "Why the hell did you cheat on me, for an entire year?" Although I appreciated the apology, I wasn't sure if I wanted to accept it. I don't think he deserved for me to accept it.

He exhaled heavily as he closed his eyes, "I don't know, I was really drunk when it first happened and I regretted it so much," He opened his eyes to look at me and I could see the guilt in them, "I was going to tell you, but when I saw you the next day you looked happy to see me. I didn't want to hurt you or take that smile away."

"Well you did anyway."

"I know, but let me finish explaining," He sighed, "So I decided that I wasn't going to tell you and so I went to Celeste to make sure she would keep her mouth shut, but she said that she was going to tell you later that day in class." He rolled his eyes, and I vaguely remember having history with her that year, "And I thought that if I seduced her again, that I could keep her from telling you, and it eventually just became a recurring thing. Then as more time passed these feelings for her developed, and I was also feeling guilty for what I was doing to you - so I just thought being with her was the easier choice."

(^^One of my ex's from high school did this so yes some men are in fact this dumb 😂 and for my Mad Love readers; this is a different ex...yes I know, I have terrible taste in men. I can't catch a break 🤷🏻‍♀️)

I narrowed my eyes, "That is the dumbest thing I have ever heard."

"I never said I was fucking smart (y/n)," He shrugged as he threw his hands in the air with wide, annoyed eyes.

I immediately pinched the bridge of my nose, this conversation was giving me a new form of anxiety, "I would have preferred that you told me Clovis," I groaned, dropping my hand back down, "At least then maybe we could have tried to work it out."

He took a step back with surprise in his eyes, "You wouldn't have left me?"

"No, or I don't know," I groaned in frustration as I threw my hands in the air the same way before exhaling. Despite the cheating we were good together, we were a lot  alike, "You didn't even give me the damn chance to figure it out Clovis," I nearly shouted in exasperation, "You automatically assumed the worst of me, completely forgetting how much of an understanding person that I am," I placed my hand on my chest as I stepped closer, resisting the urge to slap him, "If it was a one time thing that you regretted and instantly came clear to me about - then maybe I would have tried to work it out with you, maybe." I began to make multiple hand gestures as I ranted and he stood there in silence, listening to every word. The regret in his gaze spreading as each second went by, "But no, instead you decided to continuously cheat to keep me from finding out that you were cheating, which makes no damn sense to me by the way. And now you're with her because that was easier than being honest with me? You're so...stupid." I dropped my hands back to my side with a head shake - staring at him in disbelief.

He nodded to everything I was saying, "I messed up, I know," He ran his hands through his hair, "But I still love you, and I think about you all the time," He tried to get closer to me but I backed away. Those words are exactly what I was dying to hear from him before, but I can't look at him the same anymore—not after everything I've come to learn.

"You should go, your five minutes ended a long time ago," I reached behind me and grabbed ahold of the door handle.

Tears fell down his cheeks, "No (y/n), I want to be with you. I know I made a huge mistake, and I definitely made the wrong choice, I should have been honest. So please let me fix this—I miss you so much." He begged for me, nearly falling to his knees, and I'm sure he would have if he thought it would help his case.

I shook my head, tears pooling in my eyes as well. Say what you want, but this man is still my first love, so walking away from him for good - hurt, "We're done Clovis, those three years are something I'll always cherish, but I can't be with you knowing what you've done. I'm moving on now, and you should continue to do so with Celeste." I twisted the knob and backed up to get into my house.

"With Skywalker?" He shook his head as he spoke his name with hostility, instantly angering me, "You do know he's an attempted murderer right; how is he better for you than me?"

"He hasn't lied to me," I angrily stepped back out onto the porch, feeling the need to defend Anakin, "He hasn't made me feel like an idiot by cheating for a whole year," Celeste and her friends used to stare at me in the halls, and now I know why, they were fucking laughing at me, "He doesn't forget about me and instead remembers every plan we make and is never late to see me, he'll he even go out of his way to make time for me - he makes me feel special and important - and he put me back together when you left me broken, and feeling worthless." I poked his chest harshly making him stumble backwards and almost trip down the steps, but he gripped onto the wooden pilar for support, "So I don't care that he made a mistake; it's one that he opened up to me about instead of lying, and one that he regrets."

"One?" Clovis tilted his head with furrowed, "Just one mistake?" He help up his index finger, "Is that what he told you, because baby - I have a list." He dug his hand into his jacket pocket and pulled out a crumpled up paper that I'm sure he asked his lawyer father to somehow get for him.

I'm aware that there may be more to Anakin's record than that one incident, but the attempted murder is the only one we were talking about right now. So it frustrated me that he was trying to bring more into it, and completely invading Anakin's privacy.

