To my RRs who know certain things about this Anakin by now, and as temping as it's going to be please let's not spoil it in the comments for my FTR 💛

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(y/n)'s POV
I hugged my pillow tight to my chest while staring out of my window, watching the birds fly without a care in the world. I've hardly moved from this spot in nearly three days; it hurt to move, it hurt to breathe. I was completely and utterly devastated.

My world felt like it had stopped spinning, and my heart was shattered into infinite pieces.

Clovis broke up with me. After nearly three years together, he just up and left. What makes it even worse is that he left me for someone else, like I never even mattered to him.

I couldn't help but ask myself all the questions a grieving teenage girl asks when she gets her heart broken. Why wasn't I good enough for him? How can he replace me so easily after all we have been through? Did he ever love me? How long has he been thinking of her? Did he cheat on me with her? Is something wrong with me?

That's only a fraction of the aching questions that are currently swirling in my mind. Most people are going to come and say; 'it's not your fault', or 'there's nothing you could have done differently'. But when you're on the grieving end of things, it's nearly impossible not to feel that way.

My tears soaked the pillow as I replayed some of our happiest memories, something I shouldn't be doing. But I couldn't help it, it's only been three days and I missed him so much. The pain of imagining him with someone else was damn near unbearable. This wasn't fair to me, I did everything for him, even planned my future around his dreams. I didn't deserve this, and now I had no idea what to do with myself. I put all of me into him and our relationship, so now I feel empty, purposeless.

I was pulled away from my agonizing thoughts by the sound of my bedroom door opening, and hitting the wall a little too aggressively. I sighed quietly to myself, there's only one person in my life that barges in here without knocking.

"I gave you three days to sulk." My best friend, Josie, grabbed ahold of my blanket and pulled it off of me, "It's time for you to get up, stop crying, and remember who you are." She bent down next to me so our faces were parallel to each other's.

"I need more than three days to get over a nearly three year relationship Josie," I sighed, burying my face back into my pillow, "What does this girl have that I don't?" I don't even know who it was, he refused to give me a name. He just said that he fell in love with someone else, and in turn, fell out of love with me.

I felt Josie brushing her fingers through my hair to soothe me, "It's not about you (y/n), he's an asshole. You were always too good for him and he knew that."

"You're just saying that to try and make me feel better," I accused in a muffled tone due to my face being pushed into the pillow.

She sighed, tapping on my cheek so I would unbury my face and meet her determined gaze, "I think now is a good time to tell you that I never liked him." She revealed with a shrug.

I furrowed my brows; surprised by this revelation. We used to hang out together all the time and I never once got the vibe that she disliked him, "Why?"

She shook her head, "He was selfish, self-centered, narcissistic—and not in a charming way either, but in an asshole 'I'm better than everyone else' way," She mocked him in a deep voice and I breathed a small laugh. She always managed to make me smile, "He forgot about your birthday twice, even though you always remembered his. He told the entire football team when you lost your virginities to each other, and then proceeded to get black-out drunk during prom where he disappeared, and left you stranded without a ride home." She stood up during her angered rant where her voice began to raise with every word.

I followed her with my gaze, and I was speechless; I had no idea what to say. Mostly because everything she said was true, all those things happened and I had no defense for them.

I've been sitting here thinking about all the good things about him, and ignoring the bad; picturing him as this perfect guy. I loved him yes, but he wasn't the greatest at times.

"He had you plan your entire future around him, and he never bothered to ask what you wanted. So you know what babe? This is a blessing in disguise, and now it's time for you to live for yourself," She grabbed ahold of my arm, and pulled me up to my feet before I had a chance to protest her demands, "So get the fuck up, because we're going out tonight."

I wanted to argue with her so I could stay in my bed, because despite the shitty things he's done, I was still in love with him. I felt like there was a gaping hole in my chest.

But, if there's anyone more stubborn than me, it's definitely her, and I have no way of winning this, "Fine," I sighed in defeat. I figured I'd get this over with, then I could come back home and cry alone some more, "Where are we going?"

She smiled as she stepped over to my closet, and began rummaging through my clothes, "Rex," Her brother, who was also a close friend of mine, "Invited us to a bonfire tonight at the beach. I told him what happened and he insisted we go, and there will be alcohol if you want to drink your sorrows away." She joked, while pulling out an outfit for me.
(The picture on top is what I had in mind for the outfit, you can choose either one, or imagine something completely different; it's really up to you 😘)

"And who's going to be there?" I asked, watching her while she laid the outfit on the bed, before going to the bottom of my closet and picking out shoes.

