Fear is something that keeps on growing. You can never be completely okay about something you fear.

If I talk about myself, I was never the person to face people or situations that I was afraid of. I was scared to hell of.

My fears were too high to settle down.

People tell me now that they are amazed to see me not giving up on situations where I should. But you know what?

There are some people, in your life that you think don’t understand what's going on your life and always tell you the hard way to get over them, they tell you ways that are harder, they say you stuff that upset you, and you think of them as someone not trying to even understand your position.

So you just sit back and stop bothering them with your stupid stuff. But you know what?

They are the people who have taught you to FIGHT! They may be telling you the toughest route, the hardest path, but trust me they are the ones telling you about reality.

At the end you have to stand up for yourself, no one is going to come and save you because no one can come in your shoes and feel what you feel. I remember sharing a lot of stuff I was and still am scared of, all the fears, everything with a very close friend and got this reply:

‘I know its the hardest way I can tell you to get out of it, but trust me, STAND RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR FEAR AND FREAKING FACE IT, SEE HOW MUCH YOU CAN TAKE IT, HOW CAN YOU CAN BEAR, ONCE YOU FACE IT, I PROMISE YOU’LL FEEL NOTHING ABOUT IT AFTERWARDS’

I didn’t realised what she said me, but. I yesterday I was laying on my bed with eyes closed and this hit me hard suddenly. And I thought, why was I thinking the other way round?

But this wave ran through my entire body, telling me this is how we overcome fears.

This is how we become stronger. This is how we learn to live.
And how dumb of me to assume things on my own.

Sometimes words go deep. And they are enough to change you.
Allah bless you! 💙

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There are always going to be some people, who actually want to see you happy.

Who do every freaking thing just to make you happy, even if they have to go beyond their limits, they’ll do it for you.

These are the people who will tell you what actually being a friend means.

I never knew i’ll meet them at the most unexpected time of my life, i literally stopped believing in people but after I met them, and after all the things they do, I’m amazed.

Time means nothing, someone you have known from years and years can leave you at times of need but sometimes people you meet yesterday can have better intentions for you.

Its never about the time. NEVER!

Alhamdullilah a hundred times. This is just because of some people that I am a fighter, I’m handling everything.

This strength is just because of them. Its because of them that I am never going to give up. 💫

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NOVEMBER 06 ,2019

(Sitting beside the hotel window, in Muree )

COFFEE
MOUNTAINS
ECHOS

Look at everything with fresh eyes.Don't let your eyes desensitized TO BEAUTIFUL things flowers ,stars,moon ,mountains.they all are free to look.
Kindness is free.See everything.

Life ,my friend is too BEAUTIFUL when you look outside of the head and pay attention to present.✔

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Some chai(s) are unforgettable,
Let me mark here.
The chai at cafe with my family , oh apart from the taste I loved chai ,after long we were together.

I noticed the happiest face of Baba , the , the carefree mama and all us enjoying, I am here after 4'years .
MOUNTAINS are always my favourite.

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Almighty is All_seeing.
Too Merciful.
How he turned night into day ,turned burdens into blessings.
And , see how I was worried and he helped as always.

NOVEMBER 13 ,2019'

“Words”have a unique siginficance in our lives!

Exchange of words(communication)is a healthy source of emotional cathersis.Words can buildup or breakdown a person.

Life brings sensitive moments when your emotions dominate your intellect and your words turn into regret  afterwards!It’s appaling that some people are in a constant urge of hurting you through their venomous speech!It shouldn’t be their concern if you couldn’t graduate or if you’re jobless or unmarried.

A sensible approach would be to convert their criticism into motivation!Instead of replying to their filthy remarks give in efforts to build yourself up!

Appreciate those people whose words became a ray of hope in your darkest days!Never feel reluctant to express your gratitude by saying”Thankyou,you’re the best”.Never let your ego dominate your guilt and say”sorry,I was wrong”If you’re at fault.Be bold enough to say”it’s none of your bussiness”to people when they comment on your insecurities!

One of the virtues of sagacity is to handle the balance of sentiments and speech!It’s a matter of experience that makes us careful towards the appropriate choice of words and we learn to resolve problems sensibly🙌

- November 15,2019

There was no way out. I couldn’t even speak about all my negative thoughts to people close to me. Instead it was piling up somewhere inside my body. My thoughts were scary, they took me to another world  where I don’t belong. They made me forget why I was alive, they were always alarming. I had no way out to just keep them inside my body, because no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t speak about them. Until one day, I finally did. Not actually I did but a very close friend just asked me and everything inside me cried. I let it out. Every bit of me. All what I could. And I don’t have words how to thank him for what he did. He understood everything I said, he knows depression is real, we all know. We all know whatever I just said is pretty normal, and alarming too so he just came up with this beautiful QURAN PAAK. And said ‘Just keep it with you, try to read it, even if you can’t gather the strength to read, just keep it close to you’ and I guess this is beautiful. I never knew this is going to change so much of me. I won’t lie, yes I don’t read it regularly, It took me months to get out of that scary phase because I still get those thoughts, I still get there but, what matters is that I HAVE THIS . And I HAVE A STRONG FAITH IN THIS. But now when after months I opened it, I read it, I SWEAR I SWEAR There's NOTHING NOTHING PEACEFUL THAN THIS. FEELS LIKE ALLAH IS PROMISING YOU THAT HE WILL FIX EVERYTHING JUST DON’T GUVE UP.
I know whenever I’m down, I’m scared,  I’m falling, I’m just going to open my closet and pick it up. Open it and just sit and read. I will never have words to thank him for giving me this. I swear. This is the most beautiful turning point of my life.

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