"That's a huge invasion of privacy Clovis, I don't want to hear it." I turned to go back into the house, but he grabbed my arm and pushed me against the house - not allowing me to leave.

"Attempted murder," He began to read from the list as his grip kept me in place, "Assault and battery, drug possession, public indecency," He spun the paper around and held it in for of me, Anakin's mug shot was in the corner in black and white, he looked kind of cute if you ignore the drugged-out look in his eyes, "And he has more than one DUI. I doubt he even still has his license, yet you're always on that motorcycle with him."

I grabbed the paper from him and crumpled it, throwing it into the box of possessions he brought, "Let go of me, or I'll scream and Josie's right upstairs."

At the mention of my psychotic best friend, he released his hold on me, "How can you ignore everything I just said? He's a dangerous guy to be around. He's not good for you."

"And you are?" I shook my head slowly in disbelief - not being phased by what I was just told, "Anakin is a changed person, a good person. I don't care what you or that paper says. He is good for me, and he makes me happy."

"Fine," Clovis backed away and took slow steps down my porch stairs, "But don't come running back to me when that fucking drape puts his hands on you, because that's what men like him do; beat their girlfriends blue."

His words didn't affect me, I know that kind of person Anakin is, and I know Clovis is just lashing out because of my rejection, "Jealousy isn't cute on you Clovis. You made your moronic choice to be with Celeste, so don't come over here and attack me just because I'm learning my worth." I stepped into my house and prepared to close the door, his eyes holding a look of guilt and regret over the words he spoke to me, "You're drunk so I'll give you a pass for your rude comments, and you can give me a real apology if you choose to when you're sober." I went to close the door, but I briefly paused, "And for the record he wouldn't hurt me like that, you don't know him - so don't judge him. Get home safe." I finally slammed the door shut and locked it.

I pressed my hands against the wood and leaned my forehead against it while breathing out my nerves - suppressing tears, "I'm proud of the way you handled yourself babe, I thought I was going to have to go out there with this." I jumped at the voice and spun around to see Josie holding one of my kitchen knives.

I quickly reached for it and pulled it out of her hand, "Have I ever told you that I think you're unstable?" I uttered in disbelief.

She nodded before stretching and dragging out a long yawn, "Many times, but you love me anyway." She dropped her hands down with a smile.

I chuckled with a nod, "So, how much did you hear?"

"Around the time he began to explain why he cheated," She scrunched her nose in disgust, "Jesus he must have hit his head one too many times in football to think that that made any sense."

"Right?" I laughed with a head shake, until my laughter slowly died down and I dropped my gaze to the floor, "Am I stupid for feeling sad right now? I mean I'm happy with the way my life is going, and Anakin is so amazing. But Clovis was three years of my life, and it feels...painful to know that it's finally over for good."

"No babe, you're only stupid if you get back with him," She placed her hand on my shoulder for comfort and led me towards the kitchen, "That chapter that was once special to you is now closing and it's normal to feel sorrowful, that was a huge part of your life - you wouldn't be human if it didn't sting. But now it's time for you to embrace this new chapter that's coming," She gestured for me to sit on the stool in front of my kitchen island, and I did as she requested, "You were right for what you said to him, Anakin is good for you - despite his colorful past. But he's learned from his mistakes and he's not like that anymore, he doesn't even drink if you noticed."

I nodded, I did notice. He rejected any beer that was offered to him at the beach that night.

"He's sweet with you, and I know that he really likes and cares about you. Plus that kiss you described sounded hot as hell," She placed a mug in front of me, and another in-front of her as she began digging through my drawers, "Kind of as hot as this hot chocolate is about to be." She pulled out the hot cocoa powder with an enormous smile on her face.

"I knew that's what you were looking for." I chuckled, "But you're right, he and I spoke and we plan to go slow and learn more about each other before jumping into it or adding labels. I do like him though, a lot." My earlier nerves were suddenly replaced by butterflies as I pictured that gorgeous smile, and his lips on mine. I already miss him, now I understand why he comes to see me often.

"That sounds perfect," She nodded as she began to pour the powdered chocolate into our mugs, "I do have one question though, and I'm not jumping to conclusions or anything because I know you. So I'm sure there's some kind of explanation for this especially for you to look past it," She finished pouring the powder into the mugs and began heating up the warm water. She must truly be tired because she normally heats them up together, "But," She turned to face me with a raised brow, "Attempted murder?"

I instantly bit the inside of my cheek, and hesitated on telling her since it's not my story to tell. But as Anakin said before, people are beginning to find out - so it's better for her to hear it from me than from someone else who will most likely twist the story to make it seem worse.

So I began to tell her, and just as I had hoped - there was no hint of judgement in her eyes, only sympathy.

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Sorry there was no Anakin in this one, but there will be plenty of him in the next one hehe.
Hope you enjoyed it!🤍
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