She shrugged, standing up with a pair in her hands, "I'm not entirely sure, just a few of his friends from school, and his best friend I think. Clovis won't be there if that's what's on your mind." She assured me, even though I already knew he wouldn't be.

"I know," Rex doesn't exactly hang out with the type of crowd that Clovis likes to be around, thankfully. So I know that tonight, I should be safe from his presence.

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I sat in a circle of chairs that all surrounded the fire pit, enjoying the heat from the flame. For it being a summer night, it was cold, luckily I was wearing long sleeves and pants or else I'd be freezing right now.

"Want one?" Rex held out a bottle of beer towards me with a sympathetic smile. We've been here for about an hour already and I've hardly spoken to anyone besides Josie, who was currently in conversation with Rex's best friend next to her.

I shook my head, denying him politely, "No thanks, I have to work tomorrow and I'd rather not be hungover on my first day back."

He nodded, setting it down next to my feet, "Well it's right here if you change your mind." He shot me a warm smile before turning towards his best friend, his face immediately dropping into a scowl, "Padme, how many of those have you had?" He asked with a heavy sigh.

She gave him a drunken smile, "I don't know, enough to hit on your sister." She giggled, and Josie and I joined her.

Rex snatched the half-empty bottle from Padmé's hand and she gave him an annoyed glare, "Unlike you, my sister is straight, so go hit on the group over there if you want a shot." He pointed to a group of girls around another bonfire about ten feet away from us. Padme eyed the group for a moment before attempting to stand up, only for Rex to push her back down, "I was kidding, sit your drunken ass down."

"You're such a grandpa sometimes," She huffed in annoyance, "When are the fun ones getting here?"

"Right now," Someone spoke as they hugged Padme from behind. I immediately recognized the guy from the other night—Piett I think his name was, "How's my favorite rainbow girl doing?" He asked, kissing the top of her hair.

She chuckled as she tilted her head up to look at him, "I told you to stop calling me that."

"I think she prefers the term, carpet muncher," Another person appeared, and I recognized him from the other night as well. His name I didn't remember, but I think he's the one with 'mommy issues'.

Padme glared at the stranger, "Maul, I will hit you with something."

The man laughed in amusement, "I'm kidding love, have a beer." He pulled two bottles out of a case that another friend of there's was holding, handing it to Padme who shot Rex a victorious smile as she opened it.

More of this group began to pile in and take the empty seats surrounding the fire, until there was now about a dozen of us. None of them gave me a glance, and I'm beginning to think they either don't remember me or they simply don't recognize me now that I'm not covered in flour and I have my hair down.

Then my eyes landed on one, one face that was impossible to forget. He was sitting straight across the fire from me and leaned forward in the chair, using the fire to light his cigarette, before bringing it to his lips. His head turning in Padmé's direction as she told them a story about a date she recently had.

"That sounds shitty," Piett laughed before taking a drink of his beer, he offered one to Anakin who held his hand up to decline.

Padme rolled her eyes, "It was, but I'm still going on a second one."

Rex gave her a confused look, "You just said it was shitty, why would you go on another?"

She finished the beer in her hand, and hiccuped when she brought it down, "I believe in second chances, maybe she was just having an off day." She shrugged, "But if this one sucks too, then there won't be a third."

Everyone in the group nodded in agreement to her statement, "Hey I know you, you work at that bakery." I turned my head towards the voice, meeting the eyes of the one known as Piett, "You're the one that threatened to spray us with a hose." He added with an amused laugh.

My cheeks burned and I don't think it was because of the fire, "Yeah sorry about that, it was a bad day." And it only got worse after that.

Rex laughed; looking between his friends, all of them smiling at the memory, "What did you guys do to make someone as calm as (y/n), hostile?"

Piett turned his gaze towards Anakin, and so did I. My eyes landed on his captivating crystal blue ones, and that's when I noticed that he had been looking at me. Voices could be heard around us, but I didn't hear a single thing they said. It was like his stare kept me locked, and we remained with this contact as the fire between us rose gradually into our vision.

"(y/n)?" The voice of Josie snapped me out of the trance.

I turned to face her, and swallowed the strange feeling I had gotten down, "Hm?"

She gestured to Piett, who then began to speak; gaining my attention, "I was apologizing for our behavior the other night. We have more manners than that I swear, some of us just like to be difficult." He side-eyed Anakin.

