~*~*Harry's POV*~*~

I sat on the bed lost in my thoughts. Madam Pomfrey had said that even if I had taken the blue potion I could still change my mind. I pulled the little red vial from my pocket. I felt a little guilty for lying to Draco about it. I didn't know exactly what I wanted but tomorrow we would board the train and be separated.

I snuck out of the Room of Requirement and did my best to avoid being seen. I didn't want Draco knowing that I had left. I did love him that much I knew. Right up until getting pregnant I was highly dependent on him always being there. I could feel the change within me as it was happening though.

Draco's touch still made me feel completely at ease but I also didn't feel as uncertain when he wasn't around. It was like before that potion spilt on me. I wanted to talk to Ron and Hermione about everything and get their advice. Now Ron was dating Blaise and Hermione was still kind of against Draco.

"Everything okay Harry?"

I jumped and let out a surprised yelp. "Neville! Hey. You scared me."

"Sorry I didn't mean to. You just seemed so distracted."

I shrugged. "Because I am, I guess."

"Do you want to talk about it?"

Neville was a decent friend. He had helped me out before but honestly we never really hung out all that much. I appreciated his offer and found myself accepting it. We both sat down on our beds and I cast a silencing bubble around us. I didn't want everyone knowing my secrets after all.

"I don't quite understand it. But you shouldn't feel guilty for wanting to keep the baby. Maybe it would be a good idea to have some time apart? I mean if you feel like you need him I'm sure you'll know where to find him." Neville seemed to be in deep thought as he spoke.

"I'm kind of surprised that you're not freaking out." I frowned.

"Oh I am." Neville admitted. "But it won't help you so I'm trying not to be. You don't need any more problems."

I smiled a little at that. Neville was always so empathetic. He continued to mumble other stuff and some suggestions. Honestly I started to feel like I needed Draco again but I pushed the feeling aside. I had been enough of a burden and my desire to be with Draco wasn't out of necessity. I just wanted him.

"If he doesn't know you left isn't he going to be worried?"

Neville's question caught me off guard. I hadn't thought about that and we hadn't exactly been separated yet so he would still be able to find me. I fiddled with the vial of red liquid in my hand and sighed. I decided to write him a letter since I really didn't want to face him. I had caused enough issues.

"Would you mind giving him a letter if he came looking for me?" I asked Neville. "And get my cloak from him if you can."

Neville nodded his head and I got to writing the letter. I knew that this was kind of cowardly of me. I knew what I was doing was kind of wrong. I folded the letter and handed it to Neville. Then I took down the bubble and climbed into my bed. The fabric was cold and I shivered. My mind drifted to Draco again.

I heard Neville leave the room and I curled up into myself. If it wasn't for that damn unbreakable vow... I sighed and shivered again. I had to make things right. That was my purpose. It wasn't going to be easy and I couldn't put Draco through that. Especially since I was forcing him to complete a mission he was clearly against. That goddamn unbreakable vow.

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I asked Ron to take my things onto the train for me. I was glad that it was such a natural thing since he didn't complain. I had told him that I was going to be with Draco even though that was a lie. Honestly I didn't want Draco seeing my stuff being carried by air. I didn't know how to tell him what I was planning on doing.

I slid into a cabin just as Hermione shut the door. I managed to squeeze past her and Ron and sat on the floor. I was afraid that sitting on the chair would make my presence known. I hadn't expected Draco, Blaise and Parkinson to enter the same cabin. I held my breath as everyone sat down.

"Where's Harry?" Draco eventually asked.

"I was about to ask you the same thing." Ron frowned.

"Why?"

"He told me he was going to be with you." Ron shrugged.

"Well he's clearly not." Draco rolled his eyes.

Draco sighed and leaned back in his seat. I fought back the urge to crawl over to him. The point of this was to make a clean break. I couldn't let myself be known. Blaise wrapped his arm around Ron's shoulder and I felt like crying. I was happy for Ron but seeing that only made me want Draco more.

Draco scoffed and turned his back towards Ron and Blaise. He was so fucking close to me! The ride was silent for the most part. Draco kept his back turned to Blaise and Ron who were both fast asleep within 30 minutes. Parkinson and Hermione were talking to each other on the other side.

After another hour past Draco fell asleep. I stood up and pulled the cloak from my head. Hermione and Parkinson almost yelled but I covered their mouths. When they had calmed down I turned towards Draco. I always loved seeing how peaceful he was when he was sleeping. I ran my fingers through his hair and he shifted. I placed a second letter that I had written next to him, kissed his cheek and left.

"Harry!" Hermione yelled after me. "What's going on?"

"Too much to explain." I smiled sadly and shrugged. "If he wakes up anytime soon, ask him to explain. Tell him I said he doesn't have to keep anything back."

"Where are you going?" Parkinson asked.

I shrugged again. "It's something I have to take care of on my own. Will you tell Draco that I'm sorry please."

Hermione and Parkinson were still asking stuff when I pulled the cloak over me again. I couldn't imagine what Draco was going to think but I hoped he didn't blame himself. I had made my mind up a long time ago and recent developments only meant that I had adjusted my plan and not abandoned it.

Draco had enough to deal with, especially since he and Severus had to fulfill that mission. Now he was going home to the same house Evil Tom was in. I had originally planned on asking Draco to come with me until I forced him to do something he didn't want to. It made me feel like asking him would force the decision.

I mean telling him I planned to go on a dangerous mission to try and restore Tom's soul while carrying his child wasn't exactly something he'd just let me do on my own. No one in their right mind would just say "Okay, just be safe without me". I know that I definitely wouldn't let Draco do something like that on his own. I imagine he wouldn't let me do it either.

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