I nodded, smiling back and avoiding the gaze of Anakin, even though I can still feel his tense stare on me, "It's alright, all is forgive-"

"Look what we have here, a couple of low-class criminals who steal money from their mommies."

I froze and I felt a chill crawl up my spine at that all too familiar cocky voice. I slowly looked over in the direction where I heard him and my heart fell into my stomach at the sight of Clovis. He stood with a few other jocks behind him as they glared at the group of greasers, his eyes have yet to land on me.

I noticed Maul shoot them a warning glare as one of his hands dug into his pocket, "Get the fuck out of here."

Piett stood up and held his hand towards Maul who looked ready to attack, "Look we're just having a good time with our friends, there's no need for this right now." He spoke to Clovis who looked him up and down with detest in his eyes.

Josie slowly reached over and placed her hand on mine, squeezing it tight for comfort.

"Not here," Clovis pointed to the ground, "Go somewhere else, we don't want your kind around." He stepped towards Piett, prompting Anakin and a few others to stand up, ready to defend their friend.

"Clovis, take your friends and go, you don't own the fucking beach." Josie spoke up with vexation in her tone, a tone so hateful that even I was surprised.

His eyes immediately darted to her, then he met my own and they widened, "(y/n)," He uttered my name in surprise, "What are you doing here?"

I opened my mouth to speak, but Josie held her hand up, "Do not talk to her, you lost that right when you cheated," She snapped in his direction. Rex held a smug grin at his crazy sister while he took a drink of his beer, "So leave, this drama is petty and just plain unnecessary."

He completely ignored her and kept his attention on me, "We break up and you immediately run off with these people?" He looked at me in disgust with a head shake, making my chest ache at the way he was looking at me, "How would your dad feel if-"

"That's it," Josie stood up from her chair, and started putting her hair in a ponytail. Clovis eyed her actions in surprise, "The fucking audacity you have to come here and lecture her about who she hangs out with;" She finished placing her hair up and began walking towards him, "Oh I've been waiting to do this."

"Nope, this is where I draw the line," Rex grabbed her by her newly put up hair, and pulled her back down onto her chair, "Clovis, get out of here, you at least owe (y/n) that."

"Rex if you don't let me-"

"Shut up Josie, if I have to call mom to bail you out, she's gonna give me shit for it."

My ex's eyes stayed on mine, as he bit the inside of his cheek in thought, until another person showed, "Let's go baby they're not worth it." My heart sank when Celeste, the head cheerleader of our school, grabbed Clovis by his arm and attempted to tug him away from the conflict.

The head cheerleader, seriously? How fucking cliché can he be?

I clenched my jaw together when her gaze landed on me, and she smiled, like she was mocking me, "They're definitely not worth it." She giggled as she successfully got them to leave. But not without turning around and shooting me taunting smile before facing forward again and leaning her head on his arm. Clovis didn't even bother to look at me once she arrived, probably out of guilt.

"Celeste?" I heard Josie exclaim in shock, "I've always hated her, now I have an actual reason to. Are you okay (y/n)?"

I wanted to cry, I wanted to scream, but instead; I picked up the bottle of beer at my feet, and stood up, "I just need a minute." I told her, and everyone else as well I guess, since they were all currently staring at me. This was embarrassing to have my dirty laundry laid out like this.

I walked away, passing the flames and chairs. heading straight towards a small rocky cliff that hung over the water. I climbed it, and sat on the edge with my feet dangling over; taking sips of the beer here and there while I kept my gaze on the crashing waves. The moonlight illuminated the water, giving me a hauntingly beautiful view. I felt like I had been sitting up here for nearly ten minutes when I heard someone coming up behind me.

"You're not going to jump off, are you?"

I snorted at the comment from the unknown person who decided to join me, "No, but it's definitely a thought." I remarked with a chuckle, taking another drink of the disgusting beer. I'm not a huge fan of beer, but I am a huge fan of its effects.

"Then I guess," He sat down next to me, his legs dangling next to mine over the short cliff, "I should stay, for suicide watch purposes."

Curious; I turned my head to look at the person, and almost jumped in surprise at who it was. I was so caught up in my own sorrow, that I didn't even recognize his voice, "Oh, it's you." I looked away from Anakin, and back out towards the ocean with a sigh.

He laughed, and it sounded close to something angelic, "Ouch, I thought all was forgiven?"

"Well I didn't exactly hear an apology from you," I responded; leaning back on my elbows, and turning my head up to look at him.

He smiled down at me, the moonlight shining across his features, "How about, you let me apologize by taking you to dinner."

Is this guy for real?

"I just got my heart broken by that douchebag back there, what makes you think I'm ready to go on a date?" I rolled my watery eyes, before bringing the beer up and taking a bigger drink than usual.

"Okay," He leaned back on his elbows just as I was, "Then don't think of it as a date, think of it as an apology meal. And if you happen to like me then we can have multiple apology meals."

I laughed at him, and not in a making-fun-of way either, but because I was actually entertained by him, "Thanks for the offer, but I work.

He furrowed his brows at me, "I never said a day."

"I work every day." I lied, because not only did I just get out of a relationship and I was still devastated over it. I wouldn't ever date a greaser, their relationship reputation isn't the greatest.

Even if this one is slightly tempting since he's beyond attractive, but that just makes him more dangerous. And I know now more than ever that I need to protect my heart at all costs.

He chuckled, "You're going to make this difficult for me aren't you?" He looked back over to me, determination in his eyes.

I stood up and and straightened out my shirt, preparing to go back down to ask Josie if we could go, "Look there are plenty of emotionally available girls who I'm sure are dying to give you their attention Anakin."

He shrugged while peering up at me and continued to dangle his feet over the edge, "True, but I happen to want yours."

I shook my head, laughing at this difficult, and delusional man, "You don't even know me." We met once, twice if you count today.

He stood up and towered over me by almost a foot, he was even taller than Clovis, "I know that your name is (y/n), you work at a bakery, you look adorable covered in flour, you have terrible taste in men, and you're very feisty," He smiled beautifully, his eyes scanning my features with intrigue, "All my boxes are checked."

I snorted before turning around to go back down the rocks, "This is never gonna happen blondie."

On my way down, I slipped on a rock and almost fell, but I was caught from behind, "I got you." He spoke low near my ear while he continued helping me down the rocks

Once we reached the sandy floor, he let me go, and I nervously faced him, "Thanks-"

"Oh my gosh (y/n) are you okay? I saw you fall." Josie was suddenly next to me, and I pulled my eyes away from Anakin to look at my best friend.

"I'm fine," I assured her, "But I want to go home, I don't want to be here if he's here."

She nodded in understanding, "Okay I can ask Rex since I've been drinking a bit, but I'm sure he wouldn't min-"

"I can do it." Anakin cut her off, causing both of our eyes to look over to him in surprise, "I haven't had anything tonight, so I can take her if she wants. I was planning to leave anyway."

Josie turned her attention to me, "It's up to you (y/n). I can ask Rex, or you can go with Ani."

"Don't call me Ani, you know I hate that." He huffed, rolling his eyes.

"I know, that's why I call you it, Ani." She smiled to annoy him. He shook his head, not amused by her.

I glanced over to our group to see Rex laughing with his friends. I would feel guilty asking him to leave, and the fact that Josie used Anakin as an option means she trusts him, so I will too for the moment, "I'll go with blondie." I tilted my head towards Anakin, who seemed happy with my answer, "I'll see you tomorrow okay?" We had planned a girls day after I got off of work.

She smiled, giving me a hug, "It's a date babe, I'll tell everyone you said bye."

"Thanks Josie," I broke away from the hug, before turning to Anakin who was gesturing for me to follow him.

"Take care of my best friend Ani, or I'll make a call to your brother and tell him that you didn't quit smoking like you said you would." She threatened him and he flipped her the middle finger without turning around.

I followed behind him until we reached the parking lot. Just when I thought he was about to walk up to a car, he stopped at a motorcycle and my eyes widened, "This is yours?" I asked. He nodded with a cocky smile, holding a helmet up towards me. I shook my head immediately, "Yeah, no I'm not getting on this death trap."

He burst out laughing in amusement, still holding the helmet in my direction, "I promise, you'll be safe with me."

I still stood there reluctantly debating on just going back and asking Rex, until I glanced behind Anakin to see Clovis, looking at me even though he had Celeste in his arms. I felt a deep rage inside of me that shadowed over the pain I had been feeling.

I took a deep breathe and accepted the helmet, hoping Clovis was watching me right now, "Fine, but this doesn't mean that I want to go on a date with you." I got behind him and wrapped my arms around his waist for safety. My nose was immediately engulfed with his cologne.

"Whatever you say gorgeous, now tell me where to go